Last night I was delighted and surprised to find myself experiencing MXE like I did a select few times with it when I first began its use. I have been using it three or four times a week for the past couple of weeks, as I’m a bit bored with the new location I’ve moved with my girlfriend to. The past few MXE experiences had been pretty standard fare, and I didn’t deviate much from my dosing pattern this time, so I have to attribute the experience to unknown psychological factors.
I plugged 30 mg, followed by 25 mg and then 25 mg more, with each dose separated by about an hour. JWH-018 was vaporized twice after each of the later doses. After the second dose I started to experience some signs of the unique mind state MXE had occasionally brought me to in the past, and which I thought I may have lost access to. It feels like a virtual world for infants prior to birth, full of a bright innocence and wonderment, with all its realms permeated by a static field of soft textures, and replete with comfort and joy. These feelings forced a series of neologisms out of my mouth to describe what I was feeling, which were strung together by absurd poetics whose phonetics not only served as bridges between the new words but seemed to shade the surfaces of this new world. I should have written them down, and will be sure to do so, should I experience the phenomena again.
The mind state evoked a song whose name I could not recall, but which I was surprised to find immediately by its track number on a CD where I had a vague notion I’d find it. During the song I felt my chest brim over with bliss, a deep assurance that where I am and the sequence of affairs I’m experiencing in my life now are what they should be by natural course.
This morning I awoke with a smile, and the reasons for it have stayed with me throughout the day.