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there was a younger poster a couple months back talking about using an over the counter stimulant that i believe i heard talked about on the internet in my time as a teen in the early 2000's. if i remember correctly, i never bothered to use it because it seemed adderall or coke would always be around and those were probably just stronger drugs. i still had a good time with coffee too. i just wasn't into using stimulants all the time. i didn't need to add an OTC that was probably unhealthy into my repatiore of drugs. i actually don't remember a lot of people recommending the particular OTC stimulant, and don't really see it mentioned on the net too often now days.
i actually had burning piss for months after a session of using dramamine when rotating nights between alcohol, dxm, and then dramamine as a teen. sometimes i'd take nights off to just smoke weed. for some reason after some months of doing this, i woke up after a night of dramamine and it really hurt when i'd urinate after eating and drinking a lot of different things. it was pretty bad.
the current BL poster mentioning the OTC stimulant was taking benadryl, the otc stimulant that had some other purpose i can't remember what it was, and occasionally dxm from what i recall. the poster claimed weed only made them eat chicken nuggets when it was suggested by another poster to replace the more probably detrimental drugs... i don't know. this person's particular drug preferences, like what i remember many people from the past doing, i don't particularly see why i would've even thought to try out this OTC because benadryl is just bad, why would they be using that, but i did look up the stimulant to see if it existed and thought about its potential. i had some different thoughts about what the drug could do, and i would love to write a review for others, but doing so isn't really what i'd consider being in my right mind.
that i thought the drug could either make me breath well or not breath well. that probably if it made me breath well, i would feel loose muscles despite the stimulation. that strong stimulation can get me breathing to where i start to breath in meditative states to overcome or also with the stimulation from the drug and i feel very charged and smooth... that the drug could just be very very bad on the other end of that. that it could hurt my muscles. that i wanted to take the drug to see if it could trigger automative breathing or if it would be a struggle to breath... that dramamine left my heart rate through the roof sometimes, but i couldn't really breath on it and felt fucked up tense. coke made my heart beat just as fast, but i could breath super well... i'd love a smooth feeling high leaving me stimulated and able to breath.
that i wouldn't be surprised if the drug were nauseating while leaving stimulation. idk.., i have no reason to want to be nauseated... that it's funny. benadryl is really bad and does not feel good. cough syrup is a pretty good high to me... i think the young BL poster referencing this OTC stimulant was also huffing different chemicals to get high. i remember the people on the internet giving reviews of this stuff in the early 2000's were always doing stuff that i just assumed to be bad highs. taking an OTC stimulant doesn't and didn't really seem like the thing to do because no one normal seemed to be doing it. it was all a bunch of huffers doing anything possible to get messed that were using it.
with the OP's description of taking this OTC stimulant at school and having a good time in their art class, it really kind of intrigued me. i felt like they must've been breathing properly and in a flow state for the teacher not to assume they were fucked up on drugs. maybe it was an okay drug? if they weren't addicted to benadryl and huffing stuff and actually liked weed, i probably would try the OTC stimulant. lol. ... that it's funny, i never even huffed anything. that i'm going along with propagranda and assuming it's all bad and the people doing it are just going through the motions not even really feeling good... huffing stuff could feel really good. idk. lol. that it's said that they are all short lived highs. that it's not really worth it to me with how detrimental they are, but idk. this young posters description of taking the OTC stimulant and enjoying their art class seemed to kind of make sense. that i'd mildly hurt myself to do some art.
that right now, i don't really have any connects for drugs. because of fentanyl in america and weed being legal where i am, i wouldn't order anything but psychedelics over the dark web, and despite the fact i'm always saying kids should just wait to use a potentially detrimental drug like DXM and use something like mushrooms which they can just grow when they are of age, i actually have very fond memories of the DXM high. shrooms really aren't my favorite high after heavily getting used to the LSD high. i don't really want to use LSD stuff because i don't really want to think about when i want to dose. that if LSD were legal, i'd probably use it occasionally only picking up a tab. i'm still thinking about using shrooms for art at some point, but i don't really care... i don't really feel like i need to use DXM, but i could. that i feel like if a person is gonna try alcohol and hurt themselves with that, that they might as well try DXM. IDK, i'd kind of recommend DXM... i feel like i might be a negative influence on people and some people that have tried it even hate it. pretty cool ime and was apart of my life. everyone has their own drug preferences. i feel like i'm writing on the internet so people of the future can better understand themselves.
