Okay haha, sorry about that. That line of wonkle properly conked me out. If i were you i would buy some hash or more specifically afghan black if you can find it. I used to smoke loads of bud from 13-16, but then it started making me feel anxious and paranoid. Have tried numerous times since then to get back into it, but each time has left me in a paranoid mess. That was until... I found some luuuurbly hash on the dark net. There were so many different varieties and choices, so i searched on google which one was the best to go with if strong buds make ya para & whala! wala? However the fuck you spell it, i found that afghan black hash had a very high CBD to THC ratio. Bought myself 5gs for about £30 and its lasted me absolutely fackin' ages. No para-inducing, just extreme couch lock. I still cant properly function on it (not to say that i just lay in bed pissing and shitting myself) but it doesn't produce any anxiety whatsoever
As for ketamine as clubbing - its a joy! One of the good things about having a monster tolerance to it, is that i dont have to worry about accidentally doing too much and k-holing. But for a beginner one tiny bump and it goes so perfectly with this music and just makes you want to dance in a crazy fashion, making your body feel like liquid. By liquid, i dont mean that you will just drop to the floor. Think more of a very think gravy. Yeah, ket makes your body feel like thick gravy, but with less stodginess