My near future seems ominous.
I have one friend around here I can hang out. He is super chill. Just because of what I have been going through and how much money I have had to spend on pot to stay sane, gave me a QP (that is a lot for one person and I will def not be sharing I really need it).
People like that give me hope for the world and of course I will do other friend things in return, like make diffuser blends and stuff like that. It's just fun doing nice things for people I am finding and it seems that what goes around comes around.
Did you say you don't want to get all scientific on me? Want to start with the quantum physics or what. I know nothing of biology but could understand anything if explained to me, I would probably see it more in terms of biochemistry and more abstract but that is my perspective I am not really from this planet anymore. Anyways I am writing more of a social post I guess this time. I see danger in my future as early as next week but for now I'm smokin my weed and just had a healthy dinner. Not really much to say. It's late here and I smoked a couple joints. The weed is organic and just so damn chill and balanced, definitely lucked out there as I couldn't do life let alone benzo wd's without it.
How is your opiate kick going? Just be careful about feeling better it can feel on/off for a while and yeah if a craving happens I suggest trying to prepare for them because you will have to act fast if you have any sort of connection to them still at all. Be prepared for the random cravings, one day you might wake up fiending and I messed up a lot of times like that. It was like nothing could stop me I wasn't thinking straight.
Well, science is boring to some. I am on day 7 today of no opiates. I can only say God is the ONLY reason i have gotten thru this-ive been given a massive amount of pain both with the surgery, the healing process and this ridiculous muscle soreness from leg day (which I did not see coming). Its been almost 4 weeks since sub withdrawal. I do have people that I can get drugs from, but they are off the rails and rarely pull thru anyways, as they are trying to feed their massive addictions first . Which is more frustrating than anything, it's not worth the work. I've done a ton of work getting in shape the last 2 years and I believe this has helped my mental state exponentially. But I am worried I am losing my muscle tone. I absolutely can't workout with how crazy sore I am nearly 5 days from the last workout! I don't mean- wow this sucks I MEAN I CAN BARELY GO UP AND DOWN STAIRS....ITS WEIRD!
I used to sell QP's when i was younger so I know what he is doing for you! SUPER nice person!! Weed just makes me hungry, nothing much else. Opiates has been the only drug that I couldn't find a problem with-benzos just made me tired (and I'm tired anyway all the time), speeds made me annoyed with everyone, e and acid was not sustainable, weed juat made me tired and hungry...ALCOHOL IS THE VERY WORST.
What do u mean by a plan for When I want to relapse?