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Venting The Vent/Rant Thread Vs. You Silly KnuckleHeads Can Go Fly a Kite!!

MrRoot said:
There are currently no non-narcotic painkillers for neuropathic pain (=nerve pain) except for pregabalin and gabapentin and even those seem to work only if there are atleast some kind opiate at the same time. It isn't caused the same way as acute pain but instead because of nerves getting compressed due some reason such as due trauma to spinal cord or herniated discs and such.
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I've exhausted every single medical resource I have got my hands into and haven't found anything non-narcotic for neuropathic pain.
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Have you heard of Ozone treatment for nerve pain??
I found this Russian dude close by who specialises in this Ozone therapy, and after having a talk with him i decided to try it out.
Intense - it's basically just modified oxygen (o3) that is pumped into a fat syringe, which gets injected into my body.. It's a series of unpleasant quick injections, starting at my lower back and following the nerve line down my leg and even my foot.. It's FUCKED up.
At first It brought me pain relief to an extent, but further sessions are required in order for the nerves to effectively heal.. So I have had two more sessions since then (3 all up), and my foot/leg pain is getting so much easier to handle.. It's not in constant pain anymore, I'm sleeping well and I can feel that this treatment is doing something positive to my body.. I just need to stay in contact with the Russian practitioner and hope that I don't need many more sessions.
It's given me great hope in finding a solution to my constant battle against nerve pain.. It's expensive and unpleasant and takes time, but hopefully it's going to be worth it.. It already is worth it i guess. Haven't felt this good in 10-11 weeks..
Every series of injections brings me immediate relief. Hopefully the pain stays away and I can heal <3
 
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^ Thanks for the info. I'll check out if I can find anyone here who does that kind of treatment. I am going to acupuncture on saturday and it is my first time I'll try something else than drug centric basic western medicine.

Erikmen said:
^ How nice! Really. US has a very nice a beautiful landscape. Some places are breathtaking but when you are in another state this can all change and become another experience. From snowy mountains to deserts.

Of course there are a lot of great countries with great landscapes, in Europe for example you'd easily move through different countries to see some of that.

I haven't travelled this last vacation and I'm now expecting my next vacations more than ever.
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I have been planning my trip to the States with that diverse geographic in my mind. Current version can be found here:
https://drive.google.com/open?id=1XuaQ6R1XJBI3imZp9Zto0ASDoSk&usp=sharing
Instead of staying in each of the marked cities in the map I have just marked them as vague route and I'll instead visit the surrounding areas and especially national parks and similar.
 
^ That sounds like a great and ambitious idea. It's indeed a lot of places. I noticed you colour the routes differently.

A long time ago I did cross the US in one summer, and many years - during winter.
First time I went all the way as from Los Angeles to Chicago, Ill. Years later we have gone from Florida to NYC - road trip along I 95.

And by train inside New England on my way to Toronto when I was in Ottawa. Really nice landscape in the middle of the winten and all the way to Quebec City.
 
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Bit stressed out but still managing. I'm really looking forward to my vacation. Like CH has mentioned, life gets so overwhelming sometimes.
 
Seems like I am about to come to the States sooner but sadly it is for funeral. A long time friend of mine went MIA few weeks ago and they found his remains two days ago. May he rest in peace.

His family doesn't even know where he died and I don't know if I should tell them where it most probably was as he slipped on the phone where he was about to be sent when we last spoke. Idk if it would help them to know but it would raise some suspicions how they knew about it and even cause some consequences for them in the worst place. For those who had served it is pretty much the same where one bites a bullet as the situations are actually same everywhere where there is war as only the landscapes change.

I do hope that it is enough for them to have his remains back and have a real grave.

