So I've read through the whole thread and keep asking myself, have opiates lost their magic?
I certainly remember the numerous times I've been sick, that awful, awful feeling where you can barely pull yourself off the bed/couch to go to the bathroom cause you are so sick. The magic is certainly lost on me there.
Then there's the times when I'm so fucking broke that I'm eating ramen for a week straight and don't even have gas money to go meet up with my friends to hang out. The magic is certainly lost on me there.
Sometimes I'll do Oxy/Heroin a couple days in a row, but not enough to get me very sick when I quit doing it. However, then the depression and anxiety kicks in. It seems when I've done enough Oxy/H enough days in a row to get sick, the sickness seems to cover up a lot of the anxiety/depression. The magic is lost on me here as well.
However, when I think about when I go and score some dope, especially when I haven't done it in a couple of days.....Damn I love it. The magic is still there.
In fact, that's all I can wait for, tomorrow, when I'll have some money to go score.