did anyone else like having covid? that it really bothered me.. i couldn't smoke a lot of weed because my lungs, so i'd rip a large bowl and then just lay back and wrap myself in blankets. it's like covid is so overwhelmingly bad, but i found if i wrapped myself in a blanket and then sunk into the right part of the bed that it was actually kind of fucking cool. kind of reminded me of bad experiences with drugs. your just stuck.... that i feel like i owe it to the people to test drugs as someone that can sometimes breath well and has nerve damage to see how the different drugs trigger the nerve damage. psychedelic drugs really help a lot. smoking weed is bad directly after toking, but after the very intense first part of the high wears off, it really helps. now that my nerves aren't bad, weed doesn't bother me at all.. i'd like to be apart of a scientific study where i could take drugs in a hospital setting and see how my nerve damage responded to different drugs. that i think i might have some different results as a person that has trained a lot with meditative breathing compared to people with the same injuries that aren't as experienced with drugs and meditative breathing. that i am a person that responds positively to some drugs and am meant to use them.
also my experience boxing as a child really reminds me of getting drunk and using detrimental drugs. that i'm wondering if these types of things are a part of my memory and consciousness and who i am. i don't think it's really the right way to think, but the feeling of my life as a whole really effects me emotionally.
that i'm mostly done with bad experiences with drugs, but i like to write reviews of drugs. that another drug that i wanted to see how it effected my CNS is salvia and i tried that recently because i always thought the trips were cool despite the fact that i had awful body highs that physically did not feel healthy. that i got terrible nerve damage from a car accident years after trying salvia and had not used salvia for several years... i actually tried salvia again because i was on anti-psychotics and wanted to test if it were true that there were no trip killers. that is true ime.. also i wanted to try salvia to see if the intense trip and body high was actually unhealthy involving my nerve damage issues. i wrote trip reports on BL about this and also on reddit... salvia really isn't bad for your CNS. no one has ever claimed that to be so that i know of, but from what it felt like to me before i got hit by a car, i would 100% think that it is not good for you and i was totally anticipating that it would give me the nerve damage pins through out my body/head and also a particular headache that comes from bothering my body. with drawing from alcohol and smoking cigarettes can really bring out these pins.
i was very far away from it, but the thought crossed my mind to try to OTC stimulant the young BL poster was mentioning. i'd like to be able to say, "yes, you know you are definitely getting off on damaging your CNS" if that were the case. i'm not about to be a test dummy, but part of me would love to try some more drugs after getting nerve damage... that maybe the drug would be good is why i was kind of curious. that i'm having particularly good memories of DXM. with how much i like the body high of the LSD analogue eth-lad, i actually kind of even believe i probably enjoy some of the bizarre stimulation from DXM.... i have no idea. that recalling fond memories of DXM and the young poster talking about taking the OTC stimulant in art class really made me kind of tempted to try this OTC... that i hate MDMA. that so many people like MDMA. i also don't really like opiates. that you just never know how a person is gonna respond to a drug. that i could like the OTC stimulant. idk. DXM really isn't that bad. i wrote the OTC stimulants and research chemical stimulants off as a teen, but who the fuck knows. lol.
i was in a thread about coke wondering about RC's that could be laced in coke. i know there were some RC stimulants. i'm interested in new ones. that i don't really want to be a guinea pig trying new drugs, but if there were some new analogues of RC's that were out and people on the net were doing a ton of the older stuff, i'd probably want some of the stuff... IDK. it's kind of fucked up. i'm pretty content just using pot and listening to ASMR. ASMR is fucking really intense for me. i want to get fucked up and make art though. kind of immature, but whose to say you have to be healthy and live along time.
