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I already drive 25 miles to work so it would be a 45 mile drive twice a day... The 20mile (1hr) drive already kills me.
 
Aww <3 I think you should at least relocate to another store. You shouldn't have to feel that way at work

Even if you choose to leave this job, that does not make a quitter - i promise. You wouldn't be leaving it because of laziness or anything like that- you would be leaving because you are getting sexually harassed, which no one should have to tolerate.

much love to you. <3
 
stardust.hero said:
I'm really considering quitting my job.. It's taking a toll of me terribly. My General Manager began sexually harassing me, he put pornos in my locker and I came forward after my boyfriend made me. I had to write an incident report and an investigation was supposed to ensue. The District Manager assured me if at anytime I felt like I wanted to move to another store that I could. I requested to be transferred to a store in close proximity but he only gave me the option to move to a store 20 miles farther than the store I'm currently at.

Today one of my coworkers told another coworker (who is friends of mine) that I place my breasts on customers to make sales. I get that close to a person already bugged out that I'm a sales shark trying to steal $3000 for a refrigerator from them is not going to be extra bugged out that I'm that close as to place my breasts? on them? Most of my customer base are families.. coming in to buy kitchen appliances. I don't understand what kind of warped world these people live in.

U.G.H!

Someone tell me I need to quit. My parents told me I need to quit. My boyfriend told me I need to quit. I've never been a quitter (at least when it comes to jobs ;-\). Is this law suit worthy? Should I take these people to court?
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Oh no, that is terrible Starduster. I need to concur w/ ad lib and say removing yourself from an abusive situation doesn't make you a quitter. This may sound cheesy, but it makes you a survivor in this world. I am loathe to give you advice as a male who's never experienced sexual harassment in the work place, but it pains me to think you'd feel lesser about yourself for extricating yourself from a harmful situation.

I hate to suggest this kinda thing, but if the company allows this behavior to fester and bubble over then some outside recourse should be taken - not only for yourself, but to protect future victims. Of course there are bad apples who will exhibit such behavior wherever they are, but I believe certain environments contribute to a culture of harassment. Perhaps you are now in a position to put an end to one of these environments. Sorry if I'm assuming the company is at fault here when they are not.

Above all, I'm sorry you experienced this. I hope everyone in your life is being supportive in the way you need.
 
Thanks moe love <3

I've never worked for a company that had this type of corruption. It's really really creepy. I'm the only female sales associate in the entire store. I would imagine hiring me was a bad idea on their part. Or at least the DM is now thinking that.

It's been really important hearing from my own parents (who are very strict) to quit. They've never outright told me to quit a job. They've always said to stick with it or stick it out.. They've even told me they would pay 2 months of my bills until I found another job which is very unlike them. But they urge me daily to quit so that's been a blessing and a curse. I know I won't feel guilt from them if I quit but it's also weighting on my mind every second of my workday that my parents are even telling me to just walk out.

I've worked with men.. Manager men... But I've never been degraded or harassed like I am at this place. It is so fucking creepy. The only thing I think I might want to hold on for like a few more weeks is I work full time so I can take advantage of the benefits I pay for ($12/mo) for vision and dental which is really good and covers basically everything except extreme procedures and even then they have a nice copay percentage.

I need to see an eye doctor.. I've never been to one and I know my vision is bad and the insurance fully covers the exam and lenses and 80% of the frames. The dental covers the visit and cleanings 2x/year 100% and 80% on cavities which I think I might have one.. I've never had a cavity... Which is scurry in itself.

But I had to wait 4 full months to be eligible to use the benefits and it's been 4 months so I can now use them.

Every day is a pretty difficult battle not to just walk out though.

Thanks for the support everyone <3. I think once I take advantage of my benefits I'll be out.
 
I have terrible social anxiety and lost my virginity to someone I don't even know this past weekend whilst highly inebriated :( He works at a kiosk in the mall by my house. Going to the mall is anxiety-provoking enough without having to worry I'll run into him. That's not even a big deal though compared to the other shit in my life. I really have no idea what the fuck I am doing on this Earth.
 
I have to be on 3 different psych meds in high doses still.
my brain has gotten used to it.
it's biochemical.
fucking sucks.

