I'm also very much convinced of the 'ceiling-effect' of kratom; if I miss the sweet spot, there is not much point in redosing, it will just generate side effects (sweating, nausea, diminished balance; last two seem to go away when laying down). I attribute the difference in effect, which for me is a variation in potency and not really a change in the way it makes me feel, to the ability of my body to metabolize it. So if I would eat half a pig right before taking kratom, I wouldn't expect much of an effect or only very delayed and mild. Since I only take it 'recreationally' in the evening, I'm quite motivated to take care of this, making sure my stomach is relatively empty, that I stay hydrated etc. Or stimulate my digestion after dosing by snaking on tiny amounts of chocolate or nuts etc.
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Yesterday was one of those days where the bioavailability was probably perfect. One initial dose of 10g straight of high quality green powderd leafs, ROA: toss & wash with plain water. Most of the time I know right away when it's going to be great, cause the effect occurs very quickly (starting within 15 minutes), but this time it took 45min to an hour. When it came on it was like a train at full speed was picking me up; not in a violent way but with the same power and momentum. It's crazy how potentially strong this stuff can effect me! Not sure why this is. I basically froze right where I was at my desk, forced to close my eyes I went into a heavenly meditation of one and a half hours straight. It felt like riding an enormous wave of warmth, euphoria and bliss. At times I thought my chest would burst open and this delicious feeling would bubble out of me (in have no clue in what form) and flood absolutely everthing. It was abundant. This emerging joy and harmony was so palpable, it became a synesthetic emotional-physical expression, almost mildly psychedelic. The idea of doing anything else than being immersed in this peaceful ocean of stillness was just ridiculous. I know this stuff for quite some time now, but on occasion, it still gives me an absolute

experience. The afterglow that followed that extended peak was rich an longlasting, 6 - 7 hours. (Note: I have no history with strong opiates/opioids, but i wonder what what would feel like for me; yet i don't plan on finding out.)
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Only drawback this time is that the right half of my butt is cramped up today, cause apparently I wasn't sitting comfortable when I went into this 'freeze-mode', but didn't give a shit to move anyway. Should have layed down! But it was absolutely worth it! So if anyone wants to experience kratom to the fullest extend, I really recommend doing some basic preparation. Not that it's guaranteed, but I think the likelihood of a strong experience is the greatest this way, and not dependent on ever higher doses.
Sad thing is, whenever I have stuff like that happen to me (same with extraordinary cannabis trips), I think to myself: THAT is what the government wants to take away from us, it's not and never was about drugs, it's about experience and states of consciousness. Yes, kratom is moderatly addictive, cannabis also, but the proportion of the effects these compounds can have is exceptional in my opinion. It's far from impossible to learn how to utilize these plants, and doing no to little harm (same with psychedelics). But that would make us perhaps more content, inquisitive about or minds and our place in the world and less frantic, dependent, egoic producers/consumers. Anyway..
Thanks for reading (if one does). ☮