i talk a lot about how i'm some type of christ like figure in the cosmos history where spirits span infinite in time. that i always talk about issac newton predicting 2060 and the mayans predicting 2012. that i was born in 1985. that there is supposedly a curse about rock stars and artists dying at 27. i think there is some psychic premonition in 2012, 2060 and the rock stars dying at 27 involving the year i was born and what people deserve. that i found i could've recorded all the music that i've contributed to the internet by the age of 27. i was good enough to do everything i needed to do as a teenager. that i never really got better. i just spent all this time having fun doing different stuff. like the famous rock stars, i could've recorded everything all at once and just killed myself.. idk, this is kind of bizarre and i'm not gonna describe this in great detail, but i was supposed to be 27 in 2012 which was the year the mayans predicted would be a strong point in history long ago. that i'm so connected to kurt cobain, janis jopelin and the 27 club in my spiritual ways that it has vibrated across the universe sending infomation back in time to the mayans and issac newton. i could've contributed all the same stuff to art and died at 27, but i'm going to live on issac newtons prediction of 2060 where i will live to be 85. that successful cool people deserve to live long lives... that this isn't really for this part of BL, but i think i have a birth right and should probably stay away from detrimental drugs. that i really believe history as a whole where time doesn't exist is calling me to keep making art and music until 2060... sometimes i think my friends that are the same age are supposed to find my death though and create the art in my name till 2060, but i'll try to live till 85 resilient as hell with spinal arthritis.... i'm mostly on a health kick. my cholesterol and blood sugar levels are always perfect. i always think about going on eating binges and shit. i'm mostly trying to stay alive. sometimes i have dumb thoughts though.
anyways, not really looking for you to critique my mental health and give me advice saying i need to get my head checked cause i think i'm telepathically communicating in the sands of time with issac newton and the mayans. i don't know if i ever described the being born in 1985 thing on BL though. i always talk about the mayans and issac newton and a secret CIA conspiracy about documenting the internet for people of the future. lol
some of the BL users are probably gonna say that huffing shit and OTC is shit highs too, but i always find the occassional BL posters saying it actually feels cool.
that it's sad a lot of younger people don't feel like they are gonna have the opportunity to have kids and just write off that could happen and they destroy their bodies. some people end up having kids after using a lot of drugs and their bodies aren't really as healthy and maybe the kids don't turn out as healthy as they could be... like i'm seriously just writing this because i think i'm getting gang stalked by the CIA and i want to say, that hey the average soccer mom might want to kick back with some cough syrup instead of going for the couple glasses of wine. .. that i don't really think it's right that young people are opting out of life and taking years off their life before they even know exactly how they feel. maybe they do know how they feel and have no hope. that they are taking drugs and slowing their mind around the ages where they should be staying sharp and trying to have fun driving. like driving is kind of fun. you have to stay safe. these people are not doing good procedure. idk. i actually gave up driving when i got heavily involved in psychedelics. there are things other than drugs.. idk. i make a lot of art that people could be like "That's not that good." that my art is objectively good and some people just don't get it and it's funny someone could see my art and think they are making good art when they are not because they don't get my art. that often happens wtih minimalist art and bizarre types of music.. IDK. personally taking drugs was a part of my quest. i don't think i should be done with psychedelics. maybe i shouldn't hurt myself with poison drugs. maybe i should've never taken drugs that hurt me.. idk. drugs are a part of who i am though.. that a big part of this post is that "covid is interesting" and i'm not sure if people have the right to take drugs if they are going to be bringing kids into the world. that maybe drugs are for people after they have kids. idk. i've thought a lot about this... i think psychedelics are mostly fine for young people to take. they should make better public transportation so people can get heavily involved in psychedelics at young ages. that weed supposedly makes semen swin in bizarre ways. that i don't really see why it's legal. mushrooms don't really do that as far people know. it's probably time to legalize mushrooms and acid.
but for the time being this is kind of a post about cough syrup being cool
you know, back to the OTC stimulant that i was contemplating taking for a very brief moment. let me break it down for you why a forty year old would contemplate taking an OTC that they wouldn't've even cared to take back in high school... that let's put it this way, i 100% don't drink alcohol anymore. if i had no extra money i probably would drink a 6 pack of beer or a few shots in a period of time to get drunk if you offered me a thousand dollars to do so, BUT i happen to have 20,000 dollars saved. if you were to offer me 1000 dollars to do a drinking session, i would fucking pass with the money i have saved. it just doesn't matter. i don't need the money. i know i don't like alcohol from my memories with it.
