Right. Kpin did not much, im not going raise it so 32 hrs after last 75mg i re-dosed another 75mg. Feeling better but not best (could potentiated kpin too). Mirtazapine for sleep and hopefully i can do another 24+hrs without re-dosing. Im having a busy day tomorrow hopefully i don't have to find short way... my lady & kids already noticed my behaviour changed, low mood etc she doesnt know anything about my self-medication (had benzo initially pre-screbied for anxiety and taken ,,when needed" but it was miracle and never been above 1mg kpin and 10 valium, e.g. many weeks only on 10 valium).
Trying get off benzos created another problem. Oh dear, 39 y/o never took any drugs, sport, football, gym, active, never abused alco and last summer something went wrong with me - anxiety, depression insomnia or whatever. Quick private consultant, prescription for 20x 0.5 Kpin to be taken only when needed. Miracle. All problems gone. 1mg a day, sometimes just half. Tappered down to 5 mg valium once. It was hard with every cut so i thought - so many people did it without suffering this much.
Only to try of how i will react to the stuff, never thought it has so addictive potential, i quit benzos after a month for 2 weeks without any wd's but this evil hit me hard i think.
Sorry for a long story, feel like im fighting with life stressors on my own, added now some addictions i never had, no-one to speak to who would understand without labelling you ,,,smackehead".
I hope i can run few more days with 24hrs or more breaks on 75mg. I really do. Got go work Sunday night, not easy job need to be switched-on (no driving job). Read some positive stories that body may adjust within a week to a new dose even with a huge cut (14 days 300- 2 days 150- 2 days75) after a few days.
Just dont want it any longer and will stop even my worse enemy from trying it.
Thx for patience, need stay strong and keep rest of my family happy but its so frikkin hard