Positive Today I'm Thankful For vs. Still Standing and Keeping it Simple

woke up this morning again with that dgaf attitude (the healthy kind) and the day looks promising. :)

And yeah... bluelight. <3
 
I am thankful for being able to drive and get my morning coffee,
feeling safe and having slept last night in peace with no panic.

:love:
 
Waking up without feeling the need to dose anything. Just sittin here with cig and coffee and kinda likin it. Think it's a first. lol

Don't get it twisted, though: Imma hit the kratom and benzo at some point today but for now.....
 
t really is a great feeling to not NEED anything huh
Nothing in all my over half a century on this earth can compare.

Soon as i go to respind ro this... it's over. Looked down and saw a bug crawling on my shirt. It is a bed bug. After two months of freedom from bites here we go again. May have been a one off but gonna treat it like an invasion and nuke the whole guckin house. FFS!!!
Benzo bottle here i come gotdammit!
 
oh i needed that benzo bottle. i was going through something i had never experienced and wife wss like "what the hell is wrong with you?" as she just woke up. i told jer to give me a few and wss trying to dose ~.4mg and couldnt stiop shaking to the point where shit was going everywhere. she dopped the .3ml in some coffee and a bout five minutes i could function. wrecked and thank my god that it was worked out that i just happen to have it after almost a year of no bemz. o am soooooo fuckin thankful cause never have i felt rhis so "aggitated?" in all the shit i have lived through... and this was "minor". but last time wife spent two days in hosp from anaphlactic shoxk from these fuckers and she is all i have... can ya kinda get it?

i love you
 
Thankful that ya'll at least abide my breakthroughs and breakdowns... at least ya seem to GAF. lol
No one wants to listen to me bitch irl and I do not because this is my observation irl... It's always some shit about "it'll be ok" if I do happen to chat with someone. I wanna show them how "OK" it really is fuckin shallow elitist mfs.
 
not having many duties at work today it isn't a passion career nor even career and I am in rough shape
 
I am so incredibly grateful that I have access to an ultrasound machine at my work, so I can check in on my baby almost every day and say hi to him. It is such a privilege and I don't take it for granted.
 
Thankful I found the reason in the depths of this horrible aftermath of over a seven day binge giving Manson a run for his money here not to meditate and pray more humbly and respectfully than I have been I was praying like a living devilbeast creature basically man wtf
 
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