telepathetic
Bluelighter
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So, about 6 months to a year ago (not sure how long-- part of the problem) I went VERY overboard with RC's-- specifically mephedrone-- stupidly dangerous doses-- 500-600mg one time doses, 5 grams in a night, etc. For a long period of time, I didn't feel normal, HPPD was horrible, anxiety was bad, depression worse, I felt like I had ruined my brain forever. Now, I'm feeling much better than a few months ago and am keeping myself occupied swimming, going to amusement parks and having fun. I've been sober for a long time-- besides some synthetic cannabinoids last month, as well as a 50-100mg MDMA (I think it was MDMA) thing about 3 months ago in which my heart went 150mg, I didn't get very euphoria or empathetic, etc, as well as a 2c-i trip that started out without me being able to talk for a while for some reason but got better as time went on.
Now a few months later, been sober for the most part for a while and I am feeling much better. I am planning a 2C-C trip (since it is mild) in a few weeks to kind of kick start the summer and maybe think through some final things that I can actually change that may make things better.
On the brain chemistry side of things-- how long can I expect until full recovery-- feeling normal, no DP/DR, no serotonin fuckups. I get these feelings every now and then of being extremely normal and happy-- and then get a mini-crash and feel bad for a while-- kind of bipolar ya know? I was reading about Tianeptine, (an SSRE) and how it helps in neurogenesis with brain damage and thinking about doing a 3 month treatment with it to kind of get myself back on track-- and then tapering off. During this I should feel better due to increased serotonin sensitivity, and afterwards due to increased neurogenesis (and time). However, its not prescribed in the USA, so I am planning on ordering some and setting aside some to taper off.
Any inputs, encouragements, prayers, advice, experiances, anything?
Now a few months later, been sober for the most part for a while and I am feeling much better. I am planning a 2C-C trip (since it is mild) in a few weeks to kind of kick start the summer and maybe think through some final things that I can actually change that may make things better.
On the brain chemistry side of things-- how long can I expect until full recovery-- feeling normal, no DP/DR, no serotonin fuckups. I get these feelings every now and then of being extremely normal and happy-- and then get a mini-crash and feel bad for a while-- kind of bipolar ya know? I was reading about Tianeptine, (an SSRE) and how it helps in neurogenesis with brain damage and thinking about doing a 3 month treatment with it to kind of get myself back on track-- and then tapering off. During this I should feel better due to increased serotonin sensitivity, and afterwards due to increased neurogenesis (and time). However, its not prescribed in the USA, so I am planning on ordering some and setting aside some to taper off.
Any inputs, encouragements, prayers, advice, experiances, anything?
