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Holidays bring out the best in everyone.
What is with some people and their making drama over trivial matters and turning fucking nonsense, stupid, pointless parts of life into some type of big deal? I for the absolute life of me cannot understand how people react to certain things, interpret things in their messed up heads to mean god knows what and just act unreasonable and selfishly.
Sorry that is vague so I will elaborate on what I mean at this moment. Literally I am being laid a guilt trip by my mother for when I exchanged the xmas gift I got last year from my sister year. First off, I returned the new NFL game for the new NHL game, because I preferred that game. I mean seriously, this is the kind of thing that upsets people. And then it gets construed into some type of BS about me not being nice enough to my sister. Huh, what?!? Where does this come from? Then an attempt to guilt trip me over all this is performed. For fucks sake, people are insane. Listen, me and my sister are not that close, that I can't deny. This apparently bothers my mother, for whatever reason. Its not like we are enemies, just not that friendly with one another. But my mother goes way out of line making it something that seems solely my fault. And the fact that some stupid xmas gift exchange is what triggers this tirade of nonsense just makes it completely baffle me.
Christ, I mean I am a laid back person. I don't like to get into arguments, I go out of my way to avoid them. I find them most often to be pointless and obnoxious, also naturally fueled by alcohol. At least if there is to be an argument make it over something worth a damn.
I have to fix things, so many things... I hate houses. Toilet shut off valve needs replacing... silverfish in the garage....... panic.. Just things to panic about.
Oh yeah and that ever daunting sinkhole paranoia
Hey XI really hate my fucking life. Ugh, I hope I can fall asleep soon because I can't deal with these thoughts that I deal with every fucking day. Now I know why I've been drinking heavily every day for basically a month straight... it makes everything easier. Being fucked up on alcohol or heroin makes everything so much fucking easier because I don't have to care anymore. I don't care about living, and I don't care about dying when I'm fucked up. I don't care about anything at all because I'm just there. I'm just existing.
Whatever, I'm through with your negativity. I don't care if you want to be miserable for the rest of your life but just leave me out of it. I'm no angel and make mistakes but I'm not going to sit here and believe everything is all my fault. You don't love me, you don't even fucking know me. As far as I'm concerned any pathetic excuse of a relationship we've ever had is over with. Have a nice life.