A long time ago, if i could get my hands on it, I loved the combo of whatever opiates i could find (oxycontin, fentynol, ms contin) washed down with a lot of booze, and some meth. I loved singing and playing guitar like that at shows. But it can be so exhausting to have to constantly be searching for all these required chemicals you need to function properly. Opiates are the main thing you need cuz you're gonna be sick without 'em. If you're inthe middle of a meth binge and you run out and can't find or afford any more, you are going to barely be able to get out of bed and you can't or don't want to do anything because your body now requires the meth to give you the enrgy and drive u need. You body has stopped producing the chemicals that make you have the energy to do stuff (like brush your, bathe, and make it to your gig and try to not look like your'e in such terrible shape and feeling sick).
And i gotta say, alcohol is the worst drug to detox from. U can easily die. Especially older people. You have to go to some detox in order to get the meds u need stay alive and not experience so much hell, which are all mostly benzos like, ativan, serax, or librium. Of course a person like me is now going to be turned onto the benzos. I especially liked the Ativan. I was in serious alcohol withdrawl and feeling like i wanted to die. When i finally got to see the doctor, he prescribed Ativan and it seemes like it instantly took away a lot of, if not all, of my withdrawl symptons. When my Ativan dosing schedule ended, I could realize that i wasn't just feeling better because the alcohol was leaving my system and i was seeing what it was like to to not be completely drunk at all times. The Ativan was making feel alright even as the doses were slowly tapered down.
So i don't drink at all any more, but i do have a constant jones for benzos and i do take 45 8 mg films of suboxone every month.