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[Alprazolam8129]

Isnt fuckin dxm like a cough medicine? lmao. well trust me i know what your going through and i know for a fact if you really love your girlfriend that is the hardest thing to leave. When i was theatened to be sent to a group home for drugs my worst fear was loosing my girlfriend we both love each other deeply and could never leave each others side.

I have said to my self many times if im sent there and i can never see her again i will kill myself. Quit your stupid pethetic drug use or atleast stop to about 2 drugs(weed,vicodin for me im also on suboxone thanks to CH). Make your girlfriend your main priority make her your addiction, its way better than drugs trust me. yes, there are hard times while quitting drugs but like fifleman said it is 100% Mental addiction. And you said to yourself you would rather go though oxy withdraws. When i was doing heroin and OD'd and saw my girlfriend crying that hard i knew it was time to stop my addiction to heroin and xanax, The withdraws were terrible but i got the fuck over it. I was pissy at everyone even on this site i was jus cursing people out why heroin withdraws.

Maybe you need to see something like that for yourself, see everyone who cares about you cry heavily in front of your face from overdosing on lets say for your sake DXM and then you'll see how much you cherish the ones who love you 100 times more than drugs. Drugs are just things that once they grip you there going to be stuck there like gluing your fingers together and noting getting them unstuck till running them under water and if you really love your girlfriend she could be the source that disconnects you from your addiction.

 

[TheSpiritWithin]

um the only thing i see as harmful in that list of "drugs" you got there is dxm y would u need rehab lsd weed or shrooms

 

[stuckinaloop]

Is your parents problem that you do the drugs or that you are irresponsible and don't take care of your responsibilities while on it? Because i know how you feel on the only being happy high. But the way i see it if, is that if you live your life and do the things you should, get your work done, do well in school all that shit, then it shouldn't matter if you do it on dxm. as long as you dont just sit around being high all the time ignoring everything, but if your doing it everyday it really is going to become a serious health problem, and if you think leaving your girl for rehab would be bad, just imagine how she would feel if you were gone for good

I am sorry...I won't say this advice is stupid but I def do not agree.

So it's ok to be addicted to dxm if he's doing his "chores" and homework but not if he's neglecting them?

Do you really think his parents should look at it like that?

You mentioned an oxy addiction at 15...that is serious shit you should REALLY REALLY stay away from since you clearly have an addictive personality.

But honestly, if you drop the dxm, the shrooms acid and weed are just like experimental drugs IMO almost all kids try. I am not saying they are harmless but IMO they are nothing to worry about. I don't think you should be in rehab or some shit. The DXM you really need to drop for health reasons. You WILL regret your use and extended you will make it worse and worse.

Try to explain to your mom the psychedelic aspect like seeing life/ideas on different planes etc...

Do not ever touch an opiate again.

 

[OverteHorizonRadar]

first off, pondering death is a very stupid and immature way to handle a problem. .

Shut your mouth. It doesnt matter how young he is, while i will agree suicide is not the answer you responded in a way that just makes you look like the immature stupid person. You should leave Bluelight with that kind of attitude.
OP i think that going to rehab is the way to get your parents respect and love for you back. Once you come back and youre completely clean, they will be really proud of you. Good luck.

 

[menglerrr]

Shut your mouth. It doesnt matter how young he is, while i will agree suicide is not the answer you responded in a way that just makes you look like the immature stupid person. You should leave Bluelight with that kind of attitude.
OP i think that going to rehab is the way to get your parents respect and love for you back. Once you come back and youre completely clean, they will be really proud of you. Good luck.

hahaha.

 

[Chainer]

Shut your mouth. It doesnt matter how young he is, while i will agree suicide is not the answer you responded in a way that just makes you look like the immature stupid person. You should leave Bluelight with that kind of attitude.

So what, everyone is entitled to their opinion as long as it's yours? Irony is abound in this thread.

OP, good luck. If you can't spend a day off the trees shrooms and lucy, you should consider the rehab, see if you can try a month program or something to the likes. The drugs you are naming aren't particularly addictive substances, though I can't speak for DXM as I do not know. It's more about self control at this point.

I started young as well and had to get my shit together. Rents sent me to catholic school for 6 years. Wasn't to bad (and those rich kids had the best drugs ), and I learned how to control myself. I'm glad I was forced to go.

