I have had both Pregablin and Gabapentin. Pregablin 3 big brother. And pregablin gave me really shaky hands too (although I was using it with alcohol and Kratom). Mostly the next morning. Alcohol hangover + Pregablin hangover + Kratom + Coffee = shaking like a leaf.
Thank you for clarifying spelling. I don't even want to open the stapled bag after the terrible gabapentin experiences. Tried four different times with gabapentin. I have the lowest dose capsules. Probably 100's. So I took one and was doing great until it wore off and I got the shakes so bad felt sick and grabbed a norco to feel better and stopped shaking.
Then I tried emptying the capsule without conserving the powder that I dumped out. Didn't think. Wanted to see if it would help my taper.
Now the pain is freaking me out to no end. If I am going to die I just want to do all of my really good drugs all at once as much as possible so that they don't get left behind when I
Go !
I told my brother to keep an eye out if something happens to me. I keep telling my brother too that I want to somehow get a life insurance policy for millions so he could have a great old time when I leave it all to him. He just said just stop it because those bastards will always find some way to not have to pay out. He said don't bother because they
ain't gonna give me nothin. NOthin at all. It's a scam. I never got a policy but I wish I had one now for millions for my Bro to have. And I told him I would want him to do nothing but have a good time with it or to have it to do good. I just want him to have the best time ever. But I don't even have one now. My knee's work again. But any kind of pressure
on my upper arms especially the right one feels like it is cracking in a thousand pieces. Even hurts to try to roll around in bed by myself. But if someone helps me move it doesn't hurt. Like I cannot push with my arm. But if I hold my arm without moving it and someone helps me lift up it won't hurt. So there is severe pain and then sometimes
the aching pain that won't even stop when I just lay down. That's when it doesn't hurt to breath yet but yes Does hurt to just do nothing at all and just lay there with tormenting pain, And that's when I find that those last few norco's for that relief just one last time. I was just riding up a mountain on a mountain bike three short years ago and just had
minimum pain when it hit. Now I am ruined. If it is Rheumatoid Arthritis ? and Pre Diabetes then I guess it can be reversed. If it is just the withdrawls from all of the good synthetic opioids all of these years then again I will just sweat it out so to speak and pull through that too.
The bone and joint doctor for my ganglion on my wrist is up next in about two weeks. There is a pain management out there too I have been told. The one I went to got RAN outta the local area. Its weird and painful so painful.
My mom even got a wind at me and keeps saying to me that I might be stroking out. Whatever it is it is sooo painful I keep grabbing more Norco and dosing away the insanity. I hurt so bad it hurts to just lay around, but I do have some peaceful moments like right now because I had a dose because I NEED a dose. But I just dosed a norco again. 1/3 of a 10mg. hydro/325 apap. I do want to die btw.
Or let me put it this way, I just can't seem to be able to live like this or to be able to live with whatever this is that I am going through. If it goes away it will be fine. But I think I was having a bad spell from maybe doing too much of whatever. So I wanted to relieve the pain with more norco and then taper and wean from there. The pain always finds a way
to come back though. I am talking I can't even put a little fleece long sleeved shirt on to stay warm without my upper arms feeling like they are going to shatter apart. I can't cook or cut a grapefruit or wash dishes without getting exhausted and getting the tormenting pain. So I just don't do nothing until someone brings me food or cooks for me or I just grab
something real quick. I have to smoke mmj. to be able to eat anyway because it is a chore. I don't know how to die. But this place (BL) was one of the best places ever. I am so sorry I got crotchety and mean. A lot of it is my upbringing. Don't learn to communicate just yell is so low life. I am so sorry . I love every every one of you With Tears In My
Eyes Thank You.
Also, I know when I read this over, it will sound nothing less than Pathetic but is all TRUE. And I do thank everyone with Love. Without BL I have nothing. I am choking back tears. I am going to try to dab again right now. I have barely even been able to do that. And a hot shower is only even possible with a dose of norco sublingually while in the shower. My brain barely functions.
I am still surviving and at work they try to cheer me on as much as possible. I do treat every day as it might be my last. I told them in six months I will either be alright again or I am not going to make it and I WILL quit. But this is because once those norco's arent' available anymore I could just seize up or even stroke out and die. I am ready.
However the pain makes me cry so hard and then I get congested and makes it hard to smoke the dabs. I know this sounds pathetic but I can't live like this anymore. Gradually it may be fixed. Or not.
The pain is unbearable I promise and is true. This is not something fabricated that I know of. I would not ever waste someone's valuable or precious time for something like this. Ever ! I am going to relax without moving as much as possible by smoking a dab right now. But I promise you I will be just laying around here for five hours until I get
desperate enough to go forage for some food somehow. Please just understand I am wailing out of sheer pain and Desperation. Sorry for all of this I just want to get it all out of me somehow and am still so desperate. I really don't know how to end it all. I am just too chicken and extremely apprehensive of that kind of thing. Sorry.