DXM is another drug that is no longer used in my life... i will go on to say that i am so curious to try DXM again, and i have fond memories of DXM where if you offered me 1000 dollars to take 350mgs of dxm which is a pretty heavy dose for me, i would in fact gladly accept the 1000$.... i think it could be worth it to do the DXM, it could be fun to do a painting. it could be fun to chill in bed. there is no reason to do alchohol.
that this is really funny to me as DXM is a drug that is stigmatized by society. plenty of people get in really bad spots because of alcohol. like i don't keep using DXM as an adult because i've always had LSD, LSD analogues or mushrooms around. like why take DXM, which is potentially unhealthy, when you can just use psychedelics??? well, i have a BL thread about dosing LSD several times a week by upping the doses. during this time i had found blood in my stool. i think it was related to heavy shitting during this time period due to LSD analogues effecting the serotonin in my stomach.
i was taking a lot of acid. i actually stopped taking it entirely after the blood persisted to be in my stool for a couple of months. the blood went away a few weeks after stopping the LSD analogues. the acid was definitely doing something to my stomach... i would shit incredibly on days when i was using the LSD, and despite what i ate on the days where i was tripping and shitting a lot, the next days with out the drugs i would be very constipated.
i stopped using LSD and the analogues. using it frequently would really dull the negative effects of my nerve damage.
i have a problem continuing using LSD infrequently. i have a problem where i don't think i can get a sheet and use it occassionally. that if i get some i will use it all the time and i don't want to have to start picking up LSD all the time.
i've thought about using DXM in the form of robitussin with DXM as the active ingredient. that when i move into smoke free housing and can only take a hit of weed through the smoke buddy carbon filter every so often, i know i'm going to be vaguely tempted to use dxm because it did me well so many times as a teen on nights when i only had a hit of weed.
that how DXM is kind of cool made me think about this... this post is kind of long winded and boring. sorry about that, but it's kind of me going deep in my head thinking about addiction... i use BL hoping the CIA is watching me like i always say.
i'll probably just stick to pot and ASMR.
i actually had burning piss for months after a session of using dramamine when rotating nights between alcohol, dxm, and then dramamine as a teen. sometimes i'd take nights off to just smoke weed. for some reason after some months of doing this, i woke up after a night of dramamine and it really hurt when i'd urinate after eating and drinking a lot of different things. it was pretty bad.
the current BL poster mentioning the OTC stimulant was taking benadryl, the otc stimulant that had some other purpose i can't remember what it was, and occasionally dxm from what i recall. the poster claimed weed only made them eat chicken nuggets when it was suggested by another poster to replace the more probably detrimental drugs... i don't know. this person's particular drug preferences, like what i remember many people from the past doing, i don't particularly see why i would've even thought to try out this OTC because benadryl is just bad, why would they be using that, but i did look up the stimulant to see if it existed and thought about its potential. i had some different thoughts about what the drug could do, and i would love to write a review for others, but doing so isn't really what i'd consider being in my right mind.
that i thought the drug could either make me breath well or not breath well. that probably if it made me breath well, i would feel loose muscles despite the stimulation. that strong stimulation can get me breathing to where i start to breath in meditative states to overcome or also with the stimulation from the drug and i feel very charged and smooth... that the drug could just be very very bad on the other end of that. that it could hurt my muscles. that i wanted to take the drug to see if it could trigger automative breathing or if it would be a struggle to breath... that dramamine left my heart rate through the roof sometimes, but i couldn't really breath on it and felt fucked up tense. coke made my heart beat just as fast, but i could breath super well... i'd love a smooth feeling high leaving me stimulated and able to breath.
