worked all night 10pm to 6am and am going to get my Candy at 9am, and i am not goin to lie i am extremely stoaked. i am so messed up like i did 9 months sober and was so set in my recovery then i relapsed on heroin after 2 years of not using it, only opana rec from 09 to nov 2011. but i havent used in what seems like 2 weeks i can justify it all i want, yea if i wanna stay sober this is the wrong thing to do, but either way i am getting my nod on. anyone else experience going from something to nothing and then working back up to having alot (car, good job, debt paid off) only to play with the fire and possibly get burnt or worse chared and scarred and hooked up to a PCA Fentynl pump per every 2 hrs lol (just a messed up expression.)i am tired so please pardon my strange behavior