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Venting The Vent/Rant Thread Vs. You Silly KnuckleHeads Can Go Fly a Kite!!

iTry91 said:
There was a woman and her son on the bus yesterday who sat across from me and she was so loud as if she was performing for the whole bus to hear 😅 could tell her son was embarrassed felt bad for the kid lol
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Buses give me the fear, bloody coronabus we call them lol, I'd rather not go on them lol
 
Hippy Flower Fairy said:
Buses give me the fear, bloody coronabus we call them lol, I'd rather not go on them lol
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Neither were wearing masks either lol.
I know I prefer trains and for some bizarre reason there is less trains running and soon here I think you don't have to social distance on buses. If someone sits next to me they'll be getting told to fuck off 😂
 
Apologies for how I have been lots of crazy drugs were going into me I feel my brain and thoughts coming back around quick to a much more rational and stable place.

That being said I also see how vital it is for me to do something now about my addiction issues hence I am going to SMART later at 4 and another self-help group at 7, SOS.

Double whammy style see you tomorrow somewhere around town here I hope!
 
So I am feeling so good quitting nicotine that at work today I found this pouch container I threw and lost a couple weeks ago and was so upset when I did because it had one pouch left and I was outta stuff on that shift so angry and confused that it disappeared under a pallet of mulch where I discovered it earlier.

A bit less than a week ago now I quit vaping which is what I was really hooked to but I am no longer craving it so guess what I did when I found it closed pouch still dry and clean? Dumped it out quick in some dirt spit on it then stepped it in there and scorned it.

That felt good actually not a rant here is my rant I was a half hour late to a tiny AA meeting which I skipped but got a nice bike ride in through some cool woods try again next time I am tired man and it feels like this world is so selfish and cold but maybe that is what I created we all live in our own lil wurldz sorta or sumthin?
 
Another K vent, I said I'm not going out of my way to look for it, or to around as for it off people I know can get or but if it comes to me then I'll try it

So I got a message off someone that had the crap last time, but normally has the best K around but she's fuming that her dealer sold her shite, she's had customers complaining about the last lot

Anyway when she meesaged, I asked if it's shards, as all that's been about is the weak K that does fuck all and looks like grains and yes it was shards, the first line was strong but I didn't feel the K feel to it, no K eyes but I couldn't walk, takes like I was deaf and dumb, I couldn't speak but I wasn't K'd up, the more I did the more I'll I felt and my friend felt rough too, he actually messaged our mutual dealer to say the K ain't right, I've took 8 fucking nitrazepam and still can't sleep but last night took two avd slept hard, I don't normally take nitrazapam I should of been knocked the fuck out

Someone bring back the K l
People know and love

Small sample in a baggie ready to get sent to wedinos
 
I seriously hate mornings. It is a critical time of the day for me where I am just overcome with extreme negativity. Not really sure how to explain besides just knowing that besides the usual get ready for work I have to do a number of various other tasks and the entire time I feel super rushed because I have to leave at a cerein time or else I will run late, and the more tasks I pick up the more frustrated I get. (tasks are outside of BL).
So by the time I find where I can pause and like do something else like put on my socks/shoes I have a moment to share here in TDS or where ever, and I am usually pretty fucking frustrated.
 
D's said:
I seriously hate mornings. It is a critical time of the day for me where I am just overcome with extreme negativity. Not really sure how to explain besides just knowing that besides the usual get ready for work I have to do a number of various other tasks and the entire time I feel super rushed because I have to leave at a cerein time or else I will run late, and the more tasks I pick up the more frustrated I get. (tasks are outside of BL).
So by the time I find where I can pause and like do something else like put on my socks/shoes I have a moment to share here in TDS or where ever, and I am usually pretty fucking frustrated.
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I'm no good with mornings here. If I don't have anything to do when I wake up, it's the time when my existential dread is at peak. I just don't want to get up.
 
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So here i am, running late like always. Seems like the moment I get off work and close my eyes fir a nap then all the sudden i am hitting my alarm because its morning and time to get up.
It is a part of life for me now and has been for years. Each day seems tougher than the last.
 
I had like a thought thunderstorm yesterday and this morning it's just afwull cause there is nothing i can do but let the thoughts or voices whatever they are pass. Sucks though wish i could smoke some weed or something.
 
bingey said:
I had like a thought thunderstorm yesterday and this morning it's just afwull cause there is nothing i can do but let the thoughts or voices whatever they are pass. Sucks though wish i could smoke some weed or something.
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Can you not smoke because of the side effects? Or are you totally abstaining from all drugs at the moment?

Thought loops do suck.
 
