Get a job man. No offense, but you have finally abused your parents to the point in where they want to cut you off (This happened to me as well.)
You need a job. So you must quit for your JOBS sake. You need to get out of bed so you are a self reliant person. Stop being co-dependent on your parents. You will feel significantly better if you are self earning and self rewarding. If you can hold an income, grades, and all your expenses, your parents will stop breathing down your back and you will actually feel GOOD about yourself!
But, in order to do this you need to quit doing heroin. In my honest opinion, I would take 7 days off, say something drastic has come up in your family (so you may skip work/school) and just DETOX! Give your boss and teachers a great excuse (family emergency or something of the sort).
Make sure you have enough benzos to come down off of without dieing... But not so many that you are going to still be addicted to benzos after that week.
The hardest thing that you will ever do is not the detoxing.
If you happen to make it out of that hellish week of detox, your true battle will start by trying to stay away from the dope.
I honestly do not think that a person who is this far down the drug road can successfully beat the addiction without primary treatment or a COMPLETELY different environment.
I am sorry that I am being a debbie downer, but you need to really try your hardest if you want this. And you must WANT it! Good luck.
I have to say in Jakes credit for MOST of the time I've known him he's seemed like a hard ass worker.
The kid has lost I think more than multiple jobs, and always had a new one within a few weeks. I honestly couldn't tell you how he finds jobs so quick. Because up in Central Jersey where its more populated, it can be hard as shit to find a job just working at Mickey Ds.
But I want to elaborate on that a bit further. EVEN IF he gets a job that doesn't mean he will be "independent". Well really he won't be independent if half his money is going to drugs no matter what. But as bad a sitution Jake might seem in, I've always been surprised at how fast he DOES get up and go get a job.
So I give the kid a ton of credit in that aspect.
Whats likely to happen is he will have to take the first job he comes accross, which is going to pay shit, and not really get him anywhere but maintaining. I think once he gets his degree and starts to build a career than he'll have much better chance at independence.
I still agree 100% that being self reliant can make a massive difference to ones identity and how the percieve themself. I can also give you a lot of control you never knew you had. But I don't see Jake being a lazy kid in the first place, so I can't tell him to just go "be independent". Theres addicts and nonaddicts alike they aren't independent due to reasons out of their control. Well the true realm of control would be debatable. But I'm just saying his addiction should come first before independence as always.
Whats likely to happen is at some point his parents will find out anyway, and they are just gonna cut him off regardless. So getting clean now becomes that much more important.
I'm rather curious where hes getting his "last $60" though if hes not working. Jake are you out of work 100% right now?
That would scare the living fuck out of me if I was still using personally. I would have prob freaked out weeks ago and gone cold turkey just out of fear alone.
