I dex daily...I know I shouldn't....it started a couple years ago when I had a bad cold and got prescribed some shitty syrup that was basically CCC syrup, I was ignorant to drugs and dxm then, and I drank a couple swigs from the bottle and felt pretty damn good that night.
I started researching dxm then. I was interested in discovering more about this drug, but I got busy with life and forgot about it for a year or so.
One year later, I got into other drugs and found renewed interest in dxm. I started stealing it (bad, bad idea, I don't steal it anymore) and dosed my first Delsym while I was working the night shift at Arby's, not knowing if syrup would make me nauseous or not. Luckily it didn't, just made me extremely outgoing and carefree. I felt great. I wanted more.
From there I discovered sucrets, zimax, robo max strength, and all the rest. I dexed whenever I could get my hands on it. The experience was far more intense back then. I was blown away everytime I took it, got my ego killed quite a few times but I loved it.
All my life I've had severe depression and anxiety, and the afterglow from dxm made it all go away. I don't get an afterglow now. One night, I dosed a zimax and for some reason it FUCKED ME UP HORRIBLY. I was dizzy and motion sick, had no memory, felt way off for a few days. I swore off dxm after that.
Fast forward five months or so. I had a cold that was lasting for what seemed like forever. I went and bought some robitussin, and thought hey, maybe that incident with zimax was a fluke and I shouldn't forget about dxm altogether. That was 3 months ago. Ever since then, I've been taking dxm nearly everyday, up to twice a day. I'm psychologically addicted. When I don't have dxm I get depressed and feel hopeless. I feel numb, I get no pleasure from life. When I'm on dxm I see things in a different light and I love it. My trips have grown significantly less intense. I have a growing tolerance to dxm, and I'm growing used to being in a disassociated state of mind. I love it. I love the feel of dxm in my body...its bliss.
Nobody knows about my 'cough syrup' addiction. I see it as far more than just cough syrup. Dextormethorphan is a powerful, mind blowing drug. There's a certain level of shame with my addiction. Most people laugh when you mention getting high on cough syrup. They don't take dxm seriously, I guess. Its not a 'real drug' to alot of people. I don't have any friends, but I never have. I see the world in a different way that nobody else I encounter IRL does. I don't know what I'd do if someone found out.
So to those who think 'its just an otc drug', don't underestimate dxm. Use it with caution. Only 1/3 of those who try dxm enjoy the experience, and I guess I'm one of the few who also gets addicted to disassociatives. If I could get ketamine...god knows what I'd get myself into.