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Flynnal said:
If they do this shit again, I will block them and only unblock them the week or so before I die. Then we will chat and it will be a quick burst, about 10 or 15 minutes.
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I'm really sorry things have been so rough for you lately with your parents. They sound toxic as hell, especially your father. But please try to not make ultimatums like this with yourself. Leave everything open. Leave all your plans open. The only thing that is certain in life is that NOTHING is certain. Nothing is constant.
 
Shit I just saved my friends life. Shes young and very impulsive so she took like 6 ksalols and handful of whatever pills for whatever reasons. My 2 friends and 1 guy in his 40s was there to check so she dont die. But she kept getting worse over the 30 minutes so I called them to call an ambulance so she can be taken to stomach lavage and they immediately did. Hope shes alright, should be at hospital now.
 
schizopath said:
Shit I just saved my friends life. Shes young and very impulsive so she took like 6 ksalols and handful of whatever pills for whatever reasons. My 2 friends and 1 guy in his 40s was there to check so she dont die. But she kept getting worse over the 30 minutes so I called them to call an ambulance so she can be taken to stomach lavage and they immediately did. Hope shes alright, should be at hospital now.
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Good on you man, you guys did the right thing staying with her and then getting the ambulance when you did. I am sure she will be okay.

Are YOU okay? That is pretty traumatic.
 
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Good on you man, you guys did the right thing staying with her and then getting the ambulance when you did. I am sure she will be okay.

Are YOU okay? That is pretty traumatic.
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Shes back from the hospital. Im pretty angry with myself. I wasnt there but as shes my friend my good friend texted and called me and I told them to call an ambulance. Ive seen a few heroin "overdoses" so I didnt panic but I was scared for her. I dont know how and why my friends didnt call an ambulance sooner. The paramedics told that she would have died.
 
schizopath said:
Cause I got her those ksalols with my friend. It was just 6 but she had already cut herself. After getting her those we talked with my friend that we are gonna call her soon and so on. Thats how my friend got there.
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Ahh yes I understand the guilt and anger at yourself. But you didn't force her to take them. So please don't blame yourself for what happened. Plus, try to focus on what's NOW happening, i.e. she is alive and she's going to get help and be okay. She's lucky to have friends that care about her enough to get her the help she needed right away in order to survive. Be gentle and kind with yourself <3
 
Kinda fd up again …. the f up could be much worse. The old me wouldn't even have considered it a fuck up. There’s like two me’s, one who’s sad & stressed I messed up & know it’s going to be a rough week. The other me that knows I could have & have fd up waaay more/worse in the past so I should go in that direction (all the way) since I fd up anyways. The two me’s are at war
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
Kinda fd up again …. the f up could be much worse. The old me wouldn't even have considered it a fuck up. There’s like two me’s, one who’s sad & stressed I messed up & know it’s going to be a rough week. The other me that knows I could have & have fd up waaay more/worse in the past so I should go in that direction (all the way) since I fd up anyways. The two me’s are at war
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It sounds like you know that you need to be gentle with yourself and practice some self-forgiveness and self-kindness, and it sounds like this is what you truly want to do, even though that other part of you wants to give in and fuck up even further.
So, you know what you need to do <3
 
In a twist of comic existentialism I got sent to hospital 2 days before starting Mat on double withdrawals too. Tooth had broken and I ll be damned if my face didnt look like native Merican...

Rip teeth and rip face. I ll bet my todays drugs on that surgeon being a sadist.
 
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Second day without H after a run that ended up lasting about 1.5 months. I've taken about 28g of kratom today so far, not feeling great but not terrible either. I did a super quick taper over the course of 2 days and I think it helped a bit.
Yesterday I barely got out of bed but today I managed to go to work, eating has been hard though.
I thought I'd had some buprenorphine today but of course it didn't come, maybe tomorrow 🤞
 
4meSM said:
Second day without H after a run that ended up lasting about 1.5 months. I've taken about 28g of kratom today so far, not feeling great but not terrible either. I did a super quick taper over the course of 2 days and I think it helped a bit.
Yesterday I barely got out of bed but today I managed to go to work, eating has been hard though.
I thought I'd had some buprenorphine today but of course it didn't come, maybe tomorrow 🤞
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Feeling much better now, just got some slight insomnia which woke me up in the middle of the night to redose some kratom. But today I got some good quality green malay, took 4g 1h ago and I actually feel good at the moment, it's way better than the kratom I had been using earlier. No subs yet but whatever.

I've been taking about 1.5-2g of magnesium chloride everyday and it helps a lot with the anxiety and restlessness.
 
Noticed this thread hasn't been bumped in a while so just wanted to pop in and share my good news. After almost ten years, I am no longer physically dependent on opioids! Kratom, bupe, or otherwise.

It's been a long road but after a few days of feeling kinda bleh, I got through it. That's just the physical side of it though, I still have a ton to process and work through mentally. I still have my cravings, but mostly for alcohol. I feel like, well, even if I dosed bupe or something I wouldn't immediately go back into the withdrawal state.

It's been at least a week since I've dosed any opioid.
 
deficiT said:
Noticed this thread hasn't been bumped in a while so just wanted to pop in and share my good news. After almost ten years, I am no longer physically dependent on opioids! Kratom, bupe, or otherwise.

It's been a long road but after a few days of feeling kinda bleh, I got through it. That's just the physical side of it though, I still have a ton to process and work through mentally. I still have my cravings, but mostly for alcohol. I feel like, well, even if I dosed bupe or something I wouldn't immediately go back into the withdrawal state.

It's been at least a week since I've dosed any opioid.
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Glad to hear
 
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