Wow so I think my last post on Bluelight was almost two months ago, when I said "I have a lifetime supply of 3-Meo coming, it's about to be a fun summer!"
And if you've guessed that I've been on a wicked 3-Meo bender since then, well, you're not entirely incorrect. I've avoided dosing every day, of course....I do have responsibilities and the like that make daily dosing of this one a major no-no.
But I tell you what. 3-MeO-PCP is....just pure fucking magic. What a wonderful, wonderful drug. I really sincerely wish I had the time or energy to give a trip report of this past month and a half, but I'm tired and have work in the morning so I'll leave you all with this.
Since I got my 3-Meo-PCP roughly a month and a half ago, I've been taking it fairly frequently. I tried to not do more than 1-2x per week at the beginning. I still dont go deep with it more than once a week or so, but I've begun microdosing slightly more often (in doses of ~1-3mg) than I think I should be. I'd say on a given week, I go really deep with it maybe once (I'm talking 30-50mg throughout the course of the night, spaced out into bumps of ~10mg taken every hour or so), and I'll microdose an additional 2-3 days of the week. And I really don't know what to say about this compound other than that it's fucking magic. It's mania, it's bliss, it's everything I was promised and more. Part of me genuinely believes that microdosing this compound has genuinely made me a better, more insightful, happier, more creative, etc person. Another part of me knows that this is how dissociative addiction starts, and if I knew what was best for me I'd flush the stuff before it becomes a beast I can't control.
But I'm afraid it's a bit too late for that. I have really really done my best to not be TOO impressed with this stuff, and I've done my best to keep my doses infrequent enough, especially my high doses, that I feel there's no real damage being done here. Cognitively, I feel better than I've ever been, and people at work have noticed how much happier I seem, how much more I'm laughing and smiling and just generally being a good vibes-y, fun loving, relaxed, zen, and all around better person. My family's noticed it too. I even credit 3-meo-pcp with giving me the courage to ask this one amazing and beautiful girl on a date a few weeks ago. We really hit it off, and we've become very close :D not too bad, seeing as how I've been single for almost a year. Very very few people know that 3-Meo is what's facilitating it, the people who DO know are also going through a similar love affair with 3-Meo, because everybody who I've given this compound to has fallen in love with it. Some of my friends aren't dosing quite as frequently as me, I know a few of my friends are dosing even MORE frequently, but we all collectively agree that 3-meo-pcp is the shit.
While it is indeed the shit, I absolutely sense darkness lurking around the corner if I don't tread lightly. I'm certain that if you abuse this one, it will eventually abuse the fuck out of you. I've been toe-ing the line between recreational, medicinal, therapeutic, spiritual, and legitimate use....as well as perhaps mild abuse, if I'm being honest with myself. Who even knows? Who's to say whether this bump or that bump or the next is gonna be the one that either solves all my problems, or sends me into a manic-depressive spiral? I keep telling myself I'm gonna take a break for at least two or three weeks, but having so much of it on hand just makes it too easy to say, "eh, why not?" I'm sure that I will end up taking a break, I need to be super sharp for school in the fall and would rather not have a mild dissociative dependency lingering around while trying to navigate school (at the best university in my state, nonetheless...I absolutely need to keep my grades up. Thank god for Modafinil, nootropics, and occasional amphetamine use!)
I abstained for a week and a half near the beginning of June. I didn't have any withdrawals, and the cravings were actually pretty minimal since I was keeping myself busy. I'm telling everyone right now: this is a fun, amazing, mind blowing chemical, it is seriously one of the best that I've ever tried. But it is also REALLY easy to get carried away with, so to echo everybody else in the thread: proceed with EXTREME caution.
One last thing: the other night I tried 3-meo-pcp + DMT. WOW, what a combo! It was easily the best DMT trip I've ever had, out of what is now probably over a hundred DMT trips. The 3-meo diminished the anxiety and body load, but added to the depth and color and overall trippyness and alienness of the experience. The elves threw me the best party they've ever thrown me, and the very next day I met the lady who I currently have a thing with...fate? Idk, you tell me. I'm going to bed, as I feel a bit sleep deprived, but hey, to every one of my disstronauts: I love you, and stay safe out there.