The vocal is me trying to take a shit after being on 50mg of Methadone for months on end.
Careful not to strain too hard! It can cause hernias. I know from personal experience during my own opiate phase
Took me years to realise what it was, as I just thought i had a bad pot belly. But then one day I noticed it was all lumpy, sore, and tender, and was off to the GP.
And now I'm on the waiting list for surgery to repair a big tear in my abdominal wall.
Weirdly I don't recall any particularly bad pain when that happened.
But I'll have to go under the general anaesthetic propofol, which you'll probably know, by many accounts is a pleasant experience.
But it can be deadly when combined with benzos. As Michael Jackson famously demonstrated.
I'm going to have to figure out how not to end up like MJ. Although he took stupid massive doses, and I don't.
I'll probably just have to cold turkey for about 18 to 24 hours before the surgery, or take half a 10mg diaz to keep the w/ds at bay.
With any luck they'll see how anxious I am, and give me benzos anyway, and adjust the dose of propofol accordingly.