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☮ Social ☮ The PD Cosmic Space-Train: SOCIAL UMPH in Full Spectrum

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^Strange you say that cos Miss Swils old man just came up to me, mentioned that it was snowin in England and then walked off again.

Hmm.
 
Morning folks. You know you're getting acclimatized to winter when -10C doesn't feel cold anymore :)

nearjat said:
For example, I've been in love with a female friend of mine since....I've started talking to her 6 months ago. After getting in a treatment program and taking control of my life a bit, and her attempting to do the same, we started exploring an intimate relationship. I felt on top of the world, not in an egotistical way, it was just one of those moments when the universe just works out the way I think it ought to. Like good actions = reward.
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Exactly. My ups and downs all revolve around my relationship. I'm finding my anxieties to be completely unfounded and that I build things up in my head too much. This goes for other people as well. I put other people on pedestals which makes me really nervous around them, especially my SO. In the last little bit I've really come to see that they're just like me. They're human, they have feelings, emotions, weaknesses, desires just like me. That helps me connect with them in the equal anxiety-free plane person to person.

swilow said:
^Would you say its an increased perceptual understanding, and inadverten amplyfying, of "normal" emotions, or actually a "disorder"? I (obviously) feel its the former; highs are higher because they are felt so strongly; lows are lower for the same reason...

Either way, it makes for an evershiftng mental landscape to explore :\
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Definitely the former. Psychedelics amplify emotions and they can also twist things around and bring out some delusions. In the past a long time ago when I would trip I would feel incredibly guilty for accessing these deep states (as if they're supposed to be left subconscious). I would also feel guilty for the fact that I have taken drugs. My SO is quite anti-drug but at the same time she doesn't know what psychedelics do. Either way I would feel an incredible guilt while under the effects of psychedelics (guilt caused by the taking of the psychedelics amplified by the psychedelic state). This incredible guilt put out some deep roots in my mind and made me feel incredibly inferior and unworthy (putting her on a pedestal and the consequent anxiety around her) long after the drug wore off.

Things have changed and that stuff is being undone. I'm getting more social and having more human connections on an equal plane. My guilt of taking psychedelics is certainly gone; part of that has to do with this wonderful internet community I got myself into. :) <3

I would have to say my ups and downs are all about love. I would have them without psychedelics anyway. Love on it's own makes people kinda nuts and it sure did to me.

Without love I wouldn't have these ups and downs; that is for sure.

BollWeevil said:
My experience (which sounds uncannily similar to yours) seems to me to be a lack of the ability to ignore that I feel a certain way.
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Same. Some things are impossible to ignore; you just can't help but throw your attention towards it.

swilow said:
Yeah, I think the process of maturing (in a psychedelic way) iis to not be affected by anything at all. Theres really not much that makes me feel really bad; and lots of things that make me feel really good. I used to constantly feel trapped by my feelings/emotions, but now I see SOME of them as pure delusions.
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Me too :)

Truth is, you can feel however you want, whenever you want. It takes some lateral thinkiing and general disciplone, but I rarrely get taken over by my emotions unless I choose too....of course, darkness shines, but light is always there. Personally, I am eager to face whatever happens to me/us; the more I think about feelings/emotions, the more I am aware they are transient and so often meaningless and without origin.
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I often feel like I am drawn to powerful emotions. I choose to feel them but at the same time there's no way for me to not feel them. They are there and they are going to be felt; they're a part of me and my feelings. If people could choose to turn a blind eye and not feel their emotions I think that would be a rather inhuman, unloving way to live.

Some emotions are meaningless and without origin. Some of them are outright delusions, I wholeheartedly agree. You still feel them anyway though; only later on when you figure stuff out do you see that they are delusions.

But such is life; you can't can't choose to not feel an emotional delusion; at that time it's still an emotion. You only find out it's a delusion later on when you figure some things out and that's okay. Feeling delusional emotions is still progress; it's still cultivating a heart. It's just a relief when you find out something that felt so shitty isn't really how things are and that things are much more pleasant and level than the delusion you were experiencing. :) <3

I took some phenibut this morning. I've been doing really good on the GABAergics. I don't crave them at all since my withdrawal and methylone experience. I just took the phenibut because it's friday and I'm going to my friend's house and taking some mephedrone tonight. I'll be taking some diazepam on the comedown of the mephedrone but that's where it ends.

I seem to have a good routine with them now. None during the week unless something is happening when I know it would make things smoother (social convention, interview, confrontation, etc.). I take phenibut before a trip and diazepam when I come down to help me wind down and sleep. I wake up the next day and won't take anything until the phenibut before my next trip. :)
 
PepperSocks said:
Morning folks. You know you're getting acclimatized to winter when -10C doesn't feel cold anymore :)



Exactly. My ups and downs all revolve around my relationship. I'm finding my anxieties to be completely unfounded and that I build things up in my head too much. This goes for other people as well. I put other people on pedestals which makes me really nervous around them, especially my SO. In the last little bit I've really come to see that they're just like me. They're human, they have feelings, emotions, weaknesses, desires just like me. That helps me connect with them in the equal anxiety-free plane person to person.

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I would have to say my ups and downs are all about love. I would have them without psychedelics anyway. Love on it's own makes people kinda nuts and it sure did to me.

Without love I wouldn't have these ups and downs; that is for sure.
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Yep :)
Good morning everyone :) Well its actually noon right now, but I'm on winter break ;)
 
^ @PepperSocks: Like I was saying, if taking GABAergics to smooth out anxiety ever becomes a problem, definitely look into propranolol. :)


Re: psychedelics amplifying the human experience / heightening perception: I've noted 2C-E's range of effects in particular to be almost precisely this. A lot of psychedelics feel like an amplification and a mutation of consciousness (cannabis being more a mutator and serotonergic psyches being more scalars), but the 2C-E high seems like almost a perfect scaling of the sober experience. To the degree that I don't really realize I'm tripping until I'm totally faced.



Morning nearjat! :) Today marks the first day of my winter break. Gonna celebrate by toking some of this new tasty looking bud I've got.
 
TheAppleCore said:
(cannabis being more a mutator and serotonergic psyches being more scalars)
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So true. I find cannabis to be a propagator or that unfounded delusional anxiety. Psychedelics just amplify the truth, but cannabis can cause flat out delusions and thus makes me incredibly anxious and it isn't even the productive anxiety of coming to terms with a true thing.

I don't smoke much pot at all anymore. I haven't smoked since coming down from that methylone. Actually come to think of it I haven't been doing any daily drugs at all or even been thinking about it :D

My winter break starts on christmas eve and goes until the monday after new years. And this is considered lucky; most jobs get christmas day, boxing day and new years day. I used to get 3 weeks when I was in school.

Don't ever get a job guys; stay in school as long as you can. ;)
 
The day after I fly to Texas it dumps in the mountains of NC. It is 60 degrees here... I WANT SNOW! We only really saw snow once this year and when I leave for break it just dumps
 
You know, I've never really appreciated snow the way I should. Some people have never even seen the shit in real life. It usually just pisses me off by making my day to day tasks more complicated.
 
Snow is just so beautiful. Nature in general is just so beautiful and really the only thing that keeps me continuing to live. I find modern humans to be despicable and seeing nature at work restores my faith in taking everyday at a time.
 
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