Pagey
Bluelight Crew
Like Re-distributed said, people do it to feel better themselves and probably about the fact that they're miserable, personally, i say pin it to your fridge so you can revel in that fact. >_>
I'm sorry to hear all of that especially the part about your father, I understand how you feel that your friend might have the right idea but personally i think you should not give up, everytime i've felt like giving up i've ended up just reading over the recovery support threads, I can't help but wonder how many other people like me have looked over them threads without actually posting in it and thought twice about doing something stupid because of the support from people like you, vaya, Re-distributed etc..... I'd guess a lot, so you're much than a worthless junkie and things will get better eventually just keep your chin up
Thanks a lot for that, I needed to hear it and it's very nice of you to say.
Hitting something better than a hit of something.. stop looking at things as good or bad.. rite sounds insane.. but just for tomorrow make up your mind that you are not going to judge something as good or bad.. it takes some practice, first step is realizing that you do this.. every time you get that insane frustration, and frustration is an emotion, think back a couple of thoughts, there it will bethe moment you decided something sucked.. then stop deciding that.. anger can be vented strait out of the body, just acknowledge it.. hello anger.. and let it radiate out of you.. really works, helps in the beginning to raise you eyes and arms skyward and say release (but you still have to release it) feel that energy flow out of you, last step smile and say that insanity that NSA borrowed from the buddhists really works and proceed in relative peace. keep it simple pagey.. keep yourself in today as yesterday will cause shame and guilt and tomorrow will cause fear, hopelessness, anxiety.. Just keep moving forward.. take it slow.. stay in today and learn how to enjoy it, good first step is quit making things bad by saying they are, today is all we ever have and life is really how we perceive it, so learn how to not make yourself miserable.. choices choices, you're doing great.. OH and don't let the bastards ruin your day.. ever
Yeah you're right I really have to stop doing that...I think these withdrawals are just really really getting to me, things had been improving considerably before I quit and I'd been starting to feel much better overall but ever since stopping I feel like I've just crashed. I'm having the most insane mood swings and I just don't know how to handle them so they turn into anger. I wrote out a suicide note earlier and 3 hours later I was feeling fine again. But yes, living in the present sounds like a rather good idea, I just need to learn how
thanks for all your help neversick, really
Make a note, we'll be in Paris on the 26th of June
Hopefully by then you have settled in to a place somewhat comfortably..
I insist that you take that day off to come help us pay our respects to mr mojo risin
Until then, just hang in there and try let the overpowering feelings, confusing emotions, unfair insults & shitty weather subside.
Haha trip I was just thinking how lately I've probably not been coming across so great for someone you're going to be meeting soon. I promise I don't vent so much in person :D
Anyway, noted. I'll definitely be around and looking forward to it.
