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I just fell. Happens a lot lately to the point where I realize I was in denial about maybe just being clumsy. So I’m sitting on my ass where my tailbone hit the ground trying to see if I’m dizzy - knocked over a chair and out runs the cat - The cat I love so much that loves me so much but he’s so freaked out by me and my behavior. He jumps out and attacks the shit out of me. I feel so sorry for him. I’m supposed to be his rock … breaks my ❤️ as does this song that never even gained any popularity until it gained a following later long after release or at least that is what I read. It really somehow speaks to me. Esp when I heard it right when I got the news… first came Day in the Life by the Beatles then came this one … then One Thing … sigh



 
lovemissile66 said:
That song sums up how I currently feel with 30 days cleano_O
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Nice work 😛.. brain fog etc clears up. May happen instantly after a min or take a while but there are things you can do to promote a rapid recovery. Do you work out? Even small amounts of exercise promote neural regulation and plasticity. Neural regulation gets you stabilized and much more comfortable and neural plasticity promotes your ability to change your thinking and behavior in order to get wherever you looking to go.

Your doing perfect!!! .. keep it simple and in the moment for a bit. The big thing is to give yourself the time to heal.

PAWS is weird.. it’s the stage where your system readjusts and eventually resets and is both common and subjective. Can be a weird ride for a bit, but you will stabilize and heal🌈

Have you smiled and given yourself a hug for the amazing work you have accomplished so far?


 
neversickanymore said:
Nice work 😛.. brain fog etc clears up. May happen instantly after a min or take a while but there are things you can do to promote a rapid recovery. Do you work out? Even small amounts of exercise promote neural regulation and plasticity. Neural regulation gets you stabilized and much more comfortable and neural plasticity promotes your ability to change your thinking and behavior in order to get wherever you looking to go.

Your doing perfect!!! .. keep it simple and in the moment for a bit. The big thing is to give yourself the time to heal.

PAWS is weird.. it’s the stage where your system readjusts and eventually resets and is both common and subjective. Can be a weird ride for a bit, but you will stabilize and heal🌈

Have you smiled and given yourself a hug for the amazing work you have accomplished so far?


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Ikr 30 days clean you're still feeling the heat every time one of those vents of hell opens up, in your mind, why would you want to go back
 
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Freaking LOVE LOVE Robert plant’s BIG LOG. More than Ship of fools. More than a lot of music bc this song ROCKS.

Man I Have memories from maybe being 17 or 18 flying down the freeway in Houston where there’s a whole lot of neon lights in one area… Alone looking in the rearview looking at the sites & hearing that song like on some neon spooky yet forlorn concrete jungle.

It took me forever to find it at the old sound warehouse because of its name ~ it has nothing to do with the song which would be a good song topic …songs that have absolutely no mention of their title and seemingly nothing to do with the song although that’s debatable with this one. Thanks for posting it.

Yes I am mid-moving this procrastinating bc I’m just standing here every time I post. Pshawww. … but even so I have no good sound set up with my iPhone. I can’t believe I already broke the damn glass. Man. Anyway THANK YOU as this song just seems to get better like I suppose a fine wine but i wouldn’t know since I’m not into wine. Whine maybe like Doug & Wendy whiner …. Some cheese with my whine …LYRICS!! I seriously cannot fathom that I nvr read these actual lyrics until recently. Oooohh makes me want to post my segue song to Big Log which begins with the word “PLEASE” (forthcoming)

BIG LOG

My love is in league with the freeway
It's passion will rise as the cities fly by
And the tail lights dissolve in the coming of night
And the questions and thousands take flight

My love is miles in awaiting
The eyes that just stare and the glance at the clock
In the secret that burns and the pain that won't stop
And it's fueled with the years

Leading me on (leading me on)
Leading me down the road
Driving me on (driving me on)
Driving me down the road

My love is exceeding and women
Red eyed and fevered with the hum of the miles
Distance and longing and my thoughts do collide
Should I rest for a while and decide

Your love is cradled in knowing
Eyes in the mirror still expecting their prey
Sensing too well when the journey is done
There is no turning back
No
There is no turning back

On the run

My love is in league
With the freeway
Oh with the freeway
And the coming of the night time
My love
My love
Is in league with the freeway
 
neversickanymore said:
Nice work 😛.. brain fog etc clears up. May happen instantly after a min or take a while but there are things you can do to promote a rapid recovery. Do you work out? Even small amounts of exercise promote neural regulation and plasticity. Neural regulation gets you stabilized and much more comfortable and neural plasticity promotes your ability to change your thinking and behavior in order to get wherever you looking to go.

