swampdragon
Bluelighter
Thinking of you, Shambles. 

Everything's relevant MM. This thread is good to get shit off yer chest, and there's always gonna be someone with a sadder situation, but it shouldn't stop you from posting about yours, cause in the end it's cathartic, and also helpful for others to read no matter how minor the situation might seem. Tis for me anyway.
Eh, my sad shit: My Ma died yesterday tea time. She'd been ill for years, but it was still very unexpected for various reasons. She collapsed at home yesterday morning and was intubated by the ambulance crew. When she got to resus in A&E and they asked us about taking the breathing tubes out we said yes, and we knew she'd always said she wanted to be on DNR, so that's what we agreed to do with the docs.
She continued to breathe herself for about 6 hours and was never on her own during that time, and she was completely unconscious during the whole process. She took her last few breaths in a private room with me and nerdboy there, holding her hands and stoking her head.
Totally devastated. We were close. She was the most selfless person I've ever known. I can feel a fucking huge aching gap in me that I can't ever imagine will go away.
Totally glad I have a Nerdboy who's been a total gem.
I need to reply to various PMs n emails .. will get onto that when my head is a little more straight. Been distracting myself today by keeping busy and helping a relative move house.