Ugh! Fkn TYPICAL. I go to my recovery group n as usual FKN DRAMA! I can't be doing with this drama n conflict stuff. First one of the arranges a modelling shoot so they can have a calender. I cant go because it's after school n I have my kid. I suppose I'm not that bothered as I'm ugly n would ruin the calender but the point of im part of the group n get left out because I've a child. WELL IM SO SORRY I DIDNT LOSE MY CHILD WHEREAS THEY DID but that's no excuse to arrange shit n not tell me. Well that's typical behaviour I expect from people.
Next im sitting there privately resenting this woman because she's NOT an addict but is going to be on this calender when they start talking about a weekend retreat (which i knew f all about so secretly sitting there feeling frustrated n annoyed. The nom-addict says shes looking fwd to it n paid etc another mouthy cow says "oh you're not going now by the wat, someone has come out jail n needs to go more" (now i start feeling guilty for resenting her because she burst into tears, says how she's paid was looking fwd to it, n runs from the room. I felt it was a bit mean to just tell her shes not going 2 days before, as shes got a mental illness - and its heartbreaking when you're lonely looking fwd to a weekend away n it gets taken away.
Next thing the organiser comes in n tells the mouthy cow HE makes the decisions n that she had no right to say what she did.
If it werent for a walk i. durham in September I'd serious ditch them for their competition(my original recovery group) as this constant drama n bitchiness isn't why I started going there. If i want drama i go on the net n there's plenty to feed the 5,000 x 1000 never mind in real life.
If me iPad air arrives in time im going to the other group where I'll have a damn good vent!!!!!! Fuck being excluded just because Zi've still got me kids n they're all off to court fighting for theirs.
Arrrrrggggggggg
Edit: I'm getting good at this cutting contact / pushing ppl away latk now that I'm quite proud of myself for it
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