 

[nath6023]

Some very caring people here. You have a habbit by the sounds of it. In my opinion i like to seperate the adiction as physical and the habit is still hard to kick but at least you don't get sick when you don't do anything. Rehab sounds like a waste of time to me. If you wanna dose you will dose and rehab is easier to get drugs than the street from what i've seen. You need to understand that it's your life and your parents see you "fucked up" and think you're on heroin or somthing hard. I used heroin for 4 years while working hard and my parents didn't know until i told them and went on MMT. But when they saw me on DXM they freaked out because of how fucked up you look. DXM should be used for spirituallity. I only go 4th or 5th plateu's otherwise it's abuse in my mind. Stear clear of opiates and let your parents know you love them and will stop. Use DXM when you feel like your soul needs it. Being on the 5th plateu is very simmilar to death/ NDI. (I've been resusitated after 6mins no heart beat). You don't want to come back i know. But when you do you realise this life is short my friend and not worth "not experiencing". So give life a go and touch on death with DXM. Try praying before you down a few bottles and pray until you can't and your life may change. Use MDMA if you wanna get fucked up or smoke heaps of weed. But please don't use drugs that fuck the way you look in front of them. You need a safe place to trip/journey. A close friend would be nice, but i don't have one so my car and ferrets in the bush is my place. Peace and DON'T GIVE UP. You can die anytime, anywhere, but you live once.

 

[nath6023]

I'm an adult now, and my mother's been aware of my drug use for some time.
Weed is fine, it's almost legal (the next decade or so), and you need to explain to your parents the spiritual journey one experiences on a hallucinogen such as mushrooms. I haven't tried acid yet but I will. And dxm is a lot more spiritual than people give it credit for. People can't get past the stigma of "It's cough medicine, so it can't be good."
But if you know anything about chi you know the energy you feel, spraying from your hands. Your body can't hold your soul in. It's amazing. I know. I love it.
Now I reserve it for special occasions, like a rave (I can no longer take ecstasy; on SSRI).
How old are you? I imagine in high school.
Right now bro just settle down on hard drugs. Don't get involved with anything other than hallucinogens because there's no way of justifying those to your parents. Give them this shpeel on spirituality and tell them you won't do anything except for weed again so long as you're under their roof.
Focus on school.
Get to college (if you're not already gettin) and live the college life then, not now. You work your ass off doing homework, but you can smoke weed while you do it (what i do, got a club card), and when there's no more work to do for a couple days.
Take some acid or something.
But make sure you have people with you.
A bunch of friends on dxm is like ecstasy. You all love each other to start so... There ya go.

I feel for you man 'cause I did a lot of dex, but played it off real well, for like 3 years.
That chi exists and I love playing with it.

But it seems you're doing what I was doing. Self-medicating with dxm. Every day.
I have a shrink now. It's what you need, trust me. Get antidepressants, smoke weed, and get ~normal before going back to the dex. You want it to be fun, not necessary.

The antidepressants are the major focus here. Get some of those. Your cycle of addiction is caused by a chemical imbalance. Chemicals fix chemical imbalances, so you find whatever chemicals you can. I get it all man. It's like I'm talking to myself. But I had to try to kill myself and get 51-50ed before I even wanted help.
Once you're on antidepressants you can see how everyone else is supposed to feel. Not too high, not low, normalish.
Then when you do drugs it's for the fun and the laughs and the friends. Not to feed the monkey.

Fuck that monkey...

Agree with you hole heartedly my friend. Spirituallity not religion will change your life. Well religion is good to brain wash and control/conform, spirituality is something that only you can grasp and understand. Try using it for this reason and it can change your life for the better.

 

[nath6023]

why does DXM make your liver fail?

I've been using it 3 bottles at a time for 10 years now. But not everyday. Once a fortnight etc. Spiritual substance. My liver is fine. Also i use 800mg codeine every day once a day. Can someone please provide medical proof of this? From a medical journal or somewhere trusted. Not the FDA or Narcs in the US.
Open minded on this one. Please link. Cheers.
Peace out.

 

[OverteHorizonRadar]

So what, everyone is entitled to their opinion as long as it's yours? Irony is abound in this thread.

absolutly right. Sorry i was so brash, but i happened to be really high, and pissed off that this guy was being so mean and rude to someone with a serious problem.