Thanks to everyone who has commented, and gave me information. You have all been a big help.
Bluelight is absolutely a life saver and my greatest tool & resource.
I hope all of you (contributing members), realize how thankfull people like me are for all your advice and information.
I actually feel like a have a chance of getting clean, because of the responces I've gotten to my post.
THANK YOU ALL!!!!
I will try to keep you all posted on what is to come. Hopefully by posting my progress, it could benefit others from reading.
My next step is to find a local NA meeting or similar, and try and contact some clinics in my area to explore some treatment options.