In my experience, Hawaiian Baby Woodrose has been the most forgiving/gentle, when I did it right. Low dose- but very useful. I didn't really want to say it but I kept thinking that it was now my favorite psychedelic... at this point in my life. It wasn't very visual, but what I do remember was flowery, smooth, gentle, purple/violet, blue, red, when I closed my eyes. The flowers were representative, were women's vaginas. I was seeing reference of this form and that, connection. The stems/roots must be the heads and thoughts, the social connections. I felt love for the world, because the world- it was all my heart, within my heart.
I masturbated for the first time since my surgery (hernioplasty), and was very, very hard, and big. I had also, I forgot to mention, taken some blue lotus and lily, smoked and I think I ate some, as well... although, I forget. This apparently can increase sexual drive, if I remember. The orgasm was one of the most powerful that I've ever felt. I had to make sure I didn't hurt myself. I was gentle, but man- oh man. But the actual action was very enjoyable, too.
I had a renewed respect for the beauty of the female sex after that, which lasted for at least the next day... not that I don't naturally, have respect, but it's more of a knowing than a feeling, for many (save a some/few), transcending some of the stuff that might built up without that experience, or like experiences, or meditation, or spiritual practice... It- the feeling, was for all of them. Old and young, and like one might appreciate flowers of all types.
But right, flowers have male and female parts, true. Hmm. Anyways. Not that that was with disrespect, but it was overwhelmingly, "female"... what I felt. Or they were closest to represent.
That was experience 2, in memory. I had had another (or more, I forget) years earlier about the same level, that also felt awesome and provided me with easy to see insight, and increased imaginative ability, and feelings of love, Etc. I felt it was meditative.
The next experiment/experience wasn't quite as good. I was already in a lot of pain from a gallbladder attack- my first one ever. I didn't realize what was happening, but felt like hell. I thought that the pain relief that it brought the first time, a month before, using it after a surgery, might counter what pain I had. I did an extraction over a course of 24 hours-- the wrong way to do it, as it frees up all the remaining poisons as well. I basically felt a very strong psychedelic hit, it being 9 seeds, where I heard a female say and mean "I love you", in a way I hadn't felt in a long time, but this was at the 2 hour mark, or so, and the rest of the night I was in hell/feeling poisoned- my pain amplified, my liver feeling inflamed... and I in bed trying to sleep it off... feverish. When/if I do it again (when I am with less pain.), I will eat them, like I did before.
I masturbated for the first time since my surgery (hernioplasty), and was very, very hard, and big. I had also, I forgot to mention, taken some blue lotus and lily, smoked and I think I ate some, as well... although, I forget. This apparently can increase sexual drive, if I remember. The orgasm was one of the most powerful that I've ever felt. I had to make sure I didn't hurt myself. I was gentle, but man- oh man. But the actual action was very enjoyable, too.
I had a renewed respect for the beauty of the female sex after that, which lasted for at least the next day... not that I don't naturally, have respect, but it's more of a knowing than a feeling, for many (save a some/few), transcending some of the stuff that might built up without that experience, or like experiences, or meditation, or spiritual practice... It- the feeling, was for all of them. Old and young, and like one might appreciate flowers of all types.
But right, flowers have male and female parts, true. Hmm. Anyways. Not that that was with disrespect, but it was overwhelmingly, "female"... what I felt. Or they were closest to represent.
That was experience 2, in memory. I had had another (or more, I forget) years earlier about the same level, that also felt awesome and provided me with easy to see insight, and increased imaginative ability, and feelings of love, Etc. I felt it was meditative.
The next experiment/experience wasn't quite as good. I was already in a lot of pain from a gallbladder attack- my first one ever. I didn't realize what was happening, but felt like hell. I thought that the pain relief that it brought the first time, a month before, using it after a surgery, might counter what pain I had. I did an extraction over a course of 24 hours-- the wrong way to do it, as it frees up all the remaining poisons as well. I basically felt a very strong psychedelic hit, it being 9 seeds, where I heard a female say and mean "I love you", in a way I hadn't felt in a long time, but this was at the 2 hour mark, or so, and the rest of the night I was in hell/feeling poisoned- my pain amplified, my liver feeling inflamed... and I in bed trying to sleep it off... feverish. When/if I do it again (when I am with less pain.), I will eat them, like I did before.
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