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Positive What are you grateful for ?

I'm grateful for boba/bubble tea. Just had one and had body rolls as if I was on ecstasy 😁
But honestly, grateful for my family, my friends, having a roof over my head and being financially ok and relatively healthy as well as long-term sober.
 
Nothing. Life is a retarded meet grinder. A horrible accident that it evolved and a horrible accident is each birth including mine. Wish I had the balls to kms.

The unvisere needs to suck itself back into a black hole ala pre big bang so this travesty of matter becoming self aware never happens again
 
LucidSDreamr said:
Nothing. Life is a retarded meet grinder. A horrible accident that it evolved and a horrible accident is each birth including mine. Wish I had the balls to kms.

The unvisere needs to suck itself back into a black hole ala pre big bang so this travesty of matter becoming self aware never happens again
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I hope things get better for you. I was in your shoes not really that long ago. Things will get better. Try to stay positive. If you can, see a psychologist. It can be liberating having someone objective you can talk to. Life is precious and I hope things improve for you :(
 
thatmf said:
I hope things get better for you. I was in your shoes not really that long ago. Things will get better. Try to stay positive. If you can, see a psychologist. It can be liberating having someone objective you can talk to. Life is precious and I hope things improve for you :(
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I have a therapist

I’ve also been thinking like this for 6 years very ideologically (elifism and antinatalist). And before that I had a looser belief in these ideas

Even when my life is going amazing; I’d prefer being unconscious and dead or never born.

So it’s not some woe is me or me having a bad week. It’s an ideological viewpoint I’ve read books about (benetar is the main classic in the philosophy).

So this is kind of a consequence of life experiences but combined with a lot of reading and self seeking about my ideology surrounding life. So I don’t think it will change unless I unlearn a bunch of stuff I’ve vaguely arrived at then was cemented by certain philosophers and their writing.

Everyone always said “well why not kill yourself then?" The only answer I have is that pesky evolutionary instinct to survive at all costs even when it doesn’t make sense (ie ppl that keep getting treatment for terminal cancer) ppl and animals that don’t kill themselves when crippled or suffering immensely etc.
 
i am thankful for having a brain that keeps me from saying what i think every time i feel like it.

some situations call for it, some not so much.
and there are places to let out the bad vibes, and places where people go to read positive comments because in that moment they need positivity, and not something that pulls them down again.

so i'm also thankful that there is a subforum where people who need to share their bad feelings can do it.

i hope you all have a positive new year 2025!
 
@LucidSDreamr
I have been where you are and it is a horrible place to be.
You do NOT have to feel this way.
With some time and some effort on your behalf, you CAN find that life is amazing and wonderful.

Remember this- You have to be lost in order to be found.
Hold on!
You are in my prayers.
I am not religious but due to Near Death Experience- I KNOW that we are loved and watched over very carefully.
We are like little gods and it takes a whole lot of pain and suffering to BECOME WHAT WE REALLY ARE!!
Then you will have immense power, unlike anything I could explain to you.
You are not separate and alone.
You are connected and part of Mother Nature.
Trust in that. Let it teach you.
Be OPEN to incredible possibilities that you do not yet know of!
You are needed here!!!

You are loved,
Be well
❤️
 
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Painful One said:
You are connected and part of Mother Nature.
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once, when i was in a bad place and feeling like i don't belong, i was caught in the sight of bids doing their bird things. i saw how one alarmed the others about an upcoming danger, and how they all flew in a specific way that suggested that they had some sort of strategy to keep the birds of prey away from most of the group so they had a chance to escape.

it was that moment when i realized deep inside me that there is more to life than just humans and their screwed up society.
 
lecroute said:
once, when i was in a bad place and feeling like i don't belong, i was caught in the sight of bids doing their bird things. i saw how one alarmed the others about an upcoming danger, and how they all flew in a specific way that suggested that they had some sort of strategy to keep the birds of prey away from most of the group so they had a chance to escape.

it was then moment when i realized deep inside me that there are more to life than just humans and their screwed up society.
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YES INDEED!
Keep on observing nature.
It has much to teach us.

Edit- that last part was for @LucidSDreamr
(Just realized whom I was speaking with) 😂
Forgive me for my mistake.
❤️
 
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Painful One said:
YES INDEED!
Keep on observing nature.
It has much to teach us.

Edit- that last part was for @LucidSDreamr
(Just realized whom I was speaking with) 😂
Forgive me for my mistake.
❤️
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i don’t want to hi jack the thread but my views really don’t stem from some lack of life or lack of fulfilling things to pursue. They don’t necessarily stem from extreme suffering in the moment either although I have suffered in the past.

It’s really after a lot of soul searching and taking an academic approach to understanding life that I’m here. Maybe I read the wrong books but I also read tons of self help positive books too and they didn’t speak to me as much.

I’ve done a lot and seen a lot of amazing things in nature and the world. I’ve traveled to some of the wildest remote corners of earth to commune and be part of nature (which itself is just a big circle of struggle to survive and killing and dying). It really isn’t that beautiful to watch a fish with its entrails dragging behind it try and keep up with the school or a seal with fatal bite wounds beach itself and just bleed out on the beach.

I don’t like life. It’s not that I don’t like my life; it’s probably better than 95% of lives in the world on paper.

I just don’t like it. I don’t see any point to any of this and even fun or serving others doesn’t seem to bring purpose. Which are the two things they tell me to do to give life meaning.

I pray something or someone will lkill me or that I’ll get the courage (and selfishness really because it will hurt my partner terribly) to end this.
 
Grateful for The Circle of Life (and for death)
Grateful for SPIRIT

Drop the “academic” approach @LucidSDreamr my friend.
Feel with your heart.
Look to the Ethereal.
With Love,
❤️ P.O
 
I understand @LucidSDreamr
I also suffer with chronic pain.
I often wish Death would come to me.

Forgive me. (I understand what you are going through by mentioning the fish with its entrails hanging out)
I am so sorry.
I have been ripped off a well controlled medication situation and thrown to the suboxone clinic.
It feels like my spirit is leaking out all over the place.
I am back to not being able to eat or sleep and I am going mental.
 
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