Would someone please explain to me how a mother who intentionally tried to kill herself on Mother's Day could rationally refuse family therapy with the daughter who found her and called 911?
How the hell does she expect me to live such a sheltered life around her, and NOT hold a grudge or some sort of disconnected feeling towards her and 'Mother's Day'? She refuses to take responsibility for her actions! Actions which have traumatized me to the point where I get panic attacks every time she is upset and decides to zonk out on pills and lock herself in her room! While I completely understand that suicide attempts happen in a place of chaos and sickness, I seriously want to smack everyone upside the fucking face who is constantly thinking and behaving as though my mother is some sort of stepford mother because she piles on makeup and fake smiles! She is a sick, selfish individual to the point where she refuses to acknowledge how sick and selfish she is, blames everyone around her for attacking HER, and WONDERS and WHINES about why anyone who knows her, can't stand being around her! Did she ever think for one split fucking second, that maybe everyone else isn't the problem? That maybe she is prescribed medication for a fucking reason? If she really is the incredible mother she claims to be, perhaps she should listen when I say that having her try to take her life on Mother's Day, and blaming me for it in the suicide note (and still to this day for my actions as a teenage drug addict) was something that I will never get over until we discuss it in a therapeutic setting!
If I were in her shoes, and I had a daughter who was a teenager at the time I tried to take my life on Mother's Day, the first thing I would have done the second I got out of that hospital was get the daughter that saved my life some fucking help! Instead I get told that I shouldn't have gone out with a boy the night before! Isn't that what eighteen year olds do?