"Only the dead have seen the end of war"
-Plato
 
well im tired, tired of the fact that i know i was strong enough to quit opiates ct. but am not 100% on what i need to do for lifeguard training. 12 laps is what is getting me. the brick dive isnt bad, neither is treading water for 2 minutes no hands but the 12 laps are whats fucking me over. i tell myself when i wanna quit that i need to prove my dad wrong (he thinks i wont be able to do it) FUCK THAT i need to do this. why? because i am stronger than i was. seriously when you see your son have an aspiration (sp?) for a job you support him not doubt him. that doesnt matter cause if anything when you doubt me is when i get back up. probably stems from all the bullying i went through during middle school. damn that felt great
 
[MENTION=189013]MrRoot[/MENTION] - I am sorry for your loss. I wish your visit here were on better circumstances.
[MENTION=348975]pillman1224[/MENTION] - just focus on the end goal - you can do it. I know the 12 laps are tough but just focus on the end result of what you get when you do them. I remember going through lifeguard training - the 12 laps got me too lol. I was a heavy smoker, so I really had to focus and train to overcome it. The other tests are fun. Good luck!
 
Indeed MrRoof, sorry to hear you lost a friend like this. I've been through similar situation as we also help the Finish Comunity in cases involving assistance for those who are found in distressed situations abroad. The worst part is the contact with the family.
 
You know what, I'm fucking done. Done dealing with her shit. Thing is it wasn't even my choice. Deep down I know that this relationship was doomed from the start. I'll never forget all the good times we had together...I'll never stop caring about her but all the bullshit that came with it just isn't worth it. It doesn't make this any easier on me..who knows, she's fucking drunk anyway so I don't even know if she's being forreal but it sure sounds like it. Now i'll be sitting here ruminating on what it is I said or did wrong. There's been good but a whole lot more bad that came from our relationship. Fuck it
 
I sometimes realize how hard is to fall out of love with someone. Normally people tend to evaluate all of the pros and cons of the relationship. Then you see how you are feeling. Sometimes this can be quite tricky as most of the times you are ready to take that decision the other part surprises you by being someone you wouldn't give up trying to make it. So you carry on until you face the same situation until this become part of a negative vicious cycle. It's impressive how hard is to convince someone about their own unhappiness.
 
I never thought flying with medicines is that hard when done correctly. Last time I didn't know what to do in order to not mess up with customs if they randomly checked you but now I am doing this correctly and it involves getting translations for prescriptions and receipts from pharmacy and as well getting a letter from pharmacy that everything was dispensed by good standards.

I have a bunch of papers that I have to take with me to a magistrate and have them signed by notariate.

Well atleast I have something to do :)
 
PerfectDisguise said:
You know what, I'm fucking done. Done dealing with her shit. Thing is it wasn't even my choice. Deep down I know that this relationship was doomed from the start. I'll never forget all the good times we had together...I'll never stop caring about her but all the bullshit that came with it just isn't worth it. It doesn't make this any easier on me..who knows, she's fucking drunk anyway so I don't even know if she's being forreal but it sure sounds like it. Now i'll be sitting here ruminating on what it is I said or did wrong. There's been good but a whole lot more bad that came from our relationship. Fuck it
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She's drunk, she may not even remember what she said or thought you said. I wouldn't spend too much time worrying about it as her perceptions are skewed. If your not happy in the relationship it may be best that you cut your losses sooner rather than later.

When I was actively drinking I would keep guys around who wanted a long term relationship as they would "baby sit" me, at the time I didn't realize that's what I was doing but looking back I was just using them. Some of these guys lost years of their lives taking care of me. I was never happy and would not pick small things, in retrospect it was because I didn't hve the same feelings for them. Figured I would share to give you a different perspective.

It's virtually impossible to hve a healthy relationship with somebody in active addiction. They are not healthy and are not able to consider your needs. I have found sometimes it's hard to quit people because they are familiar and comfortable, even if the relationship is tumultuous because the unknown can be uncomfortable and scary. Keep your best interests at heart as she is not capable of doing so right now. Along those lines, you can't get her healthy either, she has to want health. I think you need to soberly consider the quality of you life and what you want for yourself. Good luck!
 
