ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
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- Aug 24, 2015
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Sorry, I have to ignore your first point. I am not a danger to myself.
Thanks for checking in. I no longer take any etizolam or illicit benzos at all and only take prescribed meds while I am waiting for several resources for specialists including benzodiazepine tapering experts who I actually know are qualified for that.
Now I have all the help that I need and not like the hospital but psych ward shit for a taper once I feel ready for it. It is practically the best situation I could be in but my anxiety is extreme. I am a skeleton, haven't done shit since boxing day been a real struggle to cut down on my own. I was expecting to be harshly judged and was not. In fact, the opposite. I was called smart by a smart doctor.
I don't know what I want anymore but I definitely do not want to be dependent on a very high dose of benzodiazepines as it got way too risky. That changed my life. Tortured me. I don't think I want to be a pothead anymore either but that's more long term. I regret it all every drug I ever took.
Thanks for checking in. I no longer take any etizolam or illicit benzos at all and only take prescribed meds while I am waiting for several resources for specialists including benzodiazepine tapering experts who I actually know are qualified for that.
Now I have all the help that I need and not like the hospital but psych ward shit for a taper once I feel ready for it. It is practically the best situation I could be in but my anxiety is extreme. I am a skeleton, haven't done shit since boxing day been a real struggle to cut down on my own. I was expecting to be harshly judged and was not. In fact, the opposite. I was called smart by a smart doctor.
I don't know what I want anymore but I definitely do not want to be dependent on a very high dose of benzodiazepines as it got way too risky. That changed my life. Tortured me. I don't think I want to be a pothead anymore either but that's more long term. I regret it all every drug I ever took.