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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo)

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national express will probably be cheaper than trains, I've been looking at prices for when I come up in august, only £9 for a single from cambridge the either glasgow or edinburgh.

Are you still going to go to some of the fringe?
 
Yeah you're right buses are cheaper, will look into it. Really want to take the train journey up north from Fort William to Malaig (as featured in Harry Potter film I beleive) on the West Highland Railway Line, it's one of the most epic train journeys, scenery wise, in the world.

I will be in Edinburgh for the festival during the last weekend of August I think it is, need to double check that with my mate. Possible another weekend too but not sure, can't get any time off during the week unfortunately as all of august at work is fully booked. August should be good, got the Beatles weekend here in Scumdee and Festival in Edinburgh. Then (hopefully) Brazilera chicka coming in September. After that I'll be on a strict, no fun and no spending money regime, in order to GTF away from here ASAP!
 
ah, i had an interview the other day for a really lovely lookin job, and what did the bastards do? thats right they gave it to the one with the big tits... just goes to show, even in the murky old world of physics.. (no, it wasnt a long haired breasted man either) ;(
 
Sometimes friendships end up in a way you never thought was possible. It can be a bit arse.
 
Mugz said:
Sorry wibs, :( is always sad to lose a friend.

Feeling pretty sad at the moment too over a frienship that is not as strong as it once was.
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Friendships ebb and flow.. I was also feeling sad thinking about my Uni friends earlier - we lived together for 5 years, we were really good mates and I've not seen (or even conversed except via facebook) with them for over a year now.. but my closest ex-housemate just got in touch again and we're going to try to meet soon :)

My very bestest friend from Uni (non-housemate, we were on same course) and I haven't spoken in ages, and it's my fault.. I had to cancel a few visits to see her for various reasons and was generally shit at staying in touch and it really hurt her :( must ring her really and be brave, she's a lovely person and we were best friends for 5 years at least <3

My last super-close group of mates imploded in a bit of a messy way quite a while back - we're all still good friends still thankfully but it is different now and I have got to know a much wider range of lovely people (mostly courtesy of BL haha)

Nothing stays the same forever.. sad as it is to lose a close friendship, it may not be permanent, and a new and lovely friendship with someone you've not met yet could be just around the corner :)
 
I feel really bad for my family and what i put them through the past month , at one time i tried taking my life throwing as much shit down my mouth , banging up thw most crazy amounts of gear , had phenny at one point then zolpidem i was snorting them at some point but theres been a big reason i will be a mess around this time of year to do with my X who was the one but due to outside , responsibilities , obstructions , temptations it ruined something that we both know we will never ever find again, and its not fair because what we had was so fucking special if iwrote a book about it noone would believe the things that happened,if i made a block buster movie about the link we had a telepathic link is only one part of what we had , the rest not even her or i understand what happened around and between us. When we split we both said we will never ever find this again and tbh i dont know if anyone else in the fucking world has went through the magical fantasy like things that happened and when i look forward i cant see me loving anyone the way we did again and whats crazy is its her birthday on the 27th and my sister is ready to give birth and the other crazy side is her dad died on the day i was born so if my sis has this kid on the 27th its going to be too much for me to take i thought i was over her after 3 years of her calling from the airport and saying sorry but im going now just after i had got out of rehab and we said we would try again that was the call i got 2 weeks later ,i thought of all the angry stuff, the good stuff the magical stuff i cant explain and still when i let my true emotions flow i cant stop because we both knew we were 2 perfect matches surrounded in a world of everything against us and theres only so much fighting you can do to be with the person your meant to be with but the universe wont let you have it because it was something too good ,too unreal too perfect for such a fucked up place .

I dont know what to do except keep taking methadone and heroin to try kill the pain but even with them the emotions of what we once had are so incredible that i cant stop crying like i have been since i started writing this . I dont know how she must feel but now and only now do i understand why she started drinking and went on anti depressants, this is a girl who looks at drink as the devil and drugs as the most evil form of anything on this planet and when i say drugs i mean aspirin, ibuprofen and the harder stuff well u can imagine her thoughts towards them .... i always said at the end dont drink thats not you, you dont do that and only now have i just figured out the reason why

sorry long sad story there but i have had no one to talk to or tell any of this to for a very long time
 
fucking balls day find out a mate has left BL then even worse about BNB ..... too much has happened lately to take in mind .im going to sleep now i cant take any more
 
Sad that I am cancelling my trip to Scotland when I have been looking forward to it for so long, sad that a friend hasn't got in contact with me for a while, worried whether they are ok or not.
 
sad the presence of mugz will not be in our country this month to make the relations between scots and englishmen on BL Stronger lol........

nah real reason im here just watching the news and looking at the state of the world we live in, has it always been this way ? im only 30 but was there a time before me that there was none of this crazy bombing and wars but i think back to history and the time of ceaser which makes me think nope there probably wasnt but now its worse with the more technology we can use against each other ... i hate seeing the world we live in, every time i watch the news im saddened by some news of death by bombs or a crazy parent killing their children etc etc ... iwhat kind of fucking race are we honestly ? this happens all the time and they want to take our drugs away ? WTF !
 
The news tends to only report the bad stories though mate, good people exist all over the world, good things happen every second.
 
People seem to prefer doom, gloom, war, terror, rape, murder, abuse, violence etc...oh and celebrities of course.
 
Rails, I can't find them. I've come off them.

But, actually, today is the first day in 6 days that i've not used gear, and methadone held off the mental want. Can't say the same for crack though.

I have a stabbing painful kidney infection (as always), and an abscess/ black and blue arm. I've hit rock bottom, the only way on the ladder is up from here, and i'll climb it. Sometimes it takes rock bottom to actually realise you need to check your fucking self before you wreck yourself!
 
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cherrycolouredfunk said:
Rails, I can't find them. I've come off them.

But, actually, today is the first day in 6 days that i've not used gear, and methadone held off the mental want. Can't say the same for crack though.

I have a stabbing painful kidney infection (as always), and an abscess/ black and blue arm. I've hit rock bottom, the only way on the ladder is up from here, and i'll climb it. Sometimes it takes rock bottom to actually realise you need to check your fucking self before you wreck yourself!
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