I miss my soul and intellect.
fake plastic trees.
 
MDMA over the course of this past weekend exacerbated my HPPD to a point where I cannot read, and use of a computer is hard. The dots are everywhere, worse than normal, and normal is already fairly bad. The weekend of roll didn't end up how I expected and left longer lasting effects than thought. This triggered a mild spout of depression, which then brought me to remember the times where my psychedelic use was so irresponsible that serious effects have lingered now for 8 months. Severe visual snow, flashbacks, paranoia, and a changed mind are what trouble me. I've always had visual snow, so I am not too phased by this, although I do sometimes wonder what it would be like to see the world clearly again. But there are worse things that have begun, I've started to hallucinate while under the influence of cannabis or while sober. Both auditory and visual, I noticed them in the late spring and thought nothing of it, but now it is beginning to get to me. The auditory hallucinations are typically musical, calming and from nowhere at all, relaxing in their presence. Others are the rattling of keys outside my door when I am alone, which, while I doubt their existence, have put me on edge to the point where I always have a weapon of some sort on me. But these aren't what I fear, no, what I fear is much deeper rooted. For the visual hallucinations aren't creepy sulking figures in the back, nor shadow people. They appear to be people I've met throughout my life so far, high school friends, middle school acquaintances, and even cars I've seen frequently. The "people" are always a slightly more adult version of my old peers, they usually are watching me subtly. When approached they disappear off into the social scene at hand to be lost quickly. They seem to walk away, but disappear in the blink of an eye. The same happens with vehicles, parked and moving (even while driving). I slowly begin to fear for my mental safety and well being. I can only hope that further use doesn't exacerbate the condition any more, although I feel as if that hope is misplaced, as knowing myself, I cannot stop.

It is an odd and dark path I wander, and the end is nowhere near.
Until I arrive I can only ponder, what is there to fear?
 
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Compared to other people's rants, I know this is small, but my cat ran off and has not returned. It is now dark out. He has never been out in the dark. I miss him and am afraid for him. :(
 
TooOldForThis said:
Compared to other people's rants, I know this is small, but my cat ran off and has not returned. It is now dark out. He has never been out in the dark. I miss him and am afraid for him. :(
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Aww that is not "small"! I'd be devastated if any of my pets ran away, they're part of the family. Hope kitty finds his way home <3
 
kace said:
Fourth suicide attempt fail. Meh.
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I'm pretty low at the moment kace but I see you are in the UK and we are experiencing some very rare sunshine, I'm making the effort to try and see some of it today.

I've only made it as far as opening the doors in the living room and having the curtains open but the trees are green and the sky is blue and I'm hoping for a better day.

ALT
 
Thanks for the concern about my lost cat. My husband opened the back door this morning, and he came running. What a relief! I think he didn't like spending the night outside.
 
Glad to hear your cat came back too! Cats are better than most humans. :P

Thanks captain and ALT. Im okayish at the moment, shrink appointment on monday is getting me through. I fucked my heart up this time, Ive got bradycardia. 24 hours after it my pulse was from 39-44 so they sent me to a&e when I was seeing my g.p for usual meds. It's still low and my hands are numb, I feel numb inside and out. I think I lost my job today, as well as breaking up with my bf.. I just feel so empty. I honestly dont know what the fuck to do with myself. I want to again but I don't think I have enough meds to actually succeed, and I don't want to waste any doctors time or be in hospital again.

ALT you are definitely right that the sun helps. It's hard but even making it outside (other than today, damn english weather) helps. I hope things get better for you soon, hopefully tomorrow will be better.
 
If I've commissioned you to make me something, don't come asking for money before you have the product finished and then complain that you are poor when I say no to fronting the money, that's not what we agreed on.
 
One of my daughters has been married to a drunk for 10 years.

I am at the end of my rope with them.

He drinks. She complains. I do not want anything to do with my daughter or her drunk as phuck husband.
They are both complete idiots. BUT...

Their one year old is my hearts delight.

But I don't want to lose contact with the baby.
 
<3 ugly you're a doll. I having kids sounds terrible and awesome all put together. What a frustrating combination. You're a strong woman I have no doubt you'll tug on but mucha love your way <3 <3 <3
 
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