Sky God
Bluelighter
@ChemicallyEnhanced i knew nothing about methadone and by the time i went to he clinic i was so sick i would have taken anything to stop it. I have PTSD and i couldn't handle the mental hell. I had a decent (180 -300) oxycodone habit which turned into heroin. The " Doctor"said weaning off of it would be painless and barely noticeable . That was day 4 no drugs. If they told me i only had a couple days of the agony left and slightly increased my benzo i would have sweat the couple days out Or tapered me even if i had to go in daily. They gave me a bigger more powerful weird habit . I would have never touched Fentanyl let alone inject it but when i tapered methadone the psychological part got bad and i started having thoughts of killing myself and after a couple weeks of that and no sleep i went straight to Fent( heroin is extremely hard to find now) .
I can't blame others for my actions but they should have warned me because every day i'm playing with fire with Fentanyl. I have begged and cried for them to put me on something like slow release morphine and ii would even go daily but nope. I have begged to increase my clonazepam for a week or 2 when i'm at the end of the taper but nope.
They haven't helped me, just saved me money and a few sick days. Now my habit is worse and i'm stuck on the methadone fentanyl loop.
By law they should have educate a person because 4 years later my life is worse not better and i am in no way blaming them for my use but in a way if they listened to me i would probably have been clean 4 years ago . I wanted to quit then and might have had a chance at a decent life
I can't blame others for my actions but they should have warned me because every day i'm playing with fire with Fentanyl. I have begged and cried for them to put me on something like slow release morphine and ii would even go daily but nope. I have begged to increase my clonazepam for a week or 2 when i'm at the end of the taper but nope.
They haven't helped me, just saved me money and a few sick days. Now my habit is worse and i'm stuck on the methadone fentanyl loop.
By law they should have educate a person because 4 years later my life is worse not better and i am in no way blaming them for my use but in a way if they listened to me i would probably have been clean 4 years ago . I wanted to quit then and might have had a chance at a decent life