Your doing perfect!!! .. keep it simple and in the moment for a bit. The big thing is to give yourself the time to heal.

PAWS is weird.. it’s the stage where your system readjusts and eventually resets and is both common and subjective. Can be a weird ride for a bit, but you will stabilize and heal🌈

Have you smiled and given yourself a hug for the amazing work you have accomplished so far?


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Well folks, today is day 31. And I am both amused and amazed, and dazed and confused!!! How the fuck did I pull this off???? Yes, I am and have always been active. I sold my car 11 years ago when I lived in a very pedestrian friendly hood. So, biking and walking just came naturally. Now I still bike and walk but a car is almost a necessity where I now live. And I am trying so hard to avoid owning one.
I do tire when I walk longer distances. But I've also had 3 foot surgeries this past year and a half. Just getting able to walk without pain now. Its fucking freezing in the Northeast right now, but that air
feels so good to me. Big slap in the face!
When my dealer called me a couple days ago and then again yesterday...it set off a chain of events. Physically, I felt just like I would 'waitin for the man', the exhilaration and also churning of my stomach.
Slight fiending. And of course, the tape starts playing in my head. Dumb shit, like: 'Maybe I COULD just use once on the weekends'?! It always ends the same. Badly. Or at the very least, it sets me back
growth wise. I have definitely suffered from delayed adolescence!!! I am so late to the game getting my shit back together. And now I can see a future. Good things have already started happening.

And DAMN if my skin is not glowing now!! No more dope face. I look and feel good. But I miss it. Got so much shit going on in this hell of a house I'm living in at the moment. But I am handling it clean and so, yeah, I am patting myself albeit tentatively, on the back. I know how quickly this could all go sideways. But I made 31!! Friggin miracle.

Thank you for the kindness. I love this place:love:
 
lovemissile66 said:
Well folks, today is day 31. And I am both amused and amazed, and dazed and confused!!! How the fuck did I pull this off???? Yes, I am and have always been active. I sold my car 11 years ago when I lived in a very pedestrian friendly hood. So, biking and walking just came naturally. Now I still bike and walk but a car is almost a necessity where I now live. And I am trying so hard to avoid owning one.
I do tire when I walk longer distances. But I've also had 3 foot surgeries this past year and a half. Just getting able to walk without pain now. Its fucking freezing in the Northeast right now, but that air
feels so good to me. Big slap in the face!
When my dealer called me a couple days ago and then again yesterday...it set off a chain of events. Physically, I felt just like I would 'waitin for the man', the exhilaration and also churning of my stomach.
Slight fiending. And of course, the tape starts playing in my head. Dumb shit, like: 'Maybe I COULD just use once on the weekends'?! It always ends the same. Badly. Or at the very least, it sets me back
growth wise. I have definitely suffered from delayed adolescence!!! I am so late to the game getting my shit back together. And now I can see a future. Good things have already started happening.

And DAMN if my skin is not glowing now!! No more dope face. I look and feel good. But I miss it. Got so much shit going on in this hell of a house I'm living in at the moment. But I am handling it clean and so, yeah, I am patting myself albeit tentatively, on the back. I know how quickly this could all go sideways. But I made 31!! Friggin miracle.

Thank you for the kindness. I love this place:love:
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Awesome
 
darvocet21 said:
Ikr 30 days clean you're still feeling the heat every time one of those vents of hell opens up, in your mind, why would you want to go back
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Going back is part of the insanity of the disease. Thinking somehow THIS TIME THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT. Just because I have, now 32 days, does not by any means, mean I am in the clear. I know this from my past record. I'm impressed by the fact that I made it thus far, but until I get in to see a shrink and start working on solid coping skills...well, that relapse is waiting for me.

Right now I am enjoying the 5 hours of sleep I string together and the $$ I am saving. I enjoyed honest to goodness laughter for the first time in forever. The kind that makes your gut ache! I am trying to
catalog these moments so that when I feel weak, maybe I will recall how goddamn good it feels not to be dependent on junk to get through the day. That I am stronger than I know.

Thank you for all the support here. It's the one place I feel free to let it all out.
 
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