adrian89987 said:
It's an experience beyond words because it's our ego that comes up with these words to describe it. The experience is such pure direct 'nowness', there is no escape from that moment.
What I've experienced has been a state of not being able to analyze the situation at all, or trying to figure out what is happening...It's just happening and I have no way to think about it until My ego begins to claw its way back out of the depths of the void.
weird stuff to say the least
That's exactly what happened to me! The actual experience i dont remember, it was just when i woke up that i started (slowly) to comprehend what happened (my ego regaining itself). When i woke up it was horrifying, i felt like running into a family member's room and shaking them and yelling at them to see if anything was real or not. But then i remembered what had guided me through the experience,
just be. do not fear, because there's no reason to!
FreedomOfTheMind said:
Ego loss is becoming the eternal present moment. It is when you realize that "you" (self) does not exist and is just a false center based on other people's conceptions of you, etc. Ego loss made me realize that I am not separate but am something the whole universe is doing.
Did you experience what i percieve now as everything dissintegrating into 'waves' of energy? I couldn't see thing, nor hear them, nor touch them, only
feel them at my core? Did you feel yourself dissintegrating into those waves of energy and joining them? in an exstactic rhythmic vibrational 'dance'?
Phredom - that bill hicks quote is excellent
adrian89987 said:
The one time I have experienced ego-death, it happened quick, shockingly quick. There were no visions, no thoughts, no anything...just 'the void'.
I remember my mind being 'folded', and then the nothingness that could not be 'realized' while I was there, I could only analyze the situation on the way back...and during this time I still had no idea what had happened until well after I could see again.
edit: and also I thought I had literally died on the way back
Yup, supports what others have experienced. There is no 'thinking' at the time (haha time, there is no time
) only 'being'. Only when i woke up i started analysing,conceptualising and justifying what had happened.
Xorkoth said:
I find that a lot of people say they've had ego death when really they just attained a state of deep psychedelia. The fighting that occurs is what comes before ego death. If you do not surrender, you will not experience ego death... you will only experience a terrifying meat-grinder type of experience. If you are still aware of where you are and who you are as a human, then you've not experienced ego death. True ego death is rare, I think.... people throw the term around far too easily.
Actually I think complete ego death would be impossiuble to remember since the ego is necessary to form memories. What most people mean when they say ego death is ego submission, where just the barest thread is hanging on, maybe not even enough to remember your humanity but enough that your human self can remember parts of it afterwards.
Ahh yes the fighting, do not fight,
just be, do not judge the images,sounds,feelings of angels and demons, just acknowledge their presence and let them glide along your consciousness, then you will realise consciousness is just our own illusion
I knew where i was (well, not during the experience, afterwards when consciousness was obtained) i was
everywhere, i was everywhere that the universe was, i was merged with everything that ever was and ever will be. Knowledge knows no boundaries, and thus there is no good and evil, truth and false, YOU (or me
) stand between the two, YOU are the one that decides, and decisions are products of your ego.
I must say, after that night i have never been the same again. sometimes i wish i didn't do it, other times i feel glad. I keep having an urge to tell people about it, but for some reason i dont want to dictate it to them , i want them to find it for themselves. Music (especially pink floyds dark side of the moon album) now has meaning behind meaning, literature also does the same, science,religion,everything all have meanings behind meanings. We are uncomfortable reaching behind the surface, because its the unknown and therefore scary, thus only a few will ever meet the fairies
I have gained a new found love and respect for maths/calculus. I find it most accurately depicts the bigger picture.
The universe/consciousness is 1, the opposite is -1 as everything has opposites (otherwise it wouldnt be) so unconsciousness/nothingness is -1
the square root of -1 (it's a square root because of duality) is i (hehe i find that choice of lettering to be funny)
in a complex number there are always 2 parts. the
real part ( x ) and the
imaginary/not real part ( iy ) . Just like in life, there are always polar opposites. All things aren't just on the linear (true, or false) 'real' number line, there always will be a corresponding 'not real' part in another dimension.
(i dont even know if any of this makes sense, hahaha oh well)
Also, to those that say 'y' amount of 'x' substance is better to obtain ego-death, maybe look inside instead of out? prepare your mind, a fool can take a gram of LSD and just get caught up in the pretty swirls for a few hours, whilst the faithful can take a microgram and experience ecstacy
Remember, chemicals like LSD/DMT/etc are merely keys that unlock your brain. There are many other keys which can do the same (meditation,yoga,etc) What use is a key, if you dont know how to use it?
