Ok, someone please help me out here, thanks! I took another trip on MXE last night, safely. At 5pm I did a 25mg sublingual dose just to see what you all are so exited about. After the come up, about 1/2hr, I was feeling great. It was a very beautiful, pleasant feeling. Props to you all that just do small oral doses! No CEV’s but just felt great while watching TV. I had to steer clear of the TV show “COPS” because I didn’t need any flashbacks of police activity in my brain while under IM’s MXE doses. I would hate to get cought in an endless loop in my brain of a run in with the police, therefore making me ultra paranoid. This wore off totally in 2.5hrs. I will do this again.
I then shot 60mg IM. What I felt was sensory overload. I did not hole and my CEV’s, which I LOVE SO MUCH, were dark. It was like the “backlight” wasn’t on in my head to illuminate my CEV’s to their fullest. This happened to me before when I shot K at a little too high a dose, just before the K-hole dose. I could see them, they changed to the music in my headphones but not like my last trip. What was SO INTERSTING about this trip was the sound of my vocal trance music in my headphones. It was like the music was being spoon fed to me in my mouth and the product was the best tasting sweet, watery ice cream with sugar and honey on it. SO FUCKING AWESOME, the audio. So gel like or watery/glossy with every word understandable and every synth and instrument was alive. I just wish the awesome brilliant lit up closed eye visuals were there too. Mine were there but dim. At least this time I did not beat myself up. I’m learning. I re-dosed after 2 hours with another 50mg but no lit up CEV’s and I was teetering on the edge of that looping mania, lose the plot thing that people talk about. Lucky I only did 50mg as a second dose this time.
I remember my best intense closed eye visuals with no mania/delusions last time was after I took 2 or 3 Estrazolom (a chemical cousin benzo of valium/xanax family). I had IM’d 50mg of MXE about 3 hours after I took my Estrazolom. I felt safe, calm and the most K like intense CEV’s. I have read that when benzos are taken with Ketamine, they calm the mania/psychotrophic part down. Can anyone relate? Is this what I need to do to experience the beautifull CEV’s, take benzos before?
What other drug can anyone suggest to accomplish what I want, the bright, brilliant CEV’s guided by my music. I do not like the feeling that smoking weed gives you by itself, but, if smoking some weed calms down the mania/delirium/mass confusion part, like my benzos seemed to do, therefore allowing the closed eye lit up visuals to happen, then I will force myself to smoke some weed before my MXE trip.
Since I felt like my CEV’s were dim and not as intense as before when I was on benzo’s , perhaps I should drop my IM dose down to 35mg? What do you all think?