My week off and I get quite sick.. not covid.. miss most of the festival and spend that time vomiting all day and night and end up in icu getting treated for ketoacidosis.

what a bummer of a vacation. Oh and no nicotine pouches in the ICU, just a patch and only ice to chew on.. and how much is this going to cost me. I’m thinking over 15 . I have to have a million blood draws I think their hit rate is one in five and as the draws blow by that task is going to get much harder.. Im going to look like a pin cushion.

at least I’m feeling much better.. but what bad luck
 
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Ah, Bugger mate! Fuck'n he'll - Sorry that situation happened to you " best laid plans..." and all that.🙄Life typically fucks with our plans, biggest troll, eh? 💩

Hope you get you some TLC, lovely NSA, glad you're feeling better than previously, anyway. 💛
 
iTry91 said:
I literally don't wanna be awake I wish someone had a tranquilizer gun and shoot me so I could just go to sleep and wake up in another dimension or something.
I'll be fine though.
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Sometimes I wish someone would just dropkick me into another realm
 
I'm going through benzo withdrawal I cant eat and I'm loosing weight so fast I look like a druggie old bitch when I loose it especially from my face, I've hardly ate since stopping zopiclone a month ago and my doctors keep fucking up my fortisip drinks so not had them in a week or more

And today I need to be there for my mate who has no idea I'm coming of benzos that I went on to come off zopiclone, he's left his wife and I've already heard the story on the phone, again in person yesterday which drained me and I almost took extra valium

Then I felt bad as had to go see another mate, he wanted to tell me same thing over a over and I don't know what to say, I told him because I couldn't see him long yesterday he can he can spend the day with me today, but I don't know what advice to give that I've not gave already I know he just needs his mind took off it and keep busy so I'm going it, but he don't know I'm coming off benzos

What advice can I give that so ain't already, he's put single on Facebook but they both have photos of each other on WhatsApp so after all this he might go back to her anyway, but he knows he shouldn't go back as its been a constant ongoing thing for ages, and he had an operation and she couldn't care less that was the final straw

I don't even know what I'm saying I just really need to help my best bloke mate and I feel so sick I'm dry heaving and only took 5mg vallie as want off ASAP
 
^not being able to eat during withdrawal is terrible. i often lose dangerous amounts of weight as well. you got my empathy.


my parents took about $3k of irreplaceable, discontinued pack film from my apartment after strong arming me into sober living. it needs to be fridge stored and has been in my fridge without fail for five years. my father said he would immediately put it in one of the countless fridges they have. that was over a month ago. he did not.

i don’t even have the right to be upset about it. my family moving me out of my apartment was for my own good. now that i’ve been labeled an addict, i’m the problem. it’s my fault. if i wanted the things i care about cared for, i should have been able to take care of them.
 
hydroazuanacaine said:
^not being able to eat during withdrawal is terrible. i often lose dangerous amounts of weight as well. you got my empathy.


my parents took about $3k of irreplaceable, discontinued pack film from my apartment after strong arming me into sober living. it needs to be fridge stored and has been in my fridge without fail for five years. my father said he would immediately put it in one of the countless fridges they have. that was over a month ago. he did not.

i don’t even have the right to be upset about it. my family moving me out of my apartment was for my own good. now that i’ve been labeled an addict, i’m the problem. it’s my fault. if i wanted the things i care about cared for, i should have been able to take care of them.
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It can be a very difficult label to deal with, especially at first. People can use it as a control and superiority button.

Working towards and achieving more and more independence is a great way to combat it. That and flat out not accepting that treatment in a healthy manor can go a long way.
 
hydroazuanacaine said:
not being able to eat during withdrawal is terrible. i often lose dangerous amounts of weight as well. you got my empathy
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Thanks, I thought it was still from stopping the zopiclone but that was about a month or more ago, so it's from still tapering the benzos then, should of known, yeah it's crap, makes me feel worse looking like this, then today I ate a bit drank two of the fortisip drinks so had energy to go for a walk and probably lost what little weight I'd put on, listening to a band that sing about painkillers and depression and being in love and it not working out and I could relate to so much of it and sat on the beach almost in tears, the beach was meant to cheer me up lol

hydroazuanacaine said:
my parents took about $3k of irreplaceable, discontinued pack film from my apartment after strong arming me into sober living. it needs to be fridge stored and has been in my fridge without fail for five years. my father said he would immediately put it in one of the countless fridges they have. that was over a month ago. he did not
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Fucksake why didn't they have the common sence to put it in the fridge, it's not that hard, open door put in fridge

No it's not your fault, you have an addiction and trying to help yourself and the film meant alot, I'm sorry but that wasn't very nice of them, especially after telling you he would do that for you
 
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