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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo) 2 - Tory Britain in Flames

After an absolute melter of a last few days the dust seems to have settled.

Gonna be spending an awful lot more time alone once more. At least it gets rid of that constant niggling that someone feels pressured to be there, rather than wants to. I hate filling up people's busy schedules when they have other relationships to maintain.

I have no plans for my week off or celebrations now. I could just get a one way flight and run off. I just have a deep sadness settling in my bones which kinda feels like defeat. Maybe the 3-fpm will help!

Edit: hope you find them. These trains sure move fast.
 
Why not run off?

The only advice I can confidently give is that the 3-fpm will probably not help at all..unless you have loads of cleaning to do / need to talk shit at people / or working night shifts.

Sadness doesn't necessarily need to mean defeat -sit with the sadness, it'll pass eventually.
 
I hate the man I married.
How's that for the sad thread?

Your posts don't indicate you're bipolar Pagey more borderline (BPD). Get that fixed woman, grow up and get a proper psychiatric diagnosis and the right meds to sort it out/


I don't care you hate me btw.
 
Nope and neither do I care about your completely wrong opinion hun :) but I'm suuuuure you know better than 3 psychiatrists. Why wouldn't you?! You're clearly a smart cookie! ;)
 
Now that was uncalled for. I was only saying my parents hated each other yet were married for 20 yrs.

Then again you are crazy so 2 weeks seems about right

Sorry I forget having a genuine mental illness means I'm crazy.
Your post was really unclear OTW, you're smart enough to see that and you know I respect and like you.
Genuine apologies for misunderstanding. Maybe that 'crazy' comment was a bit uncalled for too though huh?
 
I'm sure you would know that given all the time we spend together. And my hardly ever being on blue light. And my drug use. Yup, you're qualified to assess me.

Just saying its noticeable sweetheart x

Scroll past or ignore my posts, your choice...
 
And I'm just saying I've been diagnosed by 3 psychiatrists who may know a bit more about this than you. And that's ignoring the other fact that my father is and it's hereditary. But you think what you want...i couldn't care less. Night and thanks for your brilliant insight!
 
Abusing substances can be part of bipolar, by the way.
Evey

And Borderline too (in fact probably most mental health problems)


Deep breaths Pagey... people just meant well - seeing 3 psychiatrists doesn't mean shit if they're all wrong right? I've been there. Not saying that's the case but why even mention it.

Whatever the case may be, put things into perspective, you have a life, a husband - why are you getting pissed with an internet forum.
 
And Borderline too (in fact probably most mental health problems)

Yea I thought that then as I posted when I remembered the erratic stuff my friend did. Tried killing herself but it was more attention seeking as she'd take lots of paracetamol like weekly, n phone an ambulanace, cut herself n other stuff. For years she had a job in a care home n we always joked that she had it together even though she'd been abused n most of her family had depression.

Evey
 
I had a bipolar friend at school who used to ask me if he could strangle me for a bit.

I'd say 'um... sure why not'

He'd wrap his hands around my throat, not too tightly though.

The memory of the haunting expression of joy on his face will last me a lifetime.
 
Whatever the case may be, put things into perspective, you have a life, a husband - why are you getting pissed with an internet forum.

I got pissed that someone I barely know thought she knew better about my condition than 3 specialists...I don't think that's so unreasonable of me.
 
Agreed. Thanks Evey and hope you're doing well <3

I apologise for being tactless Pagey, my intentions were well meant <3

It pains us all here to see a lovely girl like you suffer so badly from your illness and how it disrupts your life. Unfortunately I do have a lot of experience (30+ years) with both disorders with friends and myself. They are treatable and can be stabalised so allowing you to lead a functioning and normal life. If you've been to 3 psychiatrists ( I take it they are not NHS ones) for diagnosis hopefully one of them now has you on a treatment programme that gives you some relief soon. I'd be surprised by a a psychiatrist prescribing antidepressants (I'm sure you've posted recently you are on them) for bipolar as they can trigger and exacerbate mania. As you'll know that's a nightmare and can end up with you being hospitalised.

When you posted a thread here a few weeks back asking eadders to contact a member here to get in touch about bipolar, I did do that and asap - then PM'd you to say so and noted that we had this in common. You never sent a reply back to me.

Manners cost nothing.

I do hope you get treatment as I really feel for you and know the pain that these disorders bring. No one needs to suffer in this day and age. Take care x
 
Our lil' dragon died today, he seemed a bit off the other day so took him to the vet who said she was surprised he was still alive, he perked right up after but got worse last night before passing on this morning :( Knew he didn't have long ahead of him when we adopted him but seems his previous owner fucked the poor guy up more than we thought. Legit gutted, loved that little guy.
 
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