hi guys, I wanted to update you on my situation. I've switched from pods to seeds, seeing as pods are selling at rip-off prices right now on my backup site and my favored site is out of stock (but I'll be watching closely for when they do come back into stock.) In the meantime, before my seeds arrived, I was using Imodium (loperamide) to manage my WD and it even worked a tiny bit for my pain. I was using 5 pills (10 mg) a day and now I'm tapering that down and trying the seeds, which so far have been disappointing in terms of pain relief. They're no where near as strong as pods, not even the ones I got which were stated SPECIFICALLY to be unwashed. They do help a little, but I'm going to combine the weak tea I get from them with Kratom for the time being (I have TONS of Kratom, it's always been a tool in my plan to eventually get clean.) I'm making Kratom pills right now (and BTW I read on another thread somewhere that capsules contain dangerous hormones and are carcinogens...not true for these capsules. They're all vegetarian caps and all natural.)
I'm seeing a new GP tomorrow, I am hoping he will prescribe me Neurontin. (Actually, I'm hoping for Lyrica, but on a first visit I'm not going to ask for a controlled substance. Neurontin is just as good as long as he prescribes what I was taking before, which is 600 mg 3 times a day.) I've found that opiates don't seem to work on my joint/muscle pain, which is another indication that I may have fibromalyia, which I won't have confirmed until I see the rheumatologist on Monday. Probably not even confirmed then, because I've read that a diagnosis of fibro is only given after a process of elimination (when they test you for a host of other things, and none of them are what you have.) But the pressure point test administered by my NS seemed to be indicative of it, and I'm sure the doctor I'm seeing Monday will repeat the test (not looking forward to it, it's painful beyond belief. I almost passed out when my NS did it the first time.) I just wanted to ask you guys, does Neurontin sound like a good choice for me? I know it's for nerve pain but I read that it can be very effective with fibro. I have a very difficult weekend coming up (we're taking the kids to a Renaissance Faire in NJ and there will be a lot of walking and not much sitting and I'm not sure I can handle it but I have to try, my kids LOVED it last year and I'm NOT missing it, it's going to be fun, except I'll be in excruciating pain the whole way! Plus there's the hour drive to NJ which always wrecks havoc on my back. I'm going to bring my massage pillow, which has an adapter to plug into the car, and my TENS machine, which is light and portable, and use both to minimize the pain. And I hope my neurologist fills my prescription for Reglan so I have something for the nausea I always get...I get car sick SO EASILY!)
Anyway, I'm just hoping that he'll trust me enough to write me a script the first visit. Of course, I'm going to come clean with him about everything...if you can't trust your doctor, then...I'll tell him about the back problem, the addiction, the poppy, the etizolam, the bipolar and anxiety disorder, and the pain that might possibly be fibro. I looked up this guy on the internet before I switched to him and he got a 4 star rating on a healthgrades site, and one comment left by a person said that he took his wife to three different GPs and paid out of pocket because they didn't have insurance and they couldn't help his wife, he brought her to this doctor and he not only didn't make them pay but he adjusted her medicine and found out exactly what was wrong with her and she's a new woman now. So now they have insurance and they go see him because they know they can trust him to get it right. So maybe this will be the doctor who will find out WTF is wrong with me?! I'm hopeful. Only problem is I have to bring my son as I will be all alone in the house with him. So I have to go in the morning before his nap.
I'm crossing all my fingers and toes that this is the doctor that I've been looking for, the one who's going to actually help me! Wish me luck everybody!!!!!!!!!!!
