Well...Im back. Not sure if I'm appreciated or hated at this point-So I'll just relay information.
3-MeO-PCP always varied so much batch to batch for me that it wasn't and hasn't remained a compound of interest for me. The quality of the synthesis makes the experience. The first gram I tried-I was very kindly gifted by an awesome vendor-That was the only batch I ever tried that I consider TRUE 3-MeO, it kicked in gradually starting with cocaine+psychedelic stimulation that around the 2-3 hour mark would become extremely visual for an intense amount of time that I cannot estimate as its been years. I distinctly remember it being powerful enough that when it fully came on I would have to lay down and relax because of the intensity-it was quite pleasant tho, you just had to be prepared. No other batches I tried gave me the same or even similar effects. More just mild stimulation followed by my head feeling like a mettalic balloon. 3-MeO tended to make me depressed after stopping use and even sometimes while using. For me-it lacked the anti-depressant nature of MXE or analogues that have Ketamine related structure. Brain chemistry is so unique and interesting. Any thoughts or comparisons?
I got myself arrested for disorderly conduct while trying to apply for a job. Life and our current society is a strange brew...I appreciate good friends, but can't find any. I give anything and everything I can to those around me-and instead of support,I'm met with ridicule and disrespect. People in general are really starting to frustrate me...I love and live for Art and to write Music,Poems...just to create something interesting...but where I live-The Humans are too fucking stubborn and ignorant to actually help each other. I really just want to Travel and get the fuck out of this Cowtown. I'm seriously over egotistical women who think they run this planet and time period. I'm a very empathetic man-but where I live,the social scene is legit killing me. I'm an Artists kinda Artist...and these mother fuckers just want some copy and paste bullshit. I'm ready to get away.
I have a fractured shoulder, in a pain pill state-am an ex opiate veteran...and I'm still 2+ years clean thanks to the Self Control that 2-Oxo-PCE has given me. It doesnt kill the pain,but it helps a lot and i dont know if cannabis would be enough. Even edibles. Its fucked. Its an amazing compound,but its such a tight rope walk...A little too much and the disassociation kicks in intensely and uncontrollably. Multiple times now I've forgot entirely where I was and what was happening around me. Luckily for humanity near me, I'm not an evil fuck...I have my issues and downfalls as a person,but even in the deepest states of uncontrolled disassociated consciousness, I don't hurt people, or bother anyone...I just stare off into space and smile. I'm getting fed up with people treating Dust Heads like they aren't equivalent psychonauts. I respect each category of the psychedelic mind like separate clans or foundations. Why is it ok to micro dose LSD daily but not discos? Shits fascist as fuck. Do Humans just want to discriminate until the end of time? What the fuck is our species thinking right now? I have a strong feeling it. O-PCE works on delta receptors...just speculation but something unique is going on with this compound.
Sorry for the rant. Its been a long summer. I'm going to get my money right and travel. Our planet is beautiful right now-but human attitudes and lack of supporting one another is ruining our social beauty. I get high because people refuse to let me be who I am,no matter what I am. If I'm going to be alone-Im staying high as fuck...and honestly-Id rather have a peaceful road on my own, than a disrespectful road with judgemental egos. I'm a very unhappy creature currently. I feel like I could help so many people thru art and conversation, as well as possibly the psychedelic community with my experience...but people are genuinely making me question if Humans as a whole have the value they think they do. I'm not seeing it where I live. I need to fucking move or people need to be nicer to each other.