@MrRoot, I have done that a lot of times. Even if you were taking meds for 6 months entering EUA or Europe is the routine. You need the original receipts, a doctor statement saying you are being treated, listing all medication and how often you take them daily, so you can take as much as you need + 3-4 extra days to possible change of plans.

All of that is done data in English, there an international code for different health conditions, sometimes my doctor would statet these numbers too. Also take the prescriptions, or copy of all of them. The prescription you have used to purchased the medication so that in Customs the officers will know that you have a doctor, your purchased the meds from a legal pharmacy, for your own use and that you'll need to use them. Hundreds of thousands of people, especially older people carry a lot of legal drugs and with time you'll see this is very normal. Nothing to be worried about.

The only thing you might want to double check is whether all medications you are taking are allowed to where you're are flying to. I remember once that I had prescriptions for a pill which wasn't allowed in the US, only there. Canada and Europe had no problem with that whatsoever, so I would always make sure the doctor switched them in time for me to get used to it.

I hope you can have a good time in FL. The circumstance isn't the ideal one but you can still get to know places. It's an awesome place to know by car. You can drive all the way up by the coast for instance. Disney would not be adequate for a funeral but it's also very interesting to go imo/e, no matter what age you are.
 
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Moreaux said:
She's drunk, she may not even remember what she said or thought you said. I wouldn't spend too much time worrying about it as her perceptions are skewed. If your not happy in the relationship it may be best that you cut your losses sooner rather than later.

When I was actively drinking I would keep guys around who wanted a long term relationship as they would "baby sit" me, at the time I didn't realize that's what I was doing but looking back I was just using them. Some of these guys lost years of their lives taking care of me. I was never happy and would not pick small things, in retrospect it was because I didn't hve the same feelings for them. Figured I would share to give you a different perspective.

It's virtually impossible to hve a healthy relationship with somebody in active addiction. They are not healthy and are not able to consider your needs. I have found sometimes it's hard to quit people because they are familiar and comfortable, even if the relationship is tumultuous because the unknown can be uncomfortable and scary. Keep your best interests at heart as she is not capable of doing so right now. Along those lines, you can't get her healthy either, she has to want health. I think you need to soberly consider the quality of you life and what you want for yourself. Good luck!
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Thank you for the response, Moreaux. Lo and behold she ended up texting me the next day saying sorry, etc...I just can't seem to let go. You're exactly right in what you said about not wanting to quit someone because they're familiar and comfortable. I do get tired of being around her when she's drunk as I can hardly stand it though. I do feel like I'm being used sometimes; at this point there is nothing I can do to make her change her current situation. Hopefully I can figure it out.
 
[MENTION=321471]PerfectDisguise[/MENTION],
I have been on the other side of your relationship, instead of drunk I was always sedated and up this date I know how regretful we get, how sorry, frustrated and sad we feel because we can't do what's obviously right. On the other hand I'd really love her and later on I had done just about anything so that we wouldn't separate. At some point we decided to go through marriage counseling and that seems to have helped immensely as the other part becomes very aware of how we can hurt each other and when we realize this, we do everything to change because we have always loved each other.

If you feel that she loves you, this could get better even if eventually you choose to go. I had done a lot of damage but we had a history before that and now we are okay but it required a lot from myself. I don't think she wants to hurt you. I believe the addition tends to destroy every relationship but if you feel in your heart that she wants to change she has to understand this is the only way out to get back to you. You still may want to stay out of this, but you if you notice she wants to get better this will make the separation smoother and you won't regret whatever you decide. I wish for the best for both of you. But trust me when I say she is not okay with that situation at all, she probably wants a way out of her problems, but as most of us know, this is very difficult step.
 
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I fucking hate myself, such an utter waste of being.
 
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That is just not true Kace. I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling this way. Things were looking up it seemed. What happened to lay you so low?:(
 
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