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The May Getting / Staying Sober Thread vs. April showers bring May flowers

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^ Yes share with us your feelings on this so we can try and help you through them <3
 
To tell the truth for now I feel pretty confident I can get through it, but I know I am able to talk myself into some trouble
before I know it.
I'm so emotional, just sitting and crying for most of the day so far. Im grateful that I was able to get a few hours sleep last night.

It seems like its taking so long for the real acute stuff to start., like it always does. I convince myself I'm sick so much faster when
I'm actively using. Trying to stay positive for now dreading the next few days I have to spend on the bathroom floor.
I'm going to go for a walk while I still can. Wish me luck. :)
 
Got all into tomorrow:( and out of today all day today.. hit my home group and worked it out and now planted back in today:).. feeling much better, cant get caught up or dragged into things that aren't part of my plan.. I have to realize when i'm thinking of doing the wrong thing for the right reasons... hope everyone is doing good<3.. hope you get a partial hall pass this time cletus, just realize your thinking nuts and thats ok, just don't trust your thoughts they are just there to manipulate you to use, don't get played;)
 
I hate finals week....
sponsor fronted me on a homegroup T-shirt today in my size so I'm grateful. studying with the cute chick again tomorrow night yay. we sat after class today and about for like 2.5 hours just killing time. now just reading this book for anthropology about people in Papua new Guinea... sad to report its boring other than the page that said "fuck your mom" and "fuck your sister" like three times. caught me off guard and made me chuckle as I wasn't expecting to see the language I use in an anthropology case study book lol.
 
When is BL gonna put a "like" button? I'd be liking the hell out of the posts in this thread. Keep it up everyone and I love you all. First time I've actually got on BL on a computer so I'm enjoying the ease of typing vs. pecking on a touch screen keyboard.

I'm doing alright today. Cute girl who I was trying to get her number (but repeatedly chickened out) added me on Facebook today after I chatted with her for like 45 minutes after we took our finals today. I gave her my number but she said her boyfriend is protective so that kind of saddened me. She said she will try to "accidentally" end up in my neighborhood sometime to say hi since her friend lives next door to me. I miss her beautiful smile already. I'm finishing up an anthropology book review/book report right now and it blows. Just copy/pasta'd 71 anthro word definitions which was our final so this last thing is the last of my homework this semester, YAY! Lately these past few days I've been in a great mood. Made a few new friends and got closer to a couple of em after talking about some really deep things tonight. I'm full and brimming with love tonight. =) <3
 
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Me too. There are forms of sobriety. If your definition of it is absolutely zero chemicals/drugs in your system at all, then you're not sober. But that's not my definition. I think maint drugs like bupe and methadone that prevent you from abusing your DOC and doing all the fucked up shit involved with drug use, is a very formidable form of sobriety.
 
60 Days today :) Mom cried of joy when I told her...felt nice.

It's weird I think more about smoking weed than I do shooting coke/heroin (which is literally like never) but it would get me kicked out of my sober house so there isn't a chance of that. Stay strong everyone, have a good day.
 
Congrats on your 60 days! this is for you.

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Mass08 said:
60 Days today :) Mom cried of joy when I told her...felt nice.

It's weird I think more about smoking weed than I do shooting coke/heroin (which is literally like never) but it would get me kicked out of my sober house so there isn't a chance of that. Stay strong everyone, have a good day.
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Congratulations!! I just reached 60 days clean also on May 3!
 
Congrats everyone! We are a third of the way through May already! I love being sober late in the evening, when it is still light and warm outside. Such a good feeling to go share an ice cream with your crush or your dog, and not because of the opiate sweet tooth. Can't wait for corn on the cob season!
 
Congratulations on 60 days! I am going to begin my detox on Sunday. Trying again. This time I am down to 2 bags a day, so hoping the subs will work this time. I just gotta be stronger this time.
 
ahhh.. quitting smoking.. ahh it not as bad as I always think it will be.. made it five months when i was still on the other drugs, but nicotine is one i have no controll over, on cigarette leads to full blown habit in the matter of hours.. but i slept last night.. things went well for the mothers in my life<3.. im doing ok.. hope you are well.. congrats on the sixty days thats amazing=D
 
Congrats man! that's awesome

mother's day always sucks for me. I have a mother but I don't at the same time. the only son she loves is good old Vodka, and she spent the whole weekend with him. it is what it is though, spent the day with my dad which is always good. he wants to go to the zoo next weekend (St Louis has an awesome zoo and its FREE!) so I look forward to that.
 
Day 4 clean now back on the sub 1mg day after a brief relapse, feelin good gonna try and sleep now so I can wake up early enough to enjoy a little freetime before work at 5pm .. I work everyday besides friday so i gotta get in where i can fit in..ha im such a loser
 
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