Ondine
Bluelighter
So I'm coming in here to make my first real negative post about MXE, which I have to admit, I never thought I'd end up doing.
I've been a fairly regular user for the past year and a half. I've probably gone through about 10-12 grams during that time. I obtained a new gram this past Tuesday. Now, it's time for finals in my part of the world, so I had a lot of schoolwork to focus on, so I had to tell myself that I wouldn't be taking it freely, that I needed to stay more sober to study. I ended up taking some on Thursday night and had an average experience: pretty much what I expect to come from taking MXE.
Now, I had a piano lesson on Friday and I hadn't made as much progress in the Bach Italian Concerto as my teacher had wanted, so I got a scolding, and I left reassuring myself that I would not take any drugs, especially MXE, until I had the first two movements totally memorized. Unfortunately I wasn't able to keep this promise to myself.
On Saturday, I spent the day and the night with two of my best friends. At around 9:00PM I left to go home and practice the piano. This was my only intention that I can remember. Unfortunately, the next thing that I actually remember was waking up in the hospital. I still have no clear recollection of what happened that night, but here's the gist of what I've been able to recall with the help of others. Sometime around 11:30 I did some amount of MXE. I have to assume that it was quite a bit. I apparently wandered out of my apartment, leaving my cellphone on my bed and my keys and wallet in the front seat of my car. I wandered across Main St, over to our student center. There, I apparently wandered around until I came to a 30ft drop, and then jumped off. I landed directly on my left foot. The force shot up my leg and fractured my pelvis, as well as shattering my ankle in 4 places. It was around 4:00AM when this happened to me. I wasn't found and brought to the hospital until around 8:00. One of my clearest memories of the night is lying on the ground, screaming for help, and hearing some drunk students returning from a party laughing at me.
Thankfully,my emergency hip surgery went extremely well. I've been in recovery for the past 5 days, and have been mostly bed ridden. I'll need ankle surgery in about 2 weeks. If all goes well, I should be able to walk again without pain or a limp in under 3 months.
After this experience, I can never take MXE again. I always knew that it had the potential to cause something like this to happen, but I was always sure that I had the control to keep myself safe when on it. I now know that I never really had that control. I know I would scoff at people who would come in here and share stories like this, telling others never to take MXE again. I thought that stories like these would never apply to me, because I had control. I really hope that some of you do have that control, but I have to believe that it can't be worth the risk. I don't wish that I had never taken MXE, I still enjoyed the times I had on it, but I have to ask all of you to please consider the risks. The pain that this drug has caused me is unimaginable. I don't want to see anyone else suffer like that.
Thanks for listening
Ondine
I've been a fairly regular user for the past year and a half. I've probably gone through about 10-12 grams during that time. I obtained a new gram this past Tuesday. Now, it's time for finals in my part of the world, so I had a lot of schoolwork to focus on, so I had to tell myself that I wouldn't be taking it freely, that I needed to stay more sober to study. I ended up taking some on Thursday night and had an average experience: pretty much what I expect to come from taking MXE.
Now, I had a piano lesson on Friday and I hadn't made as much progress in the Bach Italian Concerto as my teacher had wanted, so I got a scolding, and I left reassuring myself that I would not take any drugs, especially MXE, until I had the first two movements totally memorized. Unfortunately I wasn't able to keep this promise to myself.
On Saturday, I spent the day and the night with two of my best friends. At around 9:00PM I left to go home and practice the piano. This was my only intention that I can remember. Unfortunately, the next thing that I actually remember was waking up in the hospital. I still have no clear recollection of what happened that night, but here's the gist of what I've been able to recall with the help of others. Sometime around 11:30 I did some amount of MXE. I have to assume that it was quite a bit. I apparently wandered out of my apartment, leaving my cellphone on my bed and my keys and wallet in the front seat of my car. I wandered across Main St, over to our student center. There, I apparently wandered around until I came to a 30ft drop, and then jumped off. I landed directly on my left foot. The force shot up my leg and fractured my pelvis, as well as shattering my ankle in 4 places. It was around 4:00AM when this happened to me. I wasn't found and brought to the hospital until around 8:00. One of my clearest memories of the night is lying on the ground, screaming for help, and hearing some drunk students returning from a party laughing at me.
Thankfully,my emergency hip surgery went extremely well. I've been in recovery for the past 5 days, and have been mostly bed ridden. I'll need ankle surgery in about 2 weeks. If all goes well, I should be able to walk again without pain or a limp in under 3 months.
After this experience, I can never take MXE again. I always knew that it had the potential to cause something like this to happen, but I was always sure that I had the control to keep myself safe when on it. I now know that I never really had that control. I know I would scoff at people who would come in here and share stories like this, telling others never to take MXE again. I thought that stories like these would never apply to me, because I had control. I really hope that some of you do have that control, but I have to believe that it can't be worth the risk. I don't wish that I had never taken MXE, I still enjoyed the times I had on it, but I have to ask all of you to please consider the risks. The pain that this drug has caused me is unimaginable. I don't want to see anyone else suffer like that.
Thanks for listening
Ondine