Get2Think
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 23, 2012
- Messages
- 297
I am so tired of feeling bored with life and everything about it. Its like my anti-suppressant or suboxone just stopped working and all of a sudden I'm wanting to drink beer and chase this one girl. Anything to get sidetracked from my main goal of finishing college. Its like Im doing so good, and have 5 months sober, but I feel really depressed these last few days and even though Ive gone jogging and spoiled myself with captain crunch berries, sushi, and a new 3ds video game. Im still feeling no satisfaction from anything. I should be feeling proud of myself and happy and encouraged but im not. I took a long daytime nap and when i woke up i immediately started craving more suboxone and its like i dont want to even do the things i enjoy unless i can do some more suboxone first. Its typical addict behavior/thinking, and I dunno, ive just been having a seriously BLAH week.