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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo) 2 - Tory Britain in Flames

I feel you, fubar, I cocked up my orders so only got 2g and I'm already eyeing it up and thinking I might as well just get 7.... for storing? When I say storing I mean in ma belly and vaped kindly.
 
Sad because I feel completely unwelcome everywhere I stay at the moment and despite promises to the contrary, it doesn't look like I'm any closer to having a real home than I was at the beginning of the year. Never rely on people to care because no one really does I guess. Trusting people has left me basically fucked because I'm virtually homeless and have no money and no chance of getting a job and am more depressed and lonely than ever. At least I can still get drugs, what else is your overdraft for right? :p
 
SummerSerenade said:
Sad because I feel completely unwelcome everywhere I stay at the moment and despite promises to the contrary, it doesn't look like I'm any closer to having a real home than I was at the beginning of the year. Never rely on people to care because no one really does I guess. Trusting people has left me basically fucked because I'm virtually homeless and have no money and no chance of getting a job and am more depressed and lonely than ever. At least I can still get drugs, what else is your overdraft for right? :p
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That all sounds a bit shite but don't lose faith in others most of the time they just dont comprehend how their actions are affecting you and what your priorities are. I sat this not because I feel let down by others, but I often do but because I know how others have felt let down by me.

No one is innocent (circa 1977 ;))

At 18 I left a clean (aspiring) middle class home and moved into a shared house, my room just had a chest of drawers and a mattress on the floor....no heating. At the time I was earning £6K a year and had to commute 25 miles to work.

At the time I felt quite daunted and if I'm honest scared but in retrospect starting from nothing (and I still have most of that left) did me a great deal of good and I vowed to try and never move into a place worse than the one before. I spent over 10 years renting various rooms, flats and eventually a small house in a variety of 'diverse' places, I saw things and met people that gave me a wider view of the world at large.

Stability took a long time to achieve in terms of money and housing but my motivation to work is almost entirely driven by not wanting to live in a grimy bedsit with no money and little of anything else. I'm not suggesting wealth or fancy cars and houses indicate achievement but we all have to find our way and it takes time<3
 
Trusting people is hard. I have ultimate trust in the people I choose to be around, but at the same time I dont trust any of their judgment and understanding as much as I trust my own, which often leads to a gaping chasm of maelstrom to deal with for both them and me.

Its usually down to unrealistic expectations on my part I think, and wishful thinking while not being in ideal circumstances. Leads to disappointment and thats often hard to deal with when in an environment and situations that are often highly stressful on all sides.

People often dont know their own limitations and can promise too much Summer. Not that theyre cunts, more like insanely well intended and wanting to please, but either physically, mentally or financially unable to follow through on their good intent. This definitely applies to me.

Trouble is, when you get let down in that way by the ones you love, it has a double whammy negative effect of feeling uncared for, or unloved, or under-appreciated, or illconsidered. Understandably too, cos thats what comes out of giving a fuck about others. All the best ones feel like walking doormats at some point, its inevitable for anyone that takes things personally. Taking things personally just means you give a fuck about the person who you feel has let you down.

Dont stop caring. Dont stop feeling let down when you feel you have been. Just try to see those people's situations a bit more contextually to understand if its actually thoughtlessness on their part, or due to their own circumstances providing them with difficulties too.

Trouble is, its really fucking hard to contextualise others positions sometimes when youre at a very low ebb. Its not an easy one. At times like this, maybe try to extend your patience as far as you can stretch it and have as much faith in their character you know them to be over a long period of time, not just how theyve been behaving recently.

good luck with things summer. something will come up, it usually does. it may not be ideal but youre made of strong stuff. youll get by
 
I agree with Ms Mermaid, summer, you're made of strong stuff and you can weather through this. It's really hard being unsure of where your place is and it can be so daunting but you're young and you've lots of opportunities to still come.

Edit: too much unneeded personal info! <3

Sorry for the rant, the point I'm trying to make (badly) is that although things may not be perfect hang in there! You've so much more to lool forward to, and you should start looking into places and charities that help young adults trying to adjust to their home situations.

(3fpm bomb has created a whirlwind of words which I hope you find some solace in lol)
 
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One thing Id say does help summer, is to keep communications up with the offending creatures and let them know how you feel, in as constructive a manner as possible.*

If you dont discuss how the situation has made you feel then all sorts of misunderstandings can happen and complicate your situation even further. Often these things are fueled negatively by miscommunications and misunderstandings, so when you act on such a highly emotive situation and theres a cloud of fog all round, theres often a tendency to bump heads more easily. And if men are involved, youll need to compensate for their inevitable insensitivity and ability to be dicks without actually being aware theyre being one. Its often a gender defect I'm afraid



* and when youve mastered that one, come back and tell me how you do it, cos I'm still at the 'youre a fucking con artist & a charlatan', 'youre a junkie scumbag,' 'Youre a lying psychopath' stage. (delete as appropriate). It's not a good look. Just ask my VIPs <3
 
SummerSerenade said:
Sad because I feel completely unwelcome everywhere I stay at the moment and despite promises to the contrary, it doesn't look like I'm any closer to having a real home than I was at the beginning of the year. Never rely on people to care because no one really does I guess. Trusting people has left me basically fucked because I'm virtually homeless and have no money and no chance of getting a job and am more depressed and lonely than ever. At least I can still get drugs, what else is your overdraft for right? :p
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Why isn't Dan putting you up n taking care of you? Thought he was your boyfriend. And he's letting you be homeless?

Evey
 
Ms Mermaid said:
* and when youve mastered that one, come back and tell me how you do it, cos I'm still at the 'youre a fucking con artist & a charlatan', 'youre a junkie scumbag,' 'Youre a lying psychopath' stage. (delete as appropriate). It's not a good look. Just ask my VIPs <3
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Try shifting it back to I statements. E.g. I feel really sad when you do/say xyz, rather than starting off with "You do/say". Although it doesn't guarantee a good response I think it's less accusatory.
 
Younger bro with telesales experience came home and decided to email his cv to the company that had offered me a better paid job with such nice hours but I turned it down because I had been offered a better position in my place. I regret not taking it. He mentioned they'd interviewed me and I'd declined and sent his cv in.

They've just employed him. Everyone's acting so pleased and complimentary and he's being very "of course I would get it,mslane, I have better experience". I feel a little sad no one got excited when I was offered it, just assumed I wouldn't be able to make it through the probation period lol

Glad he's got a job tho. kid needs to make a way somehow.
 
wibble said:
Try shifting it back to I statements. E.g. I feel really sad when you do/say xyz, rather than starting off with "You do/say". Although it doesn't guarantee a good response I think it's less accusatory.
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That works to be honest. Tried that with a friend via E-mail n we had a rational conversation rather than an argument lol

We were taught that during counselling training but always thought it was BS until I actually tried it.

Evey
 
gardenlane said:
Younger bro with telesales experience came home and decided to email his cv to the company that had offered me a better paid job with such nice hours but I turned it down because I had been offered a better position in my place. I regret not taking it. He mentioned they'd interviewed me and I'd declined and sent his cv in.

They've just employed him. Everyone's acting so pleased and complimentary and he's being very "of course I would get it,mslane, I have better experience". I feel a little sad no one got excited when I was offered it, just assumed I wouldn't be able to make it through the probation period lol

Glad he's got a job tho. kid needs to make a way somehow.
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You won't be jealous when he quits within a couple of months.
 
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