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The May Getting / Staying Sober Thread vs. April showers bring May flowers

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Re-distributed said:
Fuck :!

I got halfway through it before I realized :(
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but if you didn't finish it.. then this is huge progress.. one thing that is so taboo in recovery is relapse.. I have had way to many friends die because when they "relapsed" they went BIG.. no sorry thats what got us all in trouble in the first place as well as killed so many beautiful people.. relapse doesn't mean balls to the wall use and not using balls to the wall never means your cured.. thanks for letting us in re-dist.. be careful brother as your compulsion may jump.
 
Re-distributed said:
Fuck :!

I get home from my interviews and without realizing what I was doing I proceeded to pour myself a drink and down it. I got halfway through it before I realized :(
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Even though I haven't had a drink in over a year and a half and have really lost the desire to drink, if I'm in the market and I see a new beer out by a brewery I used to like, I sometimes go to grab it before it hits me that I don't drink anymore, the reflex is that strong. But it really only lasts for a split second now and then it's no big deal. Early on though I would sometimes forget I wouldn't be having a drink after work. Old habits die hard, but you'll get used to it not being a part of your life after awhile.
 
How's everyone doing? Hope this weekend is a good one <3 <3 <3


I'm having really intense cravings and struggling right now, but I have 61 days clean so I can't fuck this up..
 
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Sorry you are craving.. don't ever let a craving linger.. try a develope a thought process that eliminates them for opiates a good one for me is reminding my self that occasional opiat use doesn't even feel that good, makes me to sick, and then i remind myself that I used to have to struggle every day to try and maintain my self feeling not even as close to as good as how I feel every day now.. then I think of the horrors of withdrawal.. hope any of this helps.. thoughts can knock cravings dead.. figure out what works for you.. <3


I'm feeling pretty damn good tonight.. though I have been thinking allot about using stimulants as I get up for work so damn early.. but i have to just look at it honestly.. if I get more sleep, that is the rite amount I wont need any stimulants 8o
 
Thanks NSA <3 You're the best.

Have you considered using some vitamins/natural supplements for energy levels? That + proper sleep time will certainly help & hopefully reduce the cravings because you'd be giving your body the energy it's desiring, but in a healthy way. :)
 
I feel pretty crappy today, but I realize it's got a lot to do with hormones. 99% of the time getting my period is no big deal to me, but I wish you could get a hall pass during withdrawal. Sorry if that's tmi for some folks, I'm not really squeamish about that kind of thing.

I feel like a bug someone stepped on. Gonna go for a long bike ride.
 
^Oh my god, tell me about it. PMS + withdrawal made me feel suicidal. Hang in there! <3. At least you know why you're feeling extra crappy, that can make it easier to handle in my experience. Hope your bike ride helps. Maybe have a warm bath or something later.
 
I always sleep with the window open, since I don't have air-conditioning. Anyway, I live right next to a high school and it was hosting some 24 hour charity walk overnight. Was very loud all night (I don't care, it has good intentions...it was just LOUD!), so my dreams were very influenced by that, so very strange.

51 days no heroin today. Did not realise I hit 50 yesterday (good when you stop counting days, right?). My weed guy has gone MIA, and to be honest I have no clue how to find weed at this age, so it looks like that will be stopping. Managed to pull off one more month of free rent, so I have a few more weeks to find real work before it could get bad.
 
^^i guess it was meant to end :P as they say in the rooms "sometimes HP does for us what we can't do for ourselves".

I'm doing alright. I miss my girl after having a trip to an NA function with her. we stayed in a nice hotel and had a fantastic dinner. I love her very much and I know she loves me :D
 
Nah. my most recent ex (I don't like that term for her) and I still have feelings for eachother but are waiting to further our recovery before taking on the full relationship weight.
 
Serotonin101 said:
Nah. my most recent ex (I don't like that term for her) and I still have feelings for eachother but are waiting to further our recovery before taking on the full relationship weight.
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and i believe I herd many happy sighs and a long round of enthusiastic applause buy all the single women with their eyes on serotonin:)


Yeah i was lying to myself when I was saying i "needed" stimulants.. got good sleep last night and felt great this morning.. wow how i can create so many ways for me to "need" drugs.. hope you all are well<3
 
neversickanymore said:
and i believe I herd many happy sighs and a long round of enthusiastic applause buy all the single women with their eyes on serotonin:)
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now now too early for applause lol. this cute chick in my logic class approached me and asked for my number so we could study together. I texted her (non flirting mind you) and told her other subjects I'm skilled in and she chose this opportunity to call me a "sweet heart" and says "we'll have plenty of time to study together :)"
that's some SLR material but ehhh oh well. I still love the girl I mentioned. who knows, I may be reading into this other girl too much from our limited encounter.

edit: thread title should be "April showers bring May flowers: May sobriety in bloom" or something along those lines. idk just kinda came to me.
 
Serotonin101 said:
thread title should be "April showers bring May flowers: May sobriety in bloom" or something along those lines. idk just kinda came to me.
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Done ;)

Even though I had a setback with alcohol on the weekend, I've not taken drugs other than cannabis in almost a month now. :) The difference in my mood is very noticeable and the exercising has helped with the sleeping issues. Now all I need to do is change my sleeping pattern so I'm not going to bed at dawn every day.
 
^ I'm in the same boat. I go to bed between 2-4am And get up around noon everyday lol. I'm working on trying to adjust it a bit. its a bitch lol.
 
new to this place
I'm on day 2 off of dope for the thousandth time
The really bad part hasn't really started yet and I'm nervous as hell I'm just really achy and emotional so far but
the toes are starting to curl if you know what I mean

I just need to vocalize some of this stuff. I put some precautions in place to keep me from changing my mind
but we all know, where there's a will, there's a way. Doing this alone in my home with noone around isn't the
best idea but I felt that I didn't have a choice. Maybe if I tell you all it will strengthen my resolve?
I guess we'll see huh
 
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