that i wouldn't be surprised if the drug were nauseating while leaving stimulation. idk.., i have no reason to want to be nauseated... that it's funny. benadryl is really bad and does not feel good. cough syrup is a pretty good high to me... i think the young BL poster referencing this OTC stimulant was also huffing different chemicals to get high. i remember the people on the internet giving reviews of this stuff in the early 2000's were always doing stuff that i just assumed to be bad highs. taking an OTC stimulant doesn't and didn't really seem like the thing to do because no one normal seemed to be doing it. it was all a bunch of huffers doing anything possible to get messed that were using it.
with the OP's description of taking this OTC stimulant at school and having a good time in their art class, it really kind of intrigued me. i felt like they must've been breathing properly and in a flow state for the teacher not to assume they were fucked up on drugs. maybe it was an okay drug? if they weren't addicted to benadryl and huffing stuff and actually liked weed, i probably would try the OTC stimulant. lol. ... that it's funny, i never even huffed anything. that i'm going along with propagranda and assuming it's all bad and the people doing it are just going through the motions not even really feeling good... huffing stuff could feel really good. idk. lol. that it's said that they are all short lived highs. that it's not really worth it to me with how detrimental they are, but idk. this young posters description of taking the OTC stimulant and enjoying their art class seemed to kind of make sense. that i'd mildly hurt myself to do some art.
that right now, i don't really have any connects for drugs. because of fentanyl in america and weed being legal where i am, i wouldn't order anything but psychedelics over the dark web, and despite the fact i'm always saying kids should just wait to use a potentially detrimental drug like DXM and use something like mushrooms which they can just grow when they are of age, i actually have very fond memories of the DXM high. shrooms really aren't my favorite high after heavily getting used to the LSD high. i don't really want to use LSD stuff because i don't really want to think about when i want to dose. that if LSD were legal, i'd probably use it occasionally only picking up a tab. i'm still thinking about using shrooms for art at some point, but i don't really care... i don't really feel like i need to use DXM, but i could. that i feel like if a person is gonna try alcohol and hurt themselves with that, that they might as well try DXM. IDK, i'd kind of recommend DXM... i feel like i might be a negative influence on people and some people that have tried it even hate it. pretty cool ime and was apart of my life. everyone has their own drug preferences. i feel like i'm writing on the internet so people of the future can better understand themselves.
did anyone else like having covid? that it really bothered me.. i couldn't smoke a lot of weed because my lungs, so i'd rip a large bowl and then just lay back and wrap myself in blankets. it's like covid is so overwhelmingly bad, but i found if i wrapped myself in a blanket and then sunk into the right part of the bed that it was actually kind of fucking cool. kind of reminded me of bad experiences with drugs. your just stuck.... that i feel like i owe it to the people to test drugs as someone that can sometimes breath well and has nerve damage to see how the different drugs trigger the nerve damage. psychedelic drugs really help a lot. smoking weed is bad directly after toking, but after the very intense first part of the high wears off, it really helps. now that my nerves aren't bad, weed doesn't bother me at all.. i'd like to be apart of a scientific study where i could take drugs in a hospital setting and see how my nerve damage responded to different drugs. that i think i might have some different results as a person that has trained a lot with meditative breathing compared to people with the same injuries that aren't as experienced with drugs and meditative breathing. that i am a person that responds positively to some drugs and am meant to use them.
also my experience boxing as a child really reminds me of getting drunk and using detrimental drugs. that i'm wondering if these types of things are a part of my memory and consciousness and who i am. i don't think it's really the right way to think, but the feeling of my life as a whole really effects me emotionally.
that i'm mostly done with bad experiences with drugs, but i like to write reviews of drugs. that another drug that i wanted to see how it effected my CNS is salvia and i tried that recently because i always thought the trips were cool despite the fact that i had awful body highs that physically did not feel healthy. that i got terrible nerve damage from a car accident years after trying salvia and had not used salvia for several years... i actually tried salvia again because i was on anti-psychotics and wanted to test if it were true that there were no trip killers. that is true ime.. also i wanted to try salvia to see if the intense trip and body high was actually unhealthy involving my nerve damage issues. i wrote trip reports on BL about this and also on reddit... salvia really isn't bad for your CNS. no one has ever claimed that to be so that i know of, but from what it felt like to me before i got hit by a car, i would 100% think that it is not good for you and i was totally anticipating that it would give me the nerve damage pins through out my body/head and also a particular headache that comes from bothering my body. with drawing from alcohol and smoking cigarettes can really bring out these pins.
