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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo)

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Been avoiding this thread, just saw your posts Shambles.

Jesus, fuck. Can't think of words n stuff.

Going through similar things atm, and been thinking about you all week.

Eh, so sorry <3
 
Sammy G -- thanks again -- you may not know me, but you make really nice and thoughtful posts, and it's good to know someone has been in a low state and pulled themselves out of it.

I didn't come here to talk about my problems tonight though, just to say <3 <3 <3 to Shambles, and wish you the best and hope you are managing ok at a sad sad time. We're all here if you need anything. xxxxx
 
Everything's relevant MM. This thread is good to get shit off yer chest, and there's always gonna be someone with a sadder situation, but it shouldn't stop you from posting about yours, cause in the end it's cathartic, and also helpful for others to read no matter how minor the situation might seem. Tis for me anyway.

Eh, my sad shit: My Ma died yesterday tea time. She'd been ill for years, but it was still very unexpected for various reasons. She collapsed at home yesterday morning and was intubated by the ambulance crew. When she got to resus in A&E and they asked us about taking the breathing tubes out we said yes, and we knew she'd always said she wanted to be on DNR, so that's what we agreed to do with the docs.

She continued to breathe herself for about 6 hours and was never on her own during that time, and she was completely unconscious during the whole process. She took her last few breaths in a private room with me and nerdboy there, holding her hands and stoking her head.

Totally devastated. We were close. She was the most selfless person I've ever known. I can feel a fucking huge aching gap in me that I can't ever imagine will go away.

Totally glad I have a Nerdboy who's been a total gem.

I need to reply to various PMs n emails .. will get onto that when my head is a little more straight. Been distracting myself today by keeping busy and helping a relative move house.
 
So sorry Marmz, I knew things weren't good but didn't want to pry, the ends sounds like it was peaceful, with loved ones around her, no one could ask for more than that.

My father continues to deteriorate at an alarming rate, his motor skills are becoming seriously affected and he is barely coherent, his continued aggression towards my mother is very upsetting. In many ways a grieved his loss a good while ago, before the rest of my family would accept there was a problem but I'm becoming concerned about the future as he becomes less and less able to cope.

Mrs A lost her mother to a long battle with cancer a few years ago, it was an awful time and having been with her since I was 15 she was like a mother to me also and we had much in common. She did not have a peaceful death and despite visiting her at the funeral place Mrs A is still very much disturbed by those final days.

Life can be so cruel and beautiful all at the same time, love to all <3
 
Fucking hell. I don't know what to say. Things happening, should not be happening. That's as articulate as I can get here.

<3 <3 <3
 
Marmalade said:
Everything's relevant MM. This thread is good to get shit off yer chest, and there's always gonna be someone with a sadder situation, but it shouldn't stop you from posting about yours, cause in the end it's cathartic, and also helpful for others to read no matter how minor the situation might seem. Tis for me anyway.

Eh, my sad shit: My Ma died yesterday tea time. She'd been ill for years, but it was still very unexpected for various reasons. She collapsed at home yesterday morning and was intubated by the ambulance crew. When she got to resus in A&E and they asked us about taking the breathing tubes out we said yes, and we knew she'd always said she wanted to be on DNR, so that's what we agreed to do with the docs.

She continued to breathe herself for about 6 hours and was never on her own during that time, and she was completely unconscious during the whole process. She took her last few breaths in a private room with me and nerdboy there, holding her hands and stoking her head.

Totally devastated. We were close. She was the most selfless person I've ever known. I can feel a fucking huge aching gap in me that I can't ever imagine will go away.

Totally glad I have a Nerdboy who's been a total gem.

I need to reply to various PMs n emails .. will get onto that when my head is a little more straight. Been distracting myself today by keeping busy and helping a relative move house.
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Marmalade I am so incredibly sorry...my father's had stomach cancer for quite a while now so I know what it's like to be expecting the inevitable but I can't imagine that makes it any less painful when it does happen...I wish I had something more useful to say but I'm thinking of you <3
 
bless Marmz, that's very sad.

I'm very sad about seamus heaney, not that I knew him, but he kind of felt like family coz he was from my mom's neck of the woods so his poems always link me to my mom as she's been gone a very long time. and the family kind of knew the heaneys in the way country folk do. http://archive.neopoet.com/audio/19970

As a child, they could not keep me from wells
And old pumps with buckets and windlasses.
I loved the dark drop, the trapped sky, the smells
Of waterweed, fungus and dank moss.

One, in a brickyard, with a rotted board top.
I savoured the rich crash when a bucket
Plummeted down at the end of a rope.
So deep you saw no reflection in it.

A shallow one under a dry stone ditch
Fructified like any aquarium.
When you dragged out long roots from the soft mulch
A white face hovered over the bottom.

Others had echoes, gave back your own call
With a clean new music in it. And one
Was scaresome, for there, out of ferns and tall
Foxgloves, a rat slapped across my reflection.

Now, to pry into roots, to finger slime,
To stare, big-eyed Narcissus, into some spring
Is beneath all adult dignity. I rhyme
To see myself, to set the darkness echoing.
 
I don't even need/want to read your post. I can understand, without reading it, by what others have said. Well I think I understand anyways. So sorry to hear...don't give up though. Think what she would want for you and try and grow stronger, deal with it as best you can, at your own pace.

Life and death can suck serious fucking balls. You will always have memories :(
 
So much real sadness that people here are going through.
My thoughts are with you Shambles,Marmz,Allein and anyone else who is going through a tough time.
 
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