That is the worst side effect of this drug for me. The addiction aspect.
I had to stop for a month or two there.
I won't let myself order more than 500mg at a time now.
Still plenty enough to fuck me up for a week straight and make me talk like the wonky man from Mars. Have to space it out... 100mg a week is about right.
If I start talking too weird just tell me to flush my shit again. lol
Trying to keep my yap shut.
Been pretty busy lately anyways not half the time to get high as usual.
That's a good thing. No time for addiction.
I stopped daily weed for a week... two weeks ago.. but started back up again.
Fuck that I love my daily greens.
^yea i ate 2 grams of very potent mushrooms one night and right after i peaked, around the 3 hour mark, and was getting hit with waves i did a small rail of mxe. it felt like my eyeballs were hanging out of my sockets on springs, bouncing around all over the place, thats how fucked my vision became.
Winners eat MXE and mushrooms.
I felt the slinky eyeballs thing too on 2 g's of bomb shroom and 100mg MXE.
Beautiful synergy. Evaded an ego death from the good vibe of the MXE.
I don't usually do combo's but was feeling gutsy that night I guess. It was great.
If I ever pissed myself on a drug, it was likely Datura.
Even then I probably wouldn't know it.
What does your doctor say about you doing weird drugs? Does he suggest that any medical conditions you have might be related?
I don't go into details really but I told them I've done odd drugs at parties that may not exactly be normal. They don't really know what symptoms to check for when you say that. lol!
If you can't be honest with your doctor you aren't being honest with yourself.
If the doctor got mad at me, I'd ask for a new doctor.
Of course they recommend you don't do drugs and get treatment if you are.
They were happy to hear I quit cigarettes a few years back.
Don't let the fact that you do drugs stop you from getting the proper treatment. If those drugs are telling you to get treatment, you probably should too. Drugs bring out your true feelings.
I was crying to my buddy one night on MXE about all my problems like a schoolgirl who just broke up with her boyfriend. lol. He wouldn't touch MXE now if you paid him.
I don't blame him. The stuff is very hard to understand.
then i must have holed many times. because i get the sensation of movement (body twisting, twirling, foling inside out, floating, upside down etc) almost everytime when i do mxe. but without the awesome awesome cevs in this dimension.
Indeed there seems to be a few different levels of holing.
The three most noticeable parts are the normal drunken upity stimulated feeling and then the world is warping maybe time to lay down in bed feeling. Then there is the aftergloooow.
I describe a hole as the point when the drunk come up feeling ends and the room starts distorting and vortexing and the odd body feelings begin. Your vision completely goes cross eyed and if you want to see straight you need to close one eye and focus hard with the other.
If you are laying in bed lights out when that feeling happens, to me I have a mental (not CEV or OEV) hallucination that I leave my body and float away in the soul form and ride out into space to visit the subconscious soul place and see aliens.
That's if I hit "bingo" hole level.
Light hole level starts when everything begins to shift as usual, but I don't get to go on a space ride.
I would say I am able to get the space ride hole level once out of every three trips.
I usually have to do some heavy dosing and lessen the intervals. It's always important to be sure you don't overdose though. I've done it myself and it's not pretty. You can have bad MXE trips and probably even die if you take too much. Will turn you off to MXE real fast.
I'm surprised I'm back..