uncle_jocko
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Sep 8, 2018
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Hey everyone - it’s been quite a spell since I’ve posted here. First off, I hope everyone is doing well … I can’t believe the first month of the new year is almost over. In my mind, when I first got on this site, I would have over two months of being opiate-free by this time. But alas, that’s not the case. Currently, I’ve tapered to 7.5 mgs of oxycodone a day; which as you all know, is a relatively small dose. I take 2.5 around noon, and another 5 at night. I often mix my nightly dose with a rum and coke, although I’m trying to quit doing that. And one more thing, I’ve been attending PA (Pills Anonymous) meetings. The biggest setback, by far, has been going “off taper” on Fridays. I usually plow through the week rather well, and by Friday at the end of the teaching day … I’m over it! I simply want a strong drink mixed with about 15mgs of oxy and a soma. As you know, this does the trick, and I usually even follow it with a bit more. And then, I’m back to the taper on Saturday (although it often takes a few days to get back to where I was Thursday). PA has been good, but almost everyone in those rooms does not have good things to say about tapering. I’ve been calling one guy regularly, and he thinks I’m heading in the wrong direction. But then, I think to myself, “How can I be heading in the WRONG direction if I’ve gone from 40mgs a day to 7.5 a day in five months?” Sure, it’s a slow taper, but I’m definitely making progress. So, even though the meetings are pretty decent, there isn’t much support for a taper. I once read something that someone wrote on these forums: “If we make even the smallest of progress on our taper - even if it’s taking our dose 30 minutes later than scheduled … then we our making small victories”. That gives me strength, as opposed to someone telling me I’m moving in the wrong direction (even though he really is trying to help me). Again, I’m not making this guy out to be a bad guy - his point is that I HAVE to take the leap and just get off the pills altogether. I get that. But, I also have to acknowledge my progress - and I don’t agree with him that I’m moving in the wrong direction. Anyway, I'm open to anyone's feedback - I've missed you folks.
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