i was very far away from it, but the thought crossed my mind to try to OTC stimulant the young BL poster was mentioning. i'd like to be able to say, "yes, you know you are definitely getting off on damaging your CNS" if that were the case. i'm not about to be a test dummy, but part of me would love to try some more drugs after getting nerve damage... that maybe the drug would be good is why i was kind of curious. that i'm having particularly good memories of DXM. with how much i like the body high of the LSD analogue eth-lad, i actually kind of even believe i probably enjoy some of the bizarre stimulation from DXM.... i have no idea. that recalling fond memories of DXM and the young poster talking about taking the OTC stimulant in art class really made me kind of tempted to try this OTC... that i hate MDMA. that so many people like MDMA. i also don't really like opiates. that you just never know how a person is gonna respond to a drug. that i could like the OTC stimulant. idk. DXM really isn't that bad. i wrote the OTC stimulants and research chemical stimulants off as a teen, but who the fuck knows. lol.
i was in a thread about coke wondering about RC's that could be laced in coke. i know there were some RC stimulants. i'm interested in new ones. that i don't really want to be a guinea pig trying new drugs, but if there were some new analogues of RC's that were out and people on the net were doing a ton of the older stuff, i'd probably want some of the stuff... IDK. it's kind of fucked up. i'm pretty content just using pot and listening to ASMR. ASMR is fucking really intense for me. i want to get fucked up and make art though. kind of immature, but whose to say you have to be healthy and live along time.
i talk a lot about how i'm some type of christ like figure in the cosmos history where spirits span infinite in time. that i always talk about issac newton predicting 2060 and the mayans predicting 2012. that i was born in 1985. that there is supposedly a curse about rock stars and artists dying at 27. i think there is some psychic premonition in 2012, 2060 and the rock stars dying at 27 involving the year i was born and what people deserve. that i found i could've recorded all the music that i've contributed to the internet by the age of 27. i was good enough to do everything i needed to do as a teenager. that i never really got better. i just spent all this time having fun doing different stuff. like the famous rock stars, i could've recorded everything all at once and just killed myself.. idk, this is kind of bizarre and i'm not gonna describe this in great detail, but i was supposed to be 27 in 2012 which was the year the mayans predicted would be a strong point in history long ago. that i'm so connected to kurt cobain, janis jopelin and the 27 club in my spiritual ways that it has vibrated across the universe sending infomation back in time to the mayans and issac newton. i could've contributed all the same stuff to art and died at 27, but i'm going to live on issac newtons prediction of 2060 where i will live to be 85. that successful cool people deserve to live long lives... that this isn't really for this part of BL, but i think i have a birth right and should probably stay away from detrimental drugs. that i really believe history as a whole where time doesn't exist is calling me to keep making art and music until 2060... sometimes i think my friends that are the same age are supposed to find my death though and create the art in my name till 2060, but i'll try to live till 85 resilient as hell with spinal arthritis.... i'm mostly on a health kick. my cholesterol and blood sugar levels are always perfect. i always think about going on eating binges and shit. i'm mostly trying to stay alive. sometimes i have dumb thoughts though.
anyways, not really looking for you to critique my mental health and give me advice saying i need to get my head checked cause i think i'm telepathically communicating in the sands of time with issac newton and the mayans. i don't know if i ever described the being born in 1985 thing on BL though. i always talk about the mayans and issac newton and a secret CIA conspiracy about documenting the internet for people of the future. lol
some of the BL users are probably gonna say that huffing shit and OTC is shit highs too, but i always find the occassional BL posters saying it actually feels cool.
that it's sad a lot of younger people don't feel like they are gonna have the opportunity to have kids and just write off that could happen and they destroy their bodies. some people end up having kids after using a lot of drugs and their bodies aren't really as healthy and maybe the kids don't turn out as healthy as they could be... like i'm seriously just writing this because i think i'm getting gang stalked by the CIA and i want to say, that hey the average soccer mom might want to kick back with some cough syrup instead of going for the couple glasses of wine. .. that i don't really think it's right that young people are opting out of life and taking years off their life before they even know exactly how they feel. maybe they do know how they feel and have no hope. that they are taking drugs and slowing their mind around the ages where they should be staying sharp and trying to have fun driving. like driving is kind of fun. you have to stay safe. these people are not doing good procedure. idk. i actually gave up driving when i got heavily involved in psychedelics. there are things other than drugs.. idk. i make a lot of art that people could be like "That's not that good." that my art is objectively good and some people just don't get it and it's funny someone could see my art and think they are making good art when they are not because they don't get my art. that often happens wtih minimalist art and bizarre types of music.. IDK. personally taking drugs was a part of my quest. i don't think i should be done with psychedelics. maybe i shouldn't hurt myself with poison drugs. maybe i should've never taken drugs that hurt me.. idk. drugs are a part of who i am though.. that a big part of this post is that "covid is interesting" and i'm not sure if people have the right to take drugs if they are going to be bringing kids into the world. that maybe drugs are for people after they have kids. idk. i've thought a lot about this... i think psychedelics are mostly fine for young people to take. they should make better public transportation so people can get heavily involved in psychedelics at young ages. that weed supposedly makes semen swin in bizarre ways. that i don't really see why it's legal. mushrooms don't really do that as far people know. it's probably time to legalize mushrooms and acid.
but for the time being this is kind of a post about cough syrup being cool
you know, back to the OTC stimulant that i was contemplating taking for a very brief moment. let me break it down for you why a forty year old would contemplate taking an OTC that they wouldn't've even cared to take back in high school... that let's put it this way, i 100% don't drink alcohol anymore. if i had no extra money i probably would drink a 6 pack of beer or a few shots in a period of time to get drunk if you offered me a thousand dollars to do so, BUT i happen to have 20,000 dollars saved. if you were to offer me 1000 dollars to do a drinking session, i would fucking pass with the money i have saved. it just doesn't matter. i don't need the money. i know i don't like alcohol from my memories with it.
DXM is another drug that is no longer used in my life... i will go on to say that i am so curious to try DXM again, and i have fond memories of DXM where if you offered me 1000 dollars to take 350mgs of dxm which is a pretty heavy dose for me, i would in fact gladly accept the 1000$.... i think it could be worth it to do the DXM, it could be fun to do a painting. it could be fun to chill in bed. there is no reason to do alchohol.
that this is really funny to me as DXM is a drug that is stigmatized by society. plenty of people get in really bad spots because of alcohol. like i don't keep using DXM as an adult because i've always had LSD, LSD analogues or mushrooms around. like why take DXM, which is potentially unhealthy, when you can just use psychedelics??? well, i have a BL thread about dosing LSD several times a week by upping the doses. during this time i had found blood in my stool. i think it was related to heavy shitting during this time period due to LSD analogues effecting the serotonin in my stomach.
i was taking a lot of acid. i actually stopped taking it entirely after the blood persisted to be in my stool for a couple of months. the blood went away a few weeks after stopping the LSD analogues. the acid was definitely doing something to my stomach... i would shit incredibly on days when i was using the LSD, and despite what i ate on the days where i was tripping and shitting a lot, the next days with out the drugs i would be very constipated.
i stopped using LSD and the analogues. using it frequently would really dull the negative effects of my nerve damage.
i have a problem continuing using LSD infrequently. i have a problem where i don't think i can get a sheet and use it occassionally. that if i get some i will use it all the time and i don't want to have to start picking up LSD all the time.
i've thought about using DXM in the form of robitussin with DXM as the active ingredient. that when i move into smoke free housing and can only take a hit of weed through the smoke buddy carbon filter every so often, i know i'm going to be vaguely tempted to use dxm because it did me well so many times as a teen on nights when i only had a hit of weed.
that how DXM is kind of cool made me think about this... this post is kind of long winded and boring. sorry about that, but it's kind of me going deep in my head thinking about addiction... i use BL hoping the CIA is watching me like i always say.
i'll probably just stick to pot and ASMR.
