^^^ let me know what the beginning and end of time look like please
Heh. Probably something like this:
:D
I've been too exhausted to report back on my excursion until now, but I came down around about yesterday mid-morning.
The experience with MXE + 4-ACO-MIPT was intense. I found that the initial dose of 26mg MXE + 18mg miprocetin (rectal) wasn't enough to get me where I wanted to be, so I redosed a couple of times. At 03:11 I took an oral booster dose of 26mg methoxetamine. Then at 03:33 I took a second oral dose of miprocetin, weighed at 14mg. An hour and a half later I was tripping heavily in a very messy way, but I still wasn't achieving what I had set out to. My intensions in going in to the trip were to try to experience a more lucid version of my first MXE trip - with a more tryptamine powered astral flight. I was also insipred by psood0nym's reports on his trials with ketamine + psilocin (see
Reflections in an Obsidian Fountain).
At this point I had to make a decision as to weather another final shot at redosing would be worth it, or weather I would be just chasing a dragon. I decided to give it a go, and weighed out another 35mg methoxetamine + 14mg 4-ACO-MiPT to administer rectally. I should point out that attempting to weigh these compounds whilst dissociated and tripping was extremely confusing, and took me about almost a half hour to get it right and put in to the syringe. It was a very weird thing to do.
The two substances didn't exactly synergize, but they worked along side each other in a very intriguing fashion. During the peak of this experience, some really funny things were happening. I had to go take a piss, and my whole reality was vibrating in synchrony with an entire pallete of sensations and emotions. I was literally pissing cartoons, colours, songs, it was coming out of me like the phenomenon itelf was an alive animal singing songs. All my guitar melodies were right there, flowing through my every being. As I pissed, it synchronized the universal waves of push and pull to my beats and melodies, and resonated with perfect clarity.
After administering the third round of dose I was blasted in to a state I find it very difficult to describe. It was very 'hole' like, but I could also see all the curves and dimensions to these strange spaces. The relationship between the visceral and cognitive elements of the dissociation were altered by the presence of the tryptamine. I spent what seemed like an indeterminate amount of time floating through a network of fine tubes, lit up by tryptamine colours, but I can't really articulate any of it good enough to provide a clear picture of what was experienced. It was as if the more I let my relaxed in to the buzzing, or universal resonance, I was lulled in to almost lucid dream state of shifting geometrical networks that represented facets of how my personality was constructed in conjunction with the reality I existed in; and that I could dissolve further in to these multidimentional spaces - losing the definition between subject and objects, and allow my 'self' to re-organize to a very subtle degree how I am experienceing the physical reality.
Any out side noises of sensory interruptions would bring me out of this state, and it would take a little while for me to float back in to it again. I believe that had I got the dose right to begin with, I would have been in a deep enough state to not have been affected by any environmental influences, and thus would probably have had a much more profound experience.
Once again, however, I have found methoxetamine to be extremely physically exhausting. I woke up with horrible colic yesterday, for which I used buscopan and a small dose of diazepam to help. Again, this is something that seemes related to dissociative use. For these reasons I can't see myself using it very often at all. Overall, this trip has reminded me that my most valuable insights and entheogenic jouneyings defnitely come from the tryptamines and phenethylamine psychedelics.
Happy explorations!
