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^ this is something I am very familiar with.. when you feel like you have someone who cares, and who is looking out for you, you are okay. Once that is taken away (or you worry that it will be taken away - again something I am familiar with!) you feel like you can't cope again.

I'm sure you know, but in the long term you can't count on someone else to always support you. Having supportive people round you is fantastic but having one person is like putting all your eggs in one basket. The ultimate goal for all of us is to be able to support ourselves, but that takes a lot of time and I think that anyone posting in TDS needs a little outsde help. However, it is far better to have a range of people to rely on to lift our mood (maybe not a range who necessarily get us laid, haha, but you know what I mean..) or at least one person we know we can trust to always be there for us.

Do you have anyone else you can talk to and who can help you to feel better while things are tough? Friends, family? If not - you have us <3

I think that this guy isn't someone you should trust with your life (which is effectively what you are doing, if he takes the suicidal feelings away for you) - he's someone you are "messing round" with, he doesn't always call, he's not a solid fixture in your life. By all means have fun with him, you deserve it! I know how much better it makes you feel having someone interested in you, having the whole reciprocated crush thing, getting laid too haha but it isn't a lasting solution, no matter how good it feels at the time. If you don't have anyone in real life who you can depend on, then lean on us - talk to us, and let us help you come up with an action plan on how to improve your life. I've not been reading TDS for a while so am very behind, and without knowing more about you I can't really suggest what will help.. but what I do know is your life is worth improving, and that suicide is most definitely not the answer for you <3<3<3
 
Always step back from your situation.

Talk to people, Samaritans is brilliant for it. They never judge. <3

Take care folks.

Love to you all <3
 
i've just spent the last 2 days in deep pain and depression.

I miss my boy. He should be with me at Christmas


:'(
 
D2P: I'll pm you. Might not be for a few hours (family stuff going on) but I will do before I go to bed, promise.

I miss my boy too. He should be here as well.

Hang tough love - this is a really hard time of year for people who have lost someone, but it will pass <3
 
well it's not just all the loved ones I have lost, I am too ill to look after my son so he is in spain with my parents, i didn't get to see him oprn his presents I was in so much pain.

i a sick of havign stupid crps and a plethora of mental health conditions too
 
^ <3 you dd what was right for him. I am sorry you are in so much pain, love. Life really isn't fair sometimes to put it mildly. You are one strong lady <3
 
i'm trying my hardest to fight it i am, been in floods of tears all night. I just want to be better for it all to go away but this is for life now, 25 and already like an old woman, i'll be dead by 40 I bet hopefully if it is 40 and not sooner (huge strain on my organs) my son will be old enough to understand at 20. I hope he will manage when my body does give in, i hate to see my family hurt when they look at me, you can see the pain in their eyes, it's like a searing hot dagger being thrust into my heart, i feel their pain and sadness that i am now like this than what iwas 3 years ago

thanks effie <3
 
You are strong, I barely know you but you are one of the strongest people I have come across in my time in TDS.

I hate seeing my family hurting when they look at me hurting too. Vicious cycle ey. But my family hurt more when I hide things from them... it is one of the things that comes with being dealt bad hand; having to deal with other people getting upset on our behalf. It sucks but nothing we can do about it. Your family obviously care about you a huge amount, and that is something to hold onto at least <3
 
Thanks effie I really appreciate your kind and empathetic words, that was really nice of you. From what I hhave read from your posts you have had a really rough time too, I think you are dealing with your grief amazingly and you offer excellent advice all of the time, we are lucky to have you on TDS <3
 
i tried 3 times with super high doses and those times i thought i was doing my family a favour.

i know now that no matter how badmy pain and deformities end up, or how bad my mental health is and i'm bed bound like this forever, I still have a son that needs teachign and nurturing when i'm not to ill like now

why don't you start a degree via web correspondence, it should be free to you snd it's all via webcam and you can take longer to do it if you have mental or physical health problems, that might give you something to occupy your brain with. i am staring one in feb medical sceince
 
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i tried 3 times with super high doses and those times i thought i was doing my family a favour.

i know now that no matter how badmy pain and deformities end up, or how bad my mental health is and i'm bed bound like this forever, I still have a son that needs teachign and nurturing when i'm not to ill like now

why don't you start a degree via web correspondence, it should be free to you snd it's all via webcam and you can take longer to do it if you have mental or physical health problems, that might give you something to occupy your brain with. i am staring one in feb medical sceince
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I've only exchanged a few messages with you, but you are a remarkable and inspirational woman. Do not kill yourself, you have to help me get the details of your sister's doctor now!
 
I wont kill myself im past that stage right now even though the thoughts sneak in there occassionally, im doing much better than i was a month ago anyway.
 
^^^ good for you man, stims really mess with your head.

proud of ya, stay strong

healing prayers to you

<3
 
Bupe is meant to be a goo long acting analgesic opiod and no abuse potential really if you want ti for pain. My dr nearly killed me with bupe last week but that's another story lol.

Stay strong we are all here for you. Are you on any psychiatric drugs and treatment for the anxiety, social awkwardness and impulsivity? I too am adhd and have never been medicated for it, i tried ritalin twice for a huge weekend of sorting 2 years worth of artwork and personal practise notes out, they helped buti am already on am impressive meds regime for my pain and paychiatric disorders so i didnt want to add more to it.

Pm me if you need to chat.

Peace, healing and hope <3
 
Im on a plethora of meds for my conditions i am very poorly right now and i cant ever get comfy, i am bedbound for nearly 4 weeks now and just sitting up is a problem, i hate it.
 
My physical condition and the resulting mental health issues are life long so i gotta stay on meds, ive no quality of life but it would be even worse if i wasnt on anything, i found that out this year when i stopped taking everything. I hope you get some relief soon. Have they tried youon anti epileptics?
 
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