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The Sad Thread (Anti-Snoo) 2 - Tory Britain in Flames

Oh, I did send a note - it's just hard to find words that aren't patronising, and I desperately don't want to pester anybody. And you're right that they have stuff going on. Lots of stuff. I was just worried, and it's been a long time since Saturday afternoon. A couple of words would have done.

Is it good that I'm there for this person? I don't know if it it's much use really. I tried to be. Maybe I'm just not very good at it.
 
Yea I understand that. It can be difficult sometimes trying not to come across as patronising. I guess everyone's different but I'm imagine one note wont seem like you're pestering. Being there for people may not always be use in terms of solving their problems but it may be comforting to know they have someone who cares n looking out for them. As i say i don't know them n people are complex.

Evey
 
I have just come so close to scoring again for the first time in 5 years. Ran into an old dealer at the pharmacy, got money in the bank and his dealer was outside. Yet I walked on by. Now my fuckin head is screaming at me 'stop tormenting yourself and buy some smack'. Now I'm sad because I didn't....
 
You did ace, FUBAR. Sorry if that sounds patronising. Remember its nit addiction talking not you, the amygdala. Tell it to f*** off. You've worked damn hard to get where you are n don't need it xxxx
You done well not to. Lots would have given in.

Evey
 
Eveyvibe said:
You did ace, FUBAR. Sorry if that sounds patronising. Remember its nit addiction talking not you, the amygdala. Tell it to f*** off. You've worked damn hard to get where you are n don't need it xxxx
You done well not to. Lots would have given in.

Evey
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Thanks Evey, I needed to hear that because I'm now sat here trying to think of ways to find him again - but I've got bills and shit to pay, so it would have ended badly. I think I can just go home now and get fuckin drunk again to stop this nagging in my head..

Edit: paid my bills and am now working on getting arseholed :(
 
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Really well done FUBAR.... The torment will pass, although it can seem like an eternity with that thought rattling around in your head it's only brief... what's unlikely to be brief is if you do pick up again, once you open that can of worms it could be the beginning of another 5+ year battle..

Stay strong man, you've already proved you can walk away. Be proud of that... <3
 
ScotchMist said:
Really well done FUBAR.... The torment will pass, although it can seem like an eternity with that thought rattling around in your head it's only brief... what's unlikely to be brief is if you do pick up again, once you open that can of worms it could be the beginning of another 5+ year battle..

Stay strong man, you've already proved you can walk away. Be proud of that... <3
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This is a good post. Agrred!

Evey
 
ScotchMist said:
Really well done FUBAR.... The torment will pass, although it can seem like an eternity with that thought rattling around in your head it's only brief... what's unlikely to be brief is if you do pick up again, once you open that can of worms it could be the beginning of another 5+ year battle..

Stay strong man, you've already proved you can walk away. Be proud of that... <3
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Yeh, thanks SM, you are absolutely correct. 5 minutes of relief could well turn into a full time habit again... Cheers :)
 
That part of our life is done. It's easy to forget that the trade-off for one feel good day is more than you bargained for. Today is 20 days for me :) Thanks for your story FUbar!
 
^ Congrats on the 20 days :)

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Thanks Shammy, i guess i am kinda proud, but ya know what its like when the cravings hit...
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I recall hearing it said that cravings only last 15 minutes or so. Not sure I entirely believe that but the specific time is not that important cos the main point is that they pale into insignificance compared to the amount of time you are not craving. However long they do last is horrid but they do pass and you have every right to be immensely pleased with yourself - to the point of outright smugness - for managing to focus on the bigger picture.

I say again: good job, Fubar <3
 
you stopped with the drought didn't you? you were wise , I was done wanting it in the great drought of winter 10, I ended up locked out of the house as my son fell asleep while I was on my way back from work. I ended up staying a ta a mate who had the good tings and it was kind of game over. That was one cold cold night..

I've been so sick this 've been so sick this last 10 days. I've become a mouth breathing idiot.
 
pinkpapaver said:
you stopped with the drought didn't you? you were wise , I was done wanting it in the great drought of winter 10, I ended up locked out of the house as my son fell asleep while I was on my way back from work. I ended up staying a ta a mate who had the good tings and it was kind of game over. That was one cold cold night..

I've been so sick this 've been so sick this last 10 days. I've become a mouth breathing idiot.
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No you're not an idiot. Addicts are far from idiots. In fact, some of the most intelligent people i know are addicts - you only have to look at the people on this site for confirmation of that. If it wasn't for being able to vent my frustration here, I KNOW I would have cracked and